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Sunday, November 26, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

Peace be with you all.  As soon as you can, try to settle down.  The first thing you should always do, is what?  As soon as your eyes open in the morning, tell God you love Him.  When your mind becomes more active, tell Him why you love Him.  When you come to a meeting either ordained of God, by God, be free to open your heart to God.  If you could know what a contact it is just to say words like this, Lord, I love you and thank you for another day of life that I can love and serve you better, Lord.  God’s spirit, God’s life, refills and cleanses.  I know it’s very difficult for, and it has always been for me too, to understand what kind of a being of Love God is, on the level of intelligence given to us.

I think I’ve expressed to you a number of times this year, that after all the years of my life on earth, only a few years ago, God allowed me to find out what His will is for my life, and for every life, everywhere.  There’s a general will of God and there are individual, specific wills of God.  When I found out what God’s will for my life was, it was so overwhelming, I was speechless.  My speechlessness was the result of such love and confidence God had in me, that He would trust me to understand how He loves me.  His love for me is a gift, as it is to all of us.  I just want you to live for me.  It was that simple.  Just live for me.  I was always looking for some words or instructions outside of my life, so that I would be assured that it did not originate from me.  Because we all want the confidence to believe that someone else is directing us, but we want the assurance of this direction from something natural, like when I take up a piece of paper my fingers and my brain have all quickly told me I’m holding this kind of a piece of paper.  But God is much higher than that. He trusts me to trust Him, that what He says to me is true.  So I found out that God’s will for my life and every life is to live out for God that piece portion of the life He gave me and He’s letting me live with Him only in my right ear.  That was a revelation.  Because in all the scriptures that He had ever taught me, all came into place uniquely.  I will be with your mouth.  Don’t take any premeditative thought what to say or think, I will give you a mouth.  It won’t be you, it will be the Holy Spirit.  The Holy Spirit will honor the word.  A man may direct his steps, but the Lord, He plans them.  The man can do nothing.  It’s God in me.  What about my salvation?  God is working out my salvation.  All God wants me to do is don’t get flustered and frustrated that some one else is leading me.

I may want to make a plan, and I find myself scratching it all out.  Why am I doing that?  Then God’s sweet voice says, that’s not what I want written.  You’re too tight.  Relax.  Let me flow.  But I say, Lord, I don’t like your words.  And the Lord says, You’ve got to learn to like them.  They are simple words.  I read people’s books, they’ve got so many words, you have to take a dictionary all the time just to find out what does this word mean.  Nobody talks like that anymore, and God knew that when he just gives me simple words.  Everything God does for me is simple.  But everything in me doesn’t want it that simple because then I don’t get any credit for doing anything.  And that’s the way God wants it.  Then I found out, when I just give up, I let God tell me everything and do it, let God work in and through me, and go along with it, He gives me all the credit and He calls it faith.  He said you’re a very righteous man, Julius.  I said, but Lord, I’m not doing anything, I’m just cooperating.  He said, that’s the way I did it with Abraham.  That’s the way I do it with anybody.  Then He revealed to me what the real sin is.  Thinking I’m doing everything myself.  And from then on, I stopped.  I got me a new life.  I found out what the new covenant is and one of these days I’ll teach it all to you.

God doesn’t have to talk to me anymore.  I’m living His life.  I’m a peaceful, contented, unified, internally, happy human being.  Why?  Because I fused into God and all  I do is I have the privilege of only living in my right ear.  Think of it.  What a privilege that is.  I listen, while God talks.  And I marvel.  I watch how God moves everything in my body.  I don’t know why I have eyes in my ears, I don’t know how that works.  All I know is, I can hear and see everything from my right ear.  That’s meaningless to some of you, unless you are very spiritual.  One day you are going to find out there’s a whole inner man as one big eye, one big ear, one big mouth, one big nose, and one big feeler.  The whole being.  And God led me.  He wanted me to come to this place, and He’s done something wonderful for me.  I’m a gentile Jew.  Think of it.  I haven’t been Jewish for over fifty years, and all of a sudden He’s given me a wonderful Jewish spirit.  I feel a little awkward, because I eat, I think, I see, I hear, I feel like a gentile.  I don’t know any difference.  Because fifty years of living with the gentiles, I don’t know anything else.  And I found out why is that necessary and just lately He’s put a wonderful desire in me and I’m back into the scriptures, and I’m reading them like a Jewish person, and boy, are they opening up, and I have the kind of nature, once God reveals something to me, I want to covet everything. That’s the nature of God and of all the angels, and so I’ve had some wonderful messages and lessons for us in this coming year.

And all of you have written me, either that you want to attend, or that you can’t attend, or you are unable to attend in the hearing God’s voice meetings, and unless I’ve called you, or spoken to you, you already know that you are excused or you can’t come and there are some I still have to talk to because I want to help them, but, basically, all those that have been told, have been told, and the rest will be able to continue, and I’m going to start them on January 7, in the afternoon at 1:00, that means we’ll end at 12:00, those of you who are coming for that whole day, you can take you lunch from 12:00 to 1:00 and then from 1:00 to 3:30 or 4:00, I’ll teach you about God’s voice, and that’s something we should really need to know.  How God wants us never to sit in judgment on the Holy Ghost, and many of us have done it and are still doing it, because we don’t understand that a human beings moving around in life could be the 100% prompting and command instruction of the Holy Spirit.  We all sit in judgment on one another.  You’ve got to stop that.  And when God finds a foundational people that will let Him live in and through them, and speak through them, you will find out, this God of love has even given to us omnipotence, to live the life He wants, in these closing days of planet earth’s human history.

Much is going to happen. 1996 is a preparatory year for many things to culminate, close, come to a complete end and a new beginning.  You are going to hear of many, many multiple disasters.  Sometimes, no let up, because God has to take out certain evil that is not that evil.  The evil God will let live will be the worst of all evil.  That’s to train and refine His people.  You don’t know what it means to say, I love you, God, and what is waiting for someone, who will back those statements up with the giving up of their life.  That’s why this coming time of universal trouble by world dictator will be the outward, physical embodiment of what you and the rest of the planet have wanted, inside, hypocritically, to happen outside, freely.  And God has allowed this man to be raised up in his humanity as the one half side of natural preparation which the world will accept because he will meet and approve of their ungodlike standards which nobody calls anymore, godlike.

Many of you are ashamed of God.  You think you don’t mean to be, but you are.  You’re ashamed of God, because if you weren’t, everyone of us would be filled with power and persecution.   But you’re ashamed.  It means you lose your job in some cases.  It means you may be temporarily wounded, bloodied, just to test you.  Some of you may be in an awful predicament, because God will not let you be touched or hurt, and God will deform, punish and destroy in your presence, certain human beings whether they be children or old people or in-between.  God’s power does not make human distinctions based on emotional, human evil, and its goodness.  And things are going to happen.  I hope that all of us remain in this work.  But I know myself, as a man and as the Lord, one third of you are phony.  You are a phony human being. You come for years to hear the truth, but your heart is black with evil.  You only take God’s truth in because it’s convenient, it doesn’t cost you anything, you haven’t lost your father and mother because of it.  You haven’t lost your husband or wife because of it, you haven’t lost your job because of it.  You haven’t lost any of your worldly friends who like you because of it, you haven’t rebuke people who are crooked in your presence.  You’re ashamed to speak out for God when God’s spirit prompted you, “talk”, and you won’t, and yet you were all called to be prophets and prophetesses to demonstrate.  And you’ve never studied that call.  There’s over twenty prophetic demonstrations in my Bible, everyone of them was lived by human beings who said they loved me.  If you could see of those twenty, that even I have a ?real reign? From the least to be approved, to the best to be approved.  I’m not even speaking of those called who became false prophets and false prophetesses, you’d be shocked at the things that God requires of prophets and prophetesses and you never get the message answered until the prophecy and God’s satisfactory mind is made known to you, and sometimes it takes years.

If you ever understood what it cost a human being to be a true prophet and prophetesses of the living God, ninety percent of you would disqualify.  And the ten would have to be put into such trials and tests so that you don’t weaken.  I’ve told you often, and it’s hard to get through to you, this is not a religious organization.  That’s why part of the embarrassment is you have no name for your church.  There is no name for this movement and there never will be because you were trained to be first, decent and upright human beings.  Then secondly, God needs you to dramatize, act out certain sins, to have people accuse you, and to have you so calm that you allow the accusation to come upon you, like it did upon me, as Jesus.  You have no form, there is nothing beautiful about you, you are accused of being guilty before God, you’re a transgressor in the sight of God, and it pleases God, Himself, to crush you and bruise you, to try you.

One day, some of you may be worthy to hear my explanation of how I called certain human beings to demonstrate for me for their generation.  I call it the “hurry-up method” of their profession.  Whoever would volunteer to be a prophet and a prophetess for the living God accelerates their profession, because otherwise, after death, and you must believe me, I never lie, and I will never lie, it takes some people thousands upon ten  thousands of years to get out of them the evil and the sins of their nature, and all the time there has been a basis of love for God, and as long as that’s there, they can never be sent to a hell that’s annihilatable.  God has hells that will be annihilated.  And He has hells that will be caused to be promoted, but there are people who are in the deepest hells, they’ve been there beyond your imagination how long, and they can rise by trading into another one, because you don't know how long it takes to get that evil out of you.

You have the greatest privilege of all human beings.  You not only have the Son of God, your Creator, but you have his wife the Holy Ghost with you too.  And nearly all of you have never learned who this woman is.  You don’t know who she is.  And you don’t know why I brought her, and why I’m giving her a double dose in one human lifetime of what my humanity had to take in two life times, and yea, four life times.  You have got to change your mind quickly about this work, and if this plan is God and His word and work more important than your husband, more important than your wife, more important than your parents, more important than your sweetheart, more important than your job, more important than your own living a life in this world.  You have to come to that decision.  And if I had a checklist and went down to everybody, there would be less than ten people in this audience who could qualify with this statement:

     “Lord, I love you with all of my heart, with all of my soul, with all of my mind, with all of my might and with all of my strength.  I’m yours to live in, to talk in, to live through, to talk through.  I have no other purpose of living in this world except only and for you.  And I’m not ashamed of you, regardless of what situation you put me into, and only by your grace, Lord, I am ready to give up my life for you.”

So many of you will never even say that and mean it and let God show you whether you mean it or not.  That’s why I’ve had to wait.   And whether you believe me or not, fifty percent of my waiting has been for the young people that are both here and that are coming from everywhere.  But they were like you when you had no where to go but to the truth and you were ready to go anywhere God wanted you to.  That was a good attitude, because God drew you by His power that healed, which many of you have forgotten.  And the change of mind, which many of you have forgotten.  And the reason my spirit  doesn’t knock you out on the floor anymore is because most of you are clean.   But when these new people start coming, just in the perimeter, just to the outer circle of our presence, they will start to shake and move all over, because the evil in them can’t take it and they don’t realize it’s all the evil in them that’s reacting, because you’ve been taught that evil can both possess and become the person, and inhabit where there’s a struggle between the person and the evil, or overcome, be upon, surround, or at a great distance, infiltrate.  And you don’t understand, these are more important than any education you’ll get in this world and any job you’ll ever have.  Some of you are working at jobs everyday you hate it.  Your soul is hurting, it’s not the one God wants for you, and you haven’t got the faith to step out and see where does God have the job for you.  Because your job should be consistent with your call.  Don’t choose anything that doesn’t make you a better person in your call.  Some of you have never even considered realistically that you have a call, or what is your call.  That also proves you don’t belong to this work.

I want you to see an attitude.  Here is the Creator of the universe, who has condescended to descend and be born a man a second time.  This time, an evil, sinful humanity.  Grows up, eventually comes into the awareness of his pre-existence like he did as Jesus, and he finds human friends who both hate him and who both like him, and a very few who love him, but are cautious.  He hardly finds anybody who genuinely loves him because he’s God.  But they love him for all the wrong reasons.  They feel good in his presence, they get healed in his presence, their minds are opened up immensely, clearer in his presence, but they never like to stay in his presence just because they love him or they want to do his will.  If they knew that in all the years as human beings in their prayers to the God they said they loved, and would take time to pray, and your prayer lives stink.  Just pray for one reason only.  God exists.  He loves you, He’s called you, He’d like to converse with you and introduce Himself to you and would like to introduce you to His eternal awareness.  God has so many gifts, so much reality and He wants to give, and He cannot, because you haven’t even qualified for the first stage of entrance.  Many of you.  God is not first, always and continuously in your life.  That makes you a hypocrite, a phony.  If God were first in your life and that would be true, you’d find out what it means in this generation, to say you love God.   And if you’re feeling terrible now, that’s good, because you’re suppose to, so that God will get a reaction from you, and it qualifies me of being a true prophet, and it qualifies her of being a true prophetess, because you said you want the truth.  Well, believe it or not, the truth will always hurt if you have evil in you.

You don’t understand.  God can give you a mind that begins to think.  All these years, I’m the creator, this is the creatrix.  Why don’t we have one minister?  From all the religious denominations on earth, especially the Christians, I haven’t got one minister in my entire fifty years.  And you haven’t either. What do we attribute that to?  I haven’t had one Jewish rabbi interested enough even to hear or listen.  I wonder why?  Many reasons.  Two of them I can reveal to you.  You couldn’t handle them and you’re not ready for them and there is no real Jewish interest in this people to be hungry for God to go back to Israel.  You’re all selfish.  Do you know what it means if the Lord goes back to Israel?  Eighty percent of you will stay in America.  Some of you have accepted your old age as incapable of doing anything.  But you don’t want to be out of God’s will, you think.  Well, for this people, like no other people or church, you have heaped upon you all previous calls God has ever given, that accelerates and goes beyond, and if they failed Him, and you’re failing Him, your reward is far greater of punishment than anyone who has ever lived on this planet.  Because to him who has been given much, much is required.  And some of you have never even considered the seriousness of even being called to this work, and I’ve given you warning after warning for many years.  Stop being a phony.  Get out of here, get away from here, and suffer whatever eternal consequences you’ve already got.  Don’t keep adding to them.  They get worse and worse.  Hypocrites are number one on the list of unbelievable torture and torment both in this life and when you die.  It would be better to be ignorant and stupid and sinful, than to be a deceiver and a hypocrite.

It’s like a job.  God is your employer.  He never made a mistake when He called any one of you to His job, but the trouble is, you’re goofing off.  You’re lazy.  You’ve been born in America where you think you deserve compensation, and you deserve benefits, you deserve everything before you do one bit of work.  Well, that’s America.  You deserve nothing but a torturous hell from God’s viewpoint.  And you are going to go there.  Your whole problem is, you’re working hard not to go.  And that is, death to self.  Being unashamed of God, being unashamed that He’s called you.  Being unashamed of what He may have called you to.  And learn that God can be for you.  There are only two things in your finite existence that will cause a reaction of some kind.  Punishment and the fear of it.  Because you are so full of evil and laziness and indifference, the only thing you do when you’re punished is, you lie.  Most people punished, lie.  “I won’t do it again, I promise, I’ll change.”  Pure lies.  What happens?  As soon as the alleviation of their punishment stops, they are right back to where they were before, worse.  They don’t take it to heart.  And you haven’t been noticing that most of the Sundays, I have to devote half of the morning meeting to just “pep talk”.  This is a pep talk.  I should be giving you the word.  You should be taking it, listening to it, and applying it immediately.  You make everything in life take precedence rather than God.  I have some people tell me they don’t need any more teaching of God in certain areas, because they are already prepared, they are already hearing God, they see God, some people have such gifts so perfect, they don’t need to hear from God any more on those gifts!  And it’s too late for some people.  I just let it go.  And other people, you can’t depend on them.  You call them to do certain things.  An inconvenience.  How many of us are ready to be called at 3:00 in the morning to go do whatever God wants?

Attitude.  Attitude.  Our attitude is so disrespectful to God, no wonder He will not empower us with supernatural power to really work.  Because He’s counting on His people as a foundation.  You people who are builders and you work with contracting.  You already know that if you are going to build a house you have to be sure it’s not on sinkable land.  Most people build, and they are going to pay for it.  Hardly anybody builds to profit.  Their whole motives are wrong. Your business transactions are filled with cheating, lying, deceit, you’re crooked.  Everyone of us have a spirit of cheating and crookedness in us.  We don’t want to be outstanding and be honest, because everything is designed to kill us if we’re honest.  But we don’t realize that if we really took a stand and they want to kill us, we haven’t given them a chance to try and we haven’t given God a chance.  We are ashamed of God.  It comes down to that basically.  Some of you will be the most outstanding Bible teachers if you left this work and went to a denomination that’s going to hell.  They would accept you just like that, because you are so well taught.  They don’t even feed them.  You, you’re overfed.  And if I don’t wake you up quickly before the coming year, some of you are going to physically die under God’s wrath.  And it will be that you will never attribute it to His wrath.  This may shock you.  No one I have ever called was suppose to die before us two.  You can do what you want with that statement.

We better quickly, severely find out if the God that these two people teach is the God that created you and has called you.  Because if you come to that decision, you had better change your priorities.  And that means some of you are going to lose your parents, some of you are going to lose your husbands and wives.  Some of you are going to lose your children.  Some of you children are going to lose your friends, your parents and everybody.  It’s got to come down to that.  And if I don’t prepare you quickly most of you will have to take the mark of the beast that’s going to come in less than ten years.  And you are going to take it.  Because everything in you, right now, has already been taking it.  You’re doing it.  You don’t know how to withstand the scorn, the shame, the rebuke, the reproof, the casting out of the so-called worldly business and friends and relatives.

You don’t know how to be uninvolved.  It’s very simple.  You love God, you are not a hypocrite and you could care less concerning the consequences.  That means you have a total crutch that nobody can do anything to you unless God wants them to, and if He lets them, then you go along with it, you’re in God’s hands, and see how far, some of you have never given God the opportunity to take you to an ultimate point where God could step in and say, Get your hands off of this, my child.  You won’t give God that opportunity.  You won’t take the embarrassment and shame.

Some of you have such power from God lying dormant, that while people are cursing you and threatening you, and you stay calm, the power from your life, given from God with your gift, without you’re knowing how, will immediately paralyze their mouth and they will never be able to talk again no matter what anybody does.  And you will be astounded.  In other cases, deformity will happen in their body.  Some of you are unworthy for God to even use and work with you, because you are gutless cowards.  Absolutely.  Both to your husbands and wives, to your children, to your relatives, to your friends.  My relatives, when I stood up for who I was, and my prophetic work, I could read their hearts.  Here’s what they said in their heart.  He is a missugenah, he’s crazy.  He’s living an adulterous life, he’s got a wife, and he’s here trying to tell us how to live right.  That was in their heart.  And I revealed it and ever since then they want nothing to do with me.  That doesn’t affect me.  The only people I would even think a little bad about, if they didn’t want anything to do with me, is people like you.  People who know the truth and put values differently.

Some of you don’t have the right values yet.  You come to meetings like this once a week for three hours hoping that your selfishness will be answered and that your evil will be condoned, and it won’t cost you anything except a few miserable boring hours of hearing the truth, from a man and a work that seems to be going nowhere.  That’s good. That will get rid of you in time.  God has got a clientele waiting of people who are so hungry for Him, He needs a foundation, that no matter what comes against this foundation it will not shake them or hurt them.  And I’m telling you, if you fail with me and Joanne, you fail with God, and you will get those words after death, and some of you right now can never be called a friend of God.  You are not my friend.  You don’t like to hear about God.  Why a half hour of being in our presence is so hurtful and boring to some of you, we can’t take you, because you can’t take us.  And some of you have such a hunger to be with either one of us and you don’t understand why we push you away.  That’s for your good.  But you don’t know that.

And there are some of you we allow to come very close, yet you don’t belong to our heaven.  But we let you come close to try you, to see whether you will be honest in our presence, you will love the truth we give you no matter how much it hurts you and whether you can qualify to be in the presence of everlasting fire.  Some of you could not stand the intense heat that would come from within you, from us, if you were in agreement and unification with us.  It goes from the mildest form.  “Did not our hearts burn within us when He spoke with us by the way?”  What?  Concerning the things of God, to the most intense maximum in your finite humanity, and that is, who can dwell with everlasting burning?  And that’s why some of you are very fidgety, you’re uncomfortable, you can’t stand us, because the evil in you is still predominant.  It’s very, very vivid to us.  Why, some of you, after all these years are still at a great distance.  Mostly from her, and some of you from me.  And you will not seek the answer to freedom, from such restriction.

And you’re thoughts.  When you first came, I could reveal anything about you and to you.  That, of course, encouraged you because nobody knew you but God.  Well that’s one of those many little calling card that I give.  I keep calling cards with me.  It has on it only one word.  GOD  And all the years I’ve been carrying a calling card, not one person knows who I am, for me to give it to, or even have an incentive to give to, to get them to know me.  But I’ve kept it.  I obey God.  And, in your prophetic role and call, you haven’t studied my scriptures, you can go to Genesis to Revelation to find every basic reason for why God called you, and some of you have never done that.  You’d be shocked at what a prophetic role you could find out that God called you for and to, and it will change the rest of your life.  Some of you are taking studies, they’re absolutely meaningless.  They have nothing to do with bettering you in your call with God.  You would be better off, Stop being a hypocrite!  Get out of this work.  You don’t even have to tell anybody, like some people, they are so gutless, they just drop out, they don’t let anybody know they are no more part of the work.  They haven’t got the guts to say, I don’t believe in this anymore.  I’m going out. 

It’s so simple to be real.  But what a price it costs, both sides.  And, God cannot use a people who are filled with inward hypocrisy.  You don’t speak as, and like, you are.  You say one thing, you hide another.  All of us.  I would not know this, if I hadn’t gone through it.  And if some of you have a very God given gift, every word I’m telling you is already unified with me.  There is nothing in here that is not coming out here.  I’m not two faced, and I’m not two minded.  I have one voice, one mind, one heart.  I’m telling you like it is.  That’s why I don’t need to lie.  I tell the truth.  And nobody is going to heaven a divided personality.  Some of you have justifiable reasons for certain things you are doing, though your heart would like to be doing something more for God.  And you feel guilty, because spirits are making you guilty.  I’d like to free you from that, and teach you on how to hear God’s voice so you don’t have to feel guilty.  And some of you are phony.  You don’t even need to hear God’s voice, but you think you do.  You’re phony.  If only God could get a people who He could put a search light on, and no matter what He shows them, they  will do something with it.  He can work with a people like that.

 Everyone of you, as human beings, resent being lied to.  I want to see the hand that says they want to be lied to.  Nobody.  And yet, I’d like to see the hand that would like to tell the truth all the time.  Well.  It will cost you something.  The reason I’m this strong is because of what it cost me all my life.  Because, little by little, when God reveals His will to me, as difficult as it was, I put it into practice with all my awkwardness.  I showed God I have a heart that wants to do His will, regardless of all the restrictions due to heredity, environment and actuality, somewhere in there was a heart that wants to do what’s right.  God’s right, not man’s right.  And it cost me.  Every time I put it into practice I was in persecution and suffering.  I know what it is to have your heart broken when you are divorced.  I know what it is to have your heart broken when your children are taken from you.  I know what it is to be totally in love with a human being and have your heart torn out by methods that you can never have that human being.  I know what it is to be so alone and have all the sexual desires hurting beyond belief, and my conscience to God, no sin, I would be in pain, I couldn’t work.  I knew what that was for ten years.  I know what it is to have people love you, and lie to you and think they are deceiving you.  And allow yourself to be cheated, and lied to, and hurt without revealing the culprit.  I’ve been through that.  I know what it is to hold grudges, that every time you hear the name of a person that caused this grudge, you would pray for their death.  And every time you’d hold that grudge and pray for their death, God would not let you be healed, and would not let things go for you, and you’d be deprived and hurt.  I know what that’s like.  Until I found out how difficult it is to give up those grudges.  Give up those hurts, and take everything as coming from God and be man enough to admit to my evil mistakes and keep my mouth shut when I was upright, honest and true and let them say and do what they want, no matter what the hurt cost me.  I’ve learned that.  I’ve learned how to be misunderstood, and by being misunderstood, how it benefited other human beings in their evil.  Keep quiet.  God will someday show who is who, and why is why.  If it’s not in this life time, that’s my cross.  It pleased God to bruise him, to make his soul an offering for sin.  Everything is designed to free you from sin. 

Do you realize that just by coming here, you are under a tremendous blessing.  Do you ever stop to think, why doesn’t God want certain human beings to hear the truth about their evil so they cannot be freed?  Why does God want people not healed?  Don’t tell them the truth so they can’t be healed.  Do you know that’s in the Bible?  Why does God speak in language people cannot understand, that prevents them from understanding, and that will never allow truth to come into them, because He doesn’t want them better!   And that’s shocking.  Why?  Do you know what heaven we like?  To take a pure phony and put him in heaven, he’d hurt every angel in heaven.  God will never allow it.  God has preventative methods to keep people from getting ahead.  What you think is people getting ahead, all evil is only permitted for some ultimate good or God would never allow it, and you haven’t got the faith in God that if He allows evil to hurt you, to work you over, you must have the attitude God must see this is good, somehow for me, or He would never allow it.  It’s a wall.  Every wall can fall down like it did in the days of Joshua if people will do God’s will, God’s way.  Some of you are fighting to knock down walls God will never get rid of in your life.  And they are aggravating to you, because you are aggravating to God. Some of you don’t realize that every time you refuse to obey God, that refusal sets up both your sin and the punishment of your sin.  Because you haven’t seen.  You cannot deal with God, the way you deal with your self and with human beings.  God is to be revered.  God is to be worshipped.  God is to be respected.  God is to be feared.  God is to be adored.  He’s your life.  And you are hurting Him.

Every pain, God feels.  Every pain.  He’s big enough to know how to correct the people who are hurting him.  You, you’d kill him right away.  God knows many people hurting him are ignorant.  Everybody in this meeting has hurt God throughout their lifetime, many, many times. How come He loves us and has freed us to a great degree from hurting Him.  His love is patient.  He foresaw that all the hurt we give Him would some day work to our benefit to save us, and we can help other people.  If you remember what you were freed from, what pit you were dug out of, you won’t be so high-faluten in your arrogant judgment to sit in judgment on both God and His Spirit and the people He uses in another human being.  Some of you have the attitude, like that old man had when I met him as a young man, and he boasted of all the things that he did for God and all the time he was talking, God said to me, he’s going to tell you that you’re a young pup, and young pups cannot teach old dogs new tricks.  So, I said in my heart, Lord, what do I do when he says that?  He said, just tell him, You’re too old, old dogs have to be laid in the grave.  God knew that was His child.  I was totally ignorant.  But I heard from God, just like when God told me about this chaplain in the Navy, the lieutenant commander, and I was just a sailor, and he had a ring on his finger, and God said, Ask him if he loves Jesus or his wife more?  I didn’t know what that meant.  I didn’t know that would mean you are going to a nut house.  What if God told you, you are going to say this statement and then you are going to a nut house.  Would you do it?  No sir, not you.  And not me either.  But God doesn’t tell us those things.  So you just ask him.  Who do you love more, me or his wife?  So, in my simplicity, as soon as I heard from God, and God was finished talking, I said, Excuse me, sir.  May I ask you a question?  And he said, What is it?  I said, I see you are married.  Do you love Jesus more or your wife more?  He said, That’s a ridiculous question.  I said, Why?  He said, Of course I love my wife more.  And then the Lord said, don’t say another word to him. I said, You must be crazy.  So, what happened?  It got me into a nut house.  He thought I was crazy.  You never know what God is going to use you for, and how and why.

I didn’t have these words today for you.  They came only as I stood up in front of you.  That tells me God has a last call of reality for this people.  God has for years kept begging you in the way, to exhortation, change, get real.  This generation has in it people who are hungry for God.  They are looking for something real.  Like many of you were when you met us.  That generation has arrived.  This coming year we should have a lot of new people who love God.  We’ll get some phonies, but they will by attrition, be getting rid of themselves.  Some of you already show it.  You can’t stand spirits in people.  That’s a terrible thing for some of you.  If you can’t stand a spiritual person, it tells two things:  you don’t want to improve and you’re content with the evil you are in.  I mean the spirits in persons, I’m not talking about a religious person.  That’s why God has different heavens, different places.  To make you adjusted with your company.

In a meeting like this, if some of you were very spiritual, you would understand that because we are the Lord, it doesn’t affect us that way.  I can give you a certain teaching.  Everybody is going to hear it differently, and correctly.  I can take the deepest teaching and put it into children’s hearts better by moving pictures and feelings than I can in most of you who are book learnered.  Book learnered people are without hair after death, when they have made book learning the rational, which is not rational to God, and they have done away with the spiritual.  And some of you think you are spiritual because you understand.  If you saw what your brain looks like, and not this thing inside this physical head, you’d be shocked.  The word striated means stripes.  Have you ever seen brains without hair that are striped?  In the vision you can.  Ugly.  Terrible.  And what is it for?  There is no spirituality there it’s all been book learning, book learning.  And Satan is so clever.  He has designed colleges, courses, that do nothing to free the human being from Satan.  They talk about us being dinosaurs.  They are dinosaurs.  Imagine teaching certain courses just to get a credit that you can’t ever use in this ungodlike generation.  If I would ever show you how many people are without a job, that have over sixteen years of college, college.  They’ve got literature and vegetables after their name beyond your imagination.  And they can’t get a job.  And the jobs offered them are beneath their level of intelligence.  And so they don’t want a job for a peon’s wages.  Because they were educated to get an executive’s wages, but there are no executive jobs.  So what are you going to do?

(tape turned over) .  And that doesn’t always mean a liquid.  Jesus said, If you drink of what I have to give you to drink, you’ll have life eternal.  People give us words we drink, and it kills us.  People can give us killing words to drink .  Next.  They shall lay hands on the sick.  Did it say one, or two?  Plural.  Two.  Now watch.  If you laid one hand on the sick, you might get their sickness, for three reasons:  God never said both hands to the sick.  You are disobeying.  And you may not be ordained and called by God because you are not a believer and you will get that sickness.  If you pick the qualifications:  These signs shall follow them that believe.  Both hands on the sick.  But you don’t go around saying, your sick, both hands.  No, no.  You don’t ever do it.  But if someone knows what you stand for, and says, Brother Julius, I know you are close to God and I know God will answer you.  Will you help me to be well?   Both hands.  Did it say talk?  No.  What does it say?  And they shall recover.  Who here actually, literally is sick right now.  Come up here.  We all ought to praise God.  Do you realize what that means?  A congregation this big and nobody is sick.  Will you tell the devil that when you leave here, and remind the devil, wait a minute.  I did come sick today, (because some of you did come sick).  But I’ve been healed since the Lord has been talking, because you’ve done something right.  Do you know what a miracle that is?  That’s a miracle.  But when a person is sick, and they have reason to believe that you are close to God and you can heal, don’t do it with one hand.  Let  me illustrate.  Come up here Brother Fred.  Every time I call you by your human name, you should be bold enough to correct me.  Yes, Lord.  This is your Exploits.  Oh good.  Now, I am going to do this deliberately because I know he’s an honest man.  God in him is honest.  And I am going to show a difference because I am the Lord.  Now, you are going to feel something.  This is only to demonstrate.  Be healed.  What did you feel?  I felt warmth in back of my feet and in back of my head.  Now watch.  What did you feel?  I felt it stop about here.  Now what did you feel?  Incredible lightness in my head.  Now watch.  Be healed.  What do you feel?  I felt something come from you to me and kind of bounce back to you.  Do you see the difference?  Now watch.  Both hands.  And everyone of you should do it this way.  Would you get in back of him.  This is now power.  Watch how I do it.  Now I can do it this way.  What did you feel?  I still feel a warmth and a real lightness.  But it’s not leaving you.  No.  Now watch.  Be healed.  Now what do you feel?  I felt like part of you enter right into my being.  See.  Now watch this.  This is accurate.  What does it say?  They shall lay hands on the sick and they shall recover.  Where?  It doesn’t say.  What should they say?  It doesn’t say.  Oh.  Why is God so technical?  Now because I’m the Lord, I can say it like this.  Be healed.  Now what did you feel?  I felt it enter into here and kind of go up through me.  Every move was different.  All of you though, should do this.  If they ask you.  This is the best place, here.  If you knew what people who think they have power can do to you in the name of lust, I was shocked.  They are so full of deceit.  They grab you like this and say, be healed.  And you don’t get anything but disgust.  Some people, do this.  Be healed.  You watch.  They are so stupid.  They are always doing this, Be Healed.  (much laughter). 

One day you are going to come to people who want to be healed.  All you need to do is go nearer and the forcefield in you has already gone out to heal them, and knock them out, and those devils will have to go.  Don’t impress God or human beings, just do what the Lord says.  God overrules, there are people who love Him, but are they stupid.  But He doesn’t want to let them so to encourage them, they handle everywhere, or they don’t handle at all, they are doing it so sloppy, but they do love Him. But if you want 100% of whatever God said, then 100% is there. 

What does it say about devils?  Read.  They shall cast out devils.  How?  In Jesus name.  In my name shall they cast out devils.  So, you have to know what a devil is before you can cast them out.  And you have to know how a devil works.  But if a person comes to you and says, will you cast this devil out of me?  Always say, The Lord in me can do it.  The best way is speak to it.  And you will be taught, and you have been taught, if you have the gift of visions, see the kind of a devil it is, and in the spirit world, fifty percent of anybody’s freedom from a devil is the exorcising person can spiritually see this devil.  I’ve taught you, first describe the devil as a devil.  That spirit then knows you see it.  You can say, you hunchback spirit with your lopsided hunchback eye, who has very little hair on your head and is wearing that ugly covering to deceive, and right away you will know what kind of a spirit that is, a blind eye, hunchback, it’s a phony, self pity spirit pretending to be humble.  And what will it do?  It will do four things.  It will affect your brain, your eye, your back spine and your heart, and you can know that by that kind of description of that spirit.  And sometimes my love for you is greater than your understanding of how to love me, and I want you to help me so I give you a vision, and you don’t even understand that.  It was to help you be free from something in you, but you misunderstood that to be a prophesy that somebody you don’t like is like that, and you go off the deep end.

Like, the devil gave me a dream last night that I know the positive meaning of which God has held in reserve.  I was in a house, this is not from God, this dream is not from God, but I’ve learned the art that all dreams from the devil can be reinterpreted to know what God is getting ready to do for me, which the devil is trying to stop.  I was in a house, and this house was occupied by the people who once knew me, and they could never go out of the house too far because the whole place was swamp land and as you went out it got deeper and deeper, and you could drown.  And it was filled with salt.  And some of you who I know well are with me, you know I am the Lord, and these people don’t and I said, come with me, I told the owner of the house, and we’ll fix this up. So, we could only go as far as the house itself, because as soon as you opened the door it was swamp land, and it was very deep and it got deeper and deeper.  And there were snakes out there, and everything evil.  So, with total quietness and confidence, I went out, and as soon as I stepped into the first watery marsh, instantly it got dry.  And I saw all the creatures dead.  Well, that gave both me and them a little courage, those people who I knew who were with me, stayed on my right side, and I said to the owner, come, I’ll show you what can be done.  So, I took another step and a great portion of swamp dried up.  I said, we can walk a little better now.  And they didn’t know it, they could never see their neighbor, and their neighbor did not live that far away, but since they could never get out because the swamp prevented them from having fellowship with their neighbor.  So, I said, I have to do a quick work.  This swamp went to the horizon.  I said, Come with me.  So, because it dried up and they came with me, they were more encouraged, and the joy was coming in.  I said, let’s go faster.  And every step it got dryer and dryer.  And in it’s place instantly, all the salt turned into fertilizer, that fertilized the area instantly, and things started to grow, and it was spread way out.  So, I said, let’s walk.  So, we started walking, and every where at once, everything evil in those waters died, the waters dried up, the salt evaporated, and things started to grow, and when I turned around the biggest smile was on the owner of the house, and I felt good, and those whom I knew who were with me said, Why should it seem strange to you, didn’t you know this is the Creator, this is the Lord, He’s here with us, He’s going to dry out all these places with all the snakes and everything, and I looked at that person and I said, that’s right.  That’s what I’m here for.  And then I woke up. 

Now, even though the devil gave me that, I know what God meant by it.  God is getting ready to flood this people with His power, and with His Spirit, that will no longer take long to get rid of the snakes and demons that are in us, and those who love God, and who are so long and slow in coming and always afraid to get out there and do anything, the power of God is going to encourage them to come out.  And the devil doesn’t want me or us to know this, and he tried to make me afraid of the snakes and all of that.  Snakes should be number one edible for us.  Not physical snakes.  But we have a promise.  What’s the promise?  They shall take up serpents.  Ah!  And?  And if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them.  Do you know what it never says?  What are you going to do for serpents when you pick them up?  It’s in your hand, you can do what ever you want.  You can turn a serpent right around to work for you.  God is doing that to Satan.  And to God, leviathan is a big snake, he’s doing God’s will.  So, I’m also telling you, Satan knows we are about to enter into a tremendous time of encouragement.  So what’s he going to do?  He’ll do everything he can because he knows what it says in Revelation 12, he knows he has but a short time left and he is going to be very angry. 

I know that the first part of this meeting this morning healed all of you.  And Satan is going to try to discourage you.  That’s his job, and you must not let him, because this verse tells you what God thinks of the situation. Come up to the board. 

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, November 12, l995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

Peace be with you all.  I have some important dates for you to take down. To begin with there will be no meeting here next Sunday and that week, Thanksgiving Day, there will be no meeting for the Thursday weekday people.  Remember that.  But we will have a meeting Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday but none on Thanksgiving Day which is November 23.  There will be a meeting on November 26.  We won’t have any meeting in December on the 10th and the 31st, New Years Eve.  We couldn’t get it.  They have there own hall.

We have a few announcements.  Those of you who have something to say, now is the time to say it. 

Thoughtfullness:  For all of you who have ordered My Lord’s new Psalm Book, it is now ready.  There will be two days this week that you can pick it up if  you would like to jot these down.  Thursday, the 16th at the Truth Center between 11:00 - 2:00 and Saturday, the 18th between 10:00 and 12:00.  If you have any question, please see me at the break.

Who else has something to say, please come up here. 

Unselfishness:  Last Sunday, at Sunday’s meeting the Lord had put out the thought about forming groups for gifts, and the Lord inspired this vessel that I have a vision gift, but many times I don’t understand it and I was looking for help in understanding it from other people who have a gift, and I know there were some other sisters that have said that they would like some help.  And if there was some way, Lord, that we could set up the groups to implement that. 

You may be seated.  The first thing we would have to do, for all of you who have special gifts, called to this ministry, is to first realize you have that gift, whatever gift it may be.  And then, put down on a piece of paper for the Lord what is your gift, and what you predominate in that gift. Hand them in, the Lord will call together certain of you in those gifts and select from among you, one or two to be teachers and leaders, and I’ll give you the outline of the entire gift in the scriptures, and you will know how to develop it and work with it.  Eventually, two groups who have similar gifts will have to blend together.  What you agree we don’t know is, I created your entire body, inside and out, to be separate and synonymous.  Somebody tell me which two gifts in your body of the many that are there, work hand in hand, you can hardly use one without the other.  So, when one gift is specialized, the other gift will have to be trained to be specialized, and both gifts can be used.  I will give you the scripture that covers all the gifts in this way.  It’s in Corinthians, God does everything decently and in order.  It’s in 1 Cor 14:40.  “Let all things be done decently and in order.”  Now which two gifts, simply, which are so necessary for the entire body, that without these two gifts, the body is very, very handicapped?  Seeing and hearing, Lord.  Accurate.  Seeing and hearing go together.  And what you have to learn is, there are many generals, and in each of the generals, there are specific, and in every specific, there is a particular.  I’ve shown you that by the way I’ve allowed in your natural world, just for one gift, you have a minimum of ten infinite gifts in the natural world to help you with one gift.  How many kinds of doctors and professions are there for your eyes?  They are specialists.  How many for your ears?  You have no idea.  Every curve in your ear I designed to capture seven different air currents.  You think all you are hearing is in your ear.  No human being hears anything in their ear.  It’s outside of you.  The organ captures the sound.  It’s too complex for you, but God has seven different kinds of gifts on how to hear. Hardly any of you know anything about the inner ear hearing.  You hear God’s voice quiet, soft, in connection with a picture very deep inside.  I’ve had the unusual pleasure in my humanity of seeing the human hair magnified, at close up range in the most unbelievable clarity without any microscope or anything.  And in connection with my inner hearing, I can hear God, plain.  These are wonderful gifts.  And to be given to a human being, in an end time work that is going to close the world, they have to be precise, they have to be accurate.  God, my Father, has taught me, I have arrived at a place in my human career, that no matter what I say, it is 100% correct, even if I myself am not aware of it.  Because I have arrived at that plane of accuracy and many times, its proven to me I am accurate by the way I’m opposed.  And I can feel the unbelief of the natural mind pressuring, and it hurts my inward gifts.  I don’t feel bad at the person because I know it’s a devil, and I have gifts along that line.  The Lord, with His Spirit, is the giver of gifts of good things.

Many of you need the development, first of knowing what your gift is, and why you were called in this work.  I don’t want a single one of you, by January 1, l996, to have had to leave this ministry because of your reluctance’s, your refusal to obey, and your unwillingness to die.  I think of all the things that holds God’s people down is their fear of death.  The fear of persecution for what you believe.  I long to free you from the snares of the fear of death.  That can only be possible if you are really, truly a worshipper of the living God and you are not afraid to die for Him.  And God has designed many steps, up to a maximum of fifteen in your entire life, to prepare you for the spirits that surrounds death to people who don’t know what happens after death.  I have revealed all fifteen to you throughout all my ministry and I have yet to see ten of you in living every day, unafraid of anything that a man could do.  You would be such bold people, you wouldn’t be arrogant, you’d be bold.  And people would know you have walked with God, not afraid and the forcefield around you would be intense and with the use of your gifts, the accuracy.

You are mentally lazy, you are spiritually lazy, you are willingly lazy in the development of gifts in your life, and many of you have been subtly changed and removed from the direct, immediate will of God for your lives.  You are attributing you are either too young and immature or you are too old and you are getting decrepit and you don’t realize there is a negative faith.  Faith always works positive and negative.  But it works.  It’s what you believe and how you live it.  Most of you always speak negative and you create it.  It’s awkward to you to be constantly positive.  You are embarrassed at being positive.  You are ashamed of being positive because it demands and entire change in your character and in your life.   The reason the Lord wants people skilled in their gifts is in the future, when the Lord and the apostles are in confrontations and discussions, God has so designed and decided, there is to be singularity of understanding with opposition.   And so, for those times it will be like God has put blinders on us and we can’t see like the audience can hear and feel and see. And we’ll need people in the audience who love us, who want to help us and be with us, and have gifts and they can see, and while the Lords are not able to see in a discussion, you can hand them a note and say, “Lord, you show me thus and thus.”  “These are the words you gave me in your discussion with thus and thus.”

You have no idea how needed and helpful discerners are.  And if you have a discerning gift, you never use it for the glory of God when He wants it.  Because in connection with the use of gifts comes instant obedience, and you don’t know how to obey your first thoughts and feelings.  I have had the remarkable securing pleasure.  My life was in extreme failure, one time, when I was going to the bathroom, and in my act of release, the Spirit of God said to me, “Quickly, leave now, don’t make a noise.”  And I instantly obeyed, and when I left the store, three men were waiting to kill me, because I was alone, and I rushed, and took them by surprise, because I obeyed.  And I left the place I was at, and when I got outside, a spirit of love came on me, and thanksgiving, and God said to me, “Because you obeyed me, you learned instant obedience to save your life.”  I said, “Lord, there are so few who will ever hear you the way you have trained me.”  And He said, “You help them.  Many have lost their lives because they would not obey my first thought and my first feeling.” 

I’ve been through a lot that I have not recorded, but all of that has helped me to be a tender human being.  Nobody has ever taught you from a child up, what happens to a boy, a man in the stages of life, or a woman in the stages of life, if only gifts were used.  And you have confidence in the use of your gifts for God’s glory.  You are expected to be awkward, to make mistakes when you first start out, but at least try.  Yes, there will be embarrassment, yes.  There will be accusations that maybe you are inaccurate.  Who cares?  Practice makes perfect.  And the more you practice, the more perfect you become.  If you knew the kinds of gifts that are here, and I will tell you a secret, innocence, uneducated has the highest form of divine gifts.  It’s when we, as adults, start corrupting innocence and we try to put restrictions, (we don’t think they are restrictions), around innocence, those gifts become dull and they are challenged into philosophy and silence, and there are more philosophers and scientists in hell without hair and without a face, and they are absolutely ugly.  There are people in heaven, who in this world have been absolutely rejected by the educators, they are in the highest heaven, because their heart was right.  But there are people in such high heavens who are in this world brilliant and their love for God was exquisitely brilliant, they put both together.  They are usually among the highest and the best.  God doesn’t want you to be stupid or dumb.  And He doesn’t want you to be without spirituality and be all head.  Try to make them come together.

Some of you have been using your gifts consistently for years and you don’t even know how accurate they are.  Some of you have tried to receive certain gifts with your gifts, and they never work.  You see other people use them, and you think you should be using them.  Be content with such things as you have.   Now what do you think are the seven most important gifts for this ministry and of those seven, three are badly needed in meetings.  What do you think those three badly needed gifts for this ministry are?  And while I am speaking, some of you can see the answer.  There isn’t a moment that the Lord Joanne and I could be talking or in the presence, where God, if you have a certain gift, will show you a continuous movie, so perfect, it will be understood by you.  And yet, you yourselves will flounder in knowing how to use it, because God trusts you better and more than you will ever trust God, because He’s the one who give it.  Imagine a God giving gifts to people, perfect, and they don’t want to use it.  Why?  Because the humanity is always embarrassed in the use of gifts.  What do you think those three most important gifts for this ministry, that are needed badly, right away, and mostly between the ages of 15 to 27 have them working wrong.  They just need to be taught how they work. 

Lord, in 1 John 1:1, I think the three are right there.  Read it.  1 John 1:1.  That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen and our eyes have handled of the word of God.  So, tell me the three.  It’s hearing, seeing and feeling.  Absolutely.  Now you have a wonderful gift.  What gift do you have that begins with the letter D.  Discernment.  You have the gift of divine discernment, and you can use it. 

Lord, the spirit of prophecy is another gift.  Yes, very badly needed.  But there is a certain phase of it.  What do you think the other four are.  They include your five senses.  There’s five gifts there, and then it has an additional two because of the five.  What are your five senses.  I will give them to you in order.  Hearing gifts, and all that that means; seeing gifts, and all that that means; feeling gifts, and all that that means; tasting gifts, and all that that means; and smelling gifts, and all that that means.  And you have with those five, two more.  The preciseness of hearing the voice of God and the Spirit of God, within you.  It’s called inner hearing and inner seeing.  There are people who can pray. What a gift that prayer gift is.  It belongs to a high realm of faith.  You can pray for people with the gift of faith and in less than twenty four hours it will come to pass.  They know how to pray.  Everything goes into prayer.  And you can study gifts.  What chapter in the Bible breaks open the kernel of gifts?  I Cor 12.  Study it.  I gave you at least the seven.  Now, you yourselves find out which of these seven categories you predominantly have the gifts in a usefulness.  We need someone to be in charge, and a few assistants, and a selection of teachers and leaders of those groups, and I hope before the middle of 1996, I will have a battery of prophets and prophetesses ready and accurate in the use of their gifts.  I long for that.  The way you can find out is to be trained, make certain mistakes, improve on those mistakes, and zoom in on the use of your gifts.  Learn how they work and use them to help the Lord bring this world to a climatic close for the glory of God.  You will be given strength, courage.

Do you know how wonderful it is to know there isn’t a thing in you that can be embarrassed anymore by anything outside of you.  You can be accused of any immorality, and it has no effect on you.  You can be rejected by every human being while

you have a love in you for the person rejecting you, and you have no fear of dying under any conditions, as vile as this generation is.  And that comes from the love of God.  Many of you are so deficient in your call with God.  You have been going to a school, it started over twenty-five years ago.  It’s now coming to a climatic close, and God wants to see,  what has this school produced?  Some of you must be released, never again to attend the Lord’s presence or hear truth from the Lord, because you have never taken the Lord and his truths, her truths seriously.  You have developed into a religionist.  You call this church, your church.  I’ve never given it a name.  People have been called to the Body of Christ, in the last call, to be changed, some prepared for the Body of Jesus which will function for seven thousand years in a Jewish spirit.  And some of you will never leave America because America has never left you.  You haven’t planned.  You haven’t oriented, you haven’t decided wherever God goes, you’re going.  When the cloud moves you move with it.  How do you know?  You would have done things to prove to God.  Some of you have never even applied for your passport all these years.  You haven’t thought it serious.  And the thing that will be against you is, you are a gutless coward.  You don’t know that what I said, as Jesus, “Whosoever is ashamed of me and of my words in this sinful and adulterous generation, of him, shall the son of man be ashamed.” When?  When he comes in his glory and in his father’s glory, with his angels and his holy angels, and the elect, and he sits upon his throne of glory, and like a shepherd, divides his sheep from the goats, and says, “Come you blessed, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the beginning of the world.  Depart from me you cursed into everlasting fire prepared for the devil and his angels, and these on the left hand should go away to everlasting punishment and the right shall go away into life eternal.” 

I can’t understand any of you treating God with such indifference and contempt, and yet come, week after week, and hear and it goes right through your mind, right through your body, and you are sitting in an attitude of do nothing.  And judgmental, and you are not working on getting evil out of you.  And some of you are so wrapped up in the jobs of this world and you haven’t asked God, is this the job He wants you to have?  Is this the place He wants you to be going?  And some of you sit in judgment on others whom God has definitely led and told, separate yourself for a time from this work, you need training, and God sends you off to be trained, whatever it may be.  He has His own ways, His own times, and you need training out there and you will be back in the right time.  You have never understood there was an Eldad and a Medad, and they were numbered among those who belong to the synod of Israel.  God gave them the Holy Spirit in those days to be everything He wanted them to be.  I have a story on Eldad and Medad that will floor everyone of you, and all you do is hear these two names in the entire Bible and then it ends.  You have never meditated.  Everybody has inside them and Eldad and a Medad.  They are always crying out to be part of God’s spearhead work, and God will always say, No, not yet.  You don’t know how to put the Word and the Spirit together as one. 

Many of you are lazy, mentally, spiritually.  Some of you are spiritually free.  And God acts like He doesn’t even know you exist.  That is such a devastation to your growth and your pride. God must have a very special work for you, where you are going to have to be a light in a very dark world in the future, and if God doesn’t fix up your whole insides now, you will never make it.  Very few people are going to love anybody connected with this work.  We are revelers.  Most of the gifts given to everybody here is to make people guilty and aware they are dealing with God.  They will know you have been with God.  You’ve got to make your gifts precise, accurate.  That’s why I am teaching you, give every man according as his work shall be and I’m giving you scriptures, and I’m defining every possible idea of what is going to happen to now and afterwards.

Some of you need an experience for God to take you to hell.  Absolutely take you to hell and give you every feeling that goes with it.  Some of you love to kill.  You love to kill.  Some of you go hunting.  I will never approve of anyone I have ever called to physically kill any animal.  All I have to do one day is to take the animal’s life that you want to kill, and transfer it to you, and watch you slowly die.  I taught you, you are one with everything in life.  Everything.  There are only certain creatures that must be killed or put out of existence in this world and this world is so crazy, they kill the good animals and they let all the evil, poisonous ones live.  I will never disagree with anybody killing an alligator, snakes, crocodiles, bats and rats, but to kill healthy, clean animals is a part of this demoniacal system working.  They are making multi-billions all over the world in getting rid of all the good animals.  When all the good animals are being killed, you don’t know what’s happening to you.  All the good qualities in you are being killed and destroyed.  God had a reason for letting them live. 

Some of you have the gift to pray. Oh, if you knew what that meant.  To have someone come to you knowing God always hears your prayers, He brings them to pass however you pray, it comes. And to go to a person like that and say, I’m struggling.  I have a request.  I don’t know how to pray where I get God to hear me and bring it to pass.  Every gift that God has ever given this people can work for an eternal good.  Many times God surprised all of you.  You use your gifts in a singular manner and God overwhelmed you, He accomplished much.  Some of you never thought you had the power to heal and you have an altogether gift and it’s not called healing, but because you use your gifts correctly and well, God heals.  All gifts work together.  We are one with everything in life.  That’s why I tried to teach you to be universal prophets.  And I’m going to direct what I say next to all the young people.  I’m counting on you in having the guts, the courage of your conviction.  God has invested so much in our young people.  He knew that when he gave you birth and let you be born among this people in a very wise reason.  You are going to be taken over involuntarily in the near future, and I want to train you before that happens on how to use whatever gifts you have in you.  And don’t want any jealousy as to how God uses certain people and their gifts, more than others, because they showed God they are willing to be used.

Some of you have hardly ever contributed your gift and it’s use in all the years you have been here.  Study how many times have you spoken, publicly, to get both the experience of feeling everybody’s vibes and some peoples encouragement’s, and have people afterwards tell you how terrible you were, shut up, don’t get up, or you ought to do that better.  That encourages you.  Everybody should talk more than one hundred times and some of you we have hardly ever heard from.  I had to let some people go because we can’t use them.  Have you ever wondered why nobody in this people is without the use of their mouth and their throat. You all have to talk.  Some of you are so awkward in your talking because you are embarrassed.  The spirit of embarrassment won’t let you even use your vocal chords.  We ought to have a talking class.  Learn how to talk.   Some people you have to quiet them down, they talk all the time.  Calm them down. I’d rather have someone who wants to talk all the time, then someone who does not want to talk at all.  You’ve got to learn to do everything decently and in order.  Decently and in order.

And this I know you don’t like.  I’ve allowed you, since I’ve called you, to wear what you’ve wanted to wear.  To look the way you want to look.  But there’s coming a time I’ve got to change all of your looks and all of your dress.  When you say, what shall I wear? I may tell you to wear that ugly looking dress, that dumb looking pair of pants, and you don’t want to.  But I want to train you, so that one day, I may ask you to wear something that will both judge many people and save many people. You have never thought of this.

With the use of gifts, I would love to have a class, throughout the Bible. There is over twenty one demonstrating prophets and prophetesses who have done things that are so unbecoming.  Listen to this. A man is married, he’s got three children, he belongs to the President’s council, in his day you would call him the king.  He’s the king’s counselor and ambassador, and he’s gotten himself the credibility that whenever he says things, and it’s always against people, it comes to pass.  One day, he hears God’s voice and God tells him to do something which he knows is God’s ways, but it’s very, very hurtful to his humanity.  And this is what God said to him.  I want you to walk completely naked, but wear one sandal on your right foot.  That prophet tried to talk God out of it, if possible. God listened to his complaint, because God knew how difficult that is for a human being in his generation.  God took into consideration everything before being asked of him.  He knew he’d be in trouble with his wife and his children and his relatives and his friends, and his community and the king, and the counselors board. He’d be in trouble with everybody.  Because everybody will think he’s crazy.  He deserves to be locked up, but he’s a prophet.  So he did not tell them why.  No prophet and no prophetess is ever given the reason why until the prophecy is at an end for that person so that the prophecy now can come to pass.  Every prophet and prophetess gets it by faith.  Most of them never do it and they answer to God after death and in this life.  This prophet, as difficult as it was, took off all his clothes.  He had no underwear, his genitals were naked, he buttocks were naked, every part of him was naked, and he only had one sandal.  He had to get used to the feeling of getting up and having his wife look at him, and his children look at him, and the embarrassment that goes with it.  Then when he went outside of his house, his neighbors, and they all were embarrassed for him.  They did not want him in their company.  He had to go to the market and in the market everybody was embarrassed for him.  And he was embarrassed.  And they would ask him a lot of questions and he had no answer except, the Lord told me to do it.  And people looked down on him.  I want you to know his first week was very difficult, especially when he went into the king’s council.  And when the king saw him, and all the people on the council saw him, he had to tell them the same thing.   You know, when a person walks around naked, he kills lust!  All lust is killed when a person walks around naked, which is very good.  People always want to commit adultery when everything is covered up, and little bits are showing, but when you are totally naked, there is no lust.  God is very wise.  And when the king saw this man, he asked the same question.  Isaiah, Why?  And the man said, I don’t know.  The first month, he got a little more adjusted.  The first six months everybody gave up on him.  He was out of his mind.  But he got no answer.  The first year, it became part of his life.  He would just get up every day, walk around, and God gave him no message for no- body.  And for three years, day and night, that man walked around totally naked.  One sandal, he always had to wear that one sandal.  That’s the thing that was so embarrassing.  Do you know you would accept a person totally naked better than you would if he wore only one sandal.  But that one sandal  got them.  And they’d ask him, Why are you wearing that one sandal?  He said, I don’t know.  I’m obeying God.  Three years, day and night.  One day, he heard God say, Isaiah.  He said, Yes, Lord.  Your prophetic drama is ended.  Isaiah was so used to it, he said, What?  Become fully clothed.  Wear both your sandals and in seven days I will give you the reason why you did it.  Oh, that man felt wonderful.  When the seven days were over, he was sick, what a message God gave him.  Because I have sent you for three years naked and barefoot, I want you to tell all of Jerusalem.  They are going into Egypt, captured, everyone of them, because they are going to be naked and barefoot, I will show their bottom and their buttocks and every part of them to their shame and embarrassment because they have sinned against me and they will not do my will.  Now, they had for three years, Isaiah’s vision.  I wonder how they felt?  They were absolutely attacked and captured.  And they went down into Egypt, naked, ashamed and sent away from God into captivity and many died.  Why?  If someone had gotten the message, what is this prophet doing, there must be a message to us.  They could have avoided a lot of heartache.  Where in the Bible will you find this story? 

Lord, it’s in Isaiah 20.  Will you read the conclusion?  Is 20:3

3. “And the Lord said, Like as my servant Isaiah hath walked naked and barefoot three years for a sign and wonder upon Egypt and upon Ethiopia:”

Circle those words, for a sign and a wonder upon Egypt and Ethiopia.

4. “So shall the king of Assyria lead away the Egyptians prisoners, and the Ethiopians captives, young and old, naked and barefoot, even with their buttocks uncovered to the shame of Egypt.”

And why did he do that?

5. “And they shall be afraid and ashamed of Ethiopia their expectation, and of Egypt their glory.”

6. “And the inhabitant of this isle shall say in that day, Behold, such is our expectation whither we flee for help to be delivered from the king of Assyria: and how shall we escape?”

God’s people who trust in any one or thing but God, are going to go through a shameful drama to wake them up, and if that doesn’t do it, he’s going to let them be captured.  He is going to let the very sins you are committing, first shame you, to wake you up, and if that doesn’t stop you, He will let the very sin take you over and you may never be recovered again.  Some of you are very lazy.  Some of you have divided interests.  You’ve got one foot in heaven and the other foot in hell, and you think you can go to both places at once.  Some of you were called to give your whole heart and mind to the work of the Lord, and because of God’s trials to you to train you as part of your work, you have avoided God’s heartache and trials.  And you have tried to make it work for you; out from, away from the very call of God on your life.  Some of you are called not to even get a worldly job.  You have tried to get a worldly job, no matter what you’ve done, you cannot get a worldly job.  That’s because that is not your ministry.   All you have to do is go along with God and find out what does God want you to do?  Whatever God wants you to do, He’s your employer, He’ll work it out for you.  But many of you have never made your call and your election sure.  You’ve departed.  That’s why the things of God has no real, meaningful interest to you.  You don’t know how to ask God.  You don’t know how to talk to God.

From the day God called me, all glory goes to God.  He knew I wanted to be an electronic engineer.  Something in me from a child up was working that way, and I had all the opportunities now, all laid out for me, all I needed to do was say, yes, and I would sign and I could go that way.  But God interrupted my human life.  He came into my life and He knew this, but He also knew He wanted me to be a Bible teacher, trained only by Him. And just like in those very early days, when I used to sit at my table and read, and I had a bottle of Seagram’s Seven, a bottle of beer, a pack of Lucky Strikes, and there I am reading my Bible, and I never asked God about my job, because I was going that way.  And the Lord, while I was reading, smoking, drinking, He asked me the most beautiful question.  He said, “Julius, Why are you doing that which is killing you?”  I said, “What am I doing that is killing me, Lord?”  He said, “Look in front of you.”  I looked everywhere.  I said, “I don’t see anything, Lord.”  He said, “What’s that in your hand?”  I said, “A cigarette.”  He said,” Will that kill you?”  I said, “I never thought about it.”  He said, “What’s in that bottle?”  I said, “Whisky.”  He said, “Is that killing you?”  I said, “I never thought of that before.”   And He went through, very nicely, everything.  And I said, “Well, God, you’ve got all the power, if you’re cracked up to be who you are, just say the word and that’s the end of this stuff.”  He said, “It’s done.”  I said, “You mean, I won’t have any more desire for this?” He said, “Yes.”  I said, “OK.  Thank you.”  The next thing I knew, I’m not smoking, nor drinking.  And in one day, He took it all away.  I tried to take a drink and, ugh, I couldn’t take it. 

But He had not yet spoken to be about my job.  Now He thought I was a little stronger now, so He said, “Julius, I’d like you to change your employment.”  I said, “Lord, I’m just about ready to become qualified to be a radio engineer, and that’s a lot of work I’ve put in.  What job would you like me to have?”  He said, “A Bible teacher. “ I said, “A Bible teacher?  I don’t know nothing about the Bible, Lord.”  He said, “I’ll help you, we’ll work it out.”  I said, “But…”  He said, “Try.”  “But Lord, what about all my training and all that work?”  He said, “It will all end when power in this world ends.  He said, What are you going to take with you when the world ends?”  I said, “I never thought about it.  I said, Can I take being a Bible teacher with me after I die?”  He said, “Yes.  It will last forever.”  I said, “You mean that’s an eternal job?”  He said, “Yea.” I said, “Well, Lord, you know best.  Take away the desire to be a radio man and I’ll be a Bible teacher.”  He said, “Done.”  Just a childlike faith.  Everything in me went along with it.  I was amazed how simple it is when God presents a problem to you that He doesn’t like, and you agree with Him, everything goes.

And He’s never let me be pestered again, on anything I gave up for Him.  And the same with you.

Some of you are absolutely ashamed and afraid to ask God about anything and everything in your life.  You are afraid He’ll say no and that no will be only for your good.  You are afraid that God will tell you what He likes, and you hate.  You are afraid His love will get you into trouble.  Your fears are all mental.  They are unfounded.  Some have actuality, but everything God asks of you, is because he refuses to belittle you.  He knows you can do it.  But you have never asked Him.  God has taken upon Himself the reproach and the humiliation of you saying no to Him, and He’ll love you in spite of it.  Think of it, you believe in a God who is all knowing, and He has asked you to do something that you hate and why?  Because of pride and embarrassment that you don’t want to get rid of and God has asked you something that will free you from it, it will hurt, it will get rid of devils.  Some of you are doing things that God never asked you to do, you are where He never told you to be, and you don’t ask God, you don’t feel God.  One day, all prophecies are coming to an end.  There will be no need for any employment of a prophet for over seven  thousand years.  Do you know why?   Because everyone will know God alone is reigning in every heart, His voice is there, His power is there.  You can’t take a step in the wrong direction, but that God’s power will subject you, it will be forced.

Many do not love God, and they don’t know how to talk to God and they don’t know how to let God talk to them.  My poor parents.  They hated each other.  I came into a family in the world to learn hatred.  Uncleanness.  I never knew what it was to be hugged or given a kiss and talked to nicely. I didn’t know that you couldn’t steal, you couldn’t lie, that was all normal.  You were a child who was brought up to lie and steal, so that becomes normal, and when somebody tells you it’s bad, you don’t know why it’s bad, all you want to do is eat and live.  My first twelve years of my childhood were scrounging to exist, just to eat.  I used to have the worst pimples all over my face because the most things I ate was candy.  That was my breakfast, dinner, supper time.  Candy.  I spent my money on sweet things.  And my face was ugly.  I was so embarrassed and I thank God, the United States Navy helped heal my face.  I had lots of pock marks, I was so embarrassed, nobody every taught me the make-up of a man.  I didn’t know how a man’s body works.  Nobody every taught me anything about a woman.  I didn’t know who that thing was anyway.  She was only good for one thing, and that was immoral, because nobody every taught me, until God, and God with all of that as a foundation, was willing to call me, teach me and train me.

Not one time in over fifty years has His loving voice ever been hateful to me.  I can’t remember a time in my memory when God ever hollered at me, or ever spoke to me cruelly.  It’s so wonderful to trust in a God who knows all about you.  He knows your very end.  He knows all you have ever done and was willing to give you life and live with you, every step of it, train you, many times you’re in, you’re out, very few times are you in the way, and then eventually, because He knows your end, He’s willing to get you there and wait.  And He knows that before the end comes, you’ll be everything He wants you to be.  Because you’ve been showing Him, in and out of the way, you want to do it, you want to do it, you’re willing to do it.  Finally you understand.  He doesn’t have to tell you any more commands.  Most of my walk with God has been commands.  I hardly hear them any more.  He’s me, I’m Him.  He took me over.  He showed me the secret of eternal happiness. Just be.  Two words.  JUST BE.   But being means, Live.  Just LIVE.  You mean, if I want to eat a breaded veal cutlet the way I like it, that’s God?  Yes.  You mean, if I’d like a nice big ice cream cake, that’s God?  Yes.  I want my ice cream cake now.  “It would be better if you didn’t eat it now.”  “Julius, why don’t you order an ice cream cake now”?  Is that a contradiction?  Nope.  Just go along with God. “Don’t wear those shoes today, my son”. “You love saving people, don’t you?”  “Yes, Father.”  “Wear these shoes”.  My shoes are saviors.  Do you know how many times people look at your clothes?  Your shoes?  And the thoughts in their heart are saying three things, that’s a nice pair of shoes, I feel good; that’s an ugly pair, I don’t see why they wear them.  Or, should I say something to them?  If only people knew, they could talk to me about anything and I’ll tell them, I’m sorry you don’t like my shoes, God and I, we like them.  Well, I never thought about that, that’s a good point.  Are you willing to be helped?  Are you really willing to be helped?  Are you really willing for God to help you?  Yes, Lord.  Then don’t refuse how He leads.  And how He leads you.  And have an answer in love and quietness to everyone who asks you.  Many times, God will never give you the why’s to anybody or to yourself, and you be honest, “Why are you doing that?”  “I don’t know, except God told me to do it.”  “Do you do everything God tells you?”  “Don’t you think that would be wisdom?  Would you refuse to do anything God told you?”

I’ve been healing everyone of you this morning, just by my words, and by the quietness of my presence.  That healing has been complete.  You’ve got to be one.  And I want to teach you something.  Don’t do anything without reflecting, what is it going to cost you?  Think of those words.  What is it going to cost me if I do this?  If I do that?  Many times you don’t obey how you feel.  You are doing something, and all of a sudden you feel bad.  That’s God, telling you to stop.  Find out why do you feel bad?  Many times you want to go to a certain place and God blocks every door.  Why?  He doesn’t want you there.  You don’t want to go to a place and God opens every door and forces you into it, and you are reluctant, you rebel, you don’t want to go.  Why?  You don’t know His ways.  He’s trying to teach you. I’ve been through every bit of it.  When God wanted me to go to a place, He’d come to me and go like that. I’m bent, I don’t want to go.  But, when sometimes He’d want me to go to a place, I was like this.  I went, but I didn’t like it.  And then there were other times, He leads me, and I find myself going there, and I’m saying, well God must want me there because there’s no blockage.

I had to learn a lot of lessons, especially on the telephone.  I’d pick up the telephone, busy, busy, busy.  But I want to talk to that person.  I’ve had the experience where I have waited over an hour and a half, I wanted to get to that person, and it never occurred to me, God doesn’t want me to talk to them.  When did He try to tell me?  After the first two blocks.  If you get a block twice on the telephone, stop.  It’s not God’s will at this time to speak to the person.  But we’re so determined. We want to go to a certain place, and God stops us.  Within our own perimeter, He stops us.  The next thing is we get out into the car, and we think God is going to let that car get us there, and the ignition won’t start, and you want to curse the car, because it just won’t start.  Yet all the time, God doesn’t want you to go.  Now, if God had a big sledge hammer with a bell, and hit you over the head with it and you’d say, “Why’d you do that for?”  And God says, “Don’t go!”  “Oh, I didn’t know.”  Yea, you say that with a big bump on your head.

Many times you get hurt.  Some of you don’t pay attention to what you are thinking and doing.  Especially you ladies.  If you are cooking, and you are cutting up things, but your mind is not on the cutting, you are cutting, and your finger is holding something, but your mind is wandering, because that’s such a dumb job, and you know this job so well…Oow!  What happened?  Well, God was trying to tell you something, keep your mind on what you are doing, or don’t do that, stop it.  Evil always punishes the evil doer.  And who is the evil doer?  You.  If you do evil in that evil, your punishment is waiting to stop you, and God is very loving and kind.  He gives you mild steps always, in anything, before, (using your phrase), He lowers the boom on you. 

Many of you have never made the heart commitment, the entire body commitment, and the soul commitment.  You were called to this ministry.  Ask God why, what your part is in it, and start doing it. And train yourself to do it well.  Remember, God’s training is very varied.  Some of you have had very difficult, traumatic experiences in your life that has prevented you from expressing how you feel.  Part of your training is to send you to schooling and to classes to learn how to talk, and to give you certain education and information that you will need to know as part of your call.  Some of you do not understand the things you are doing.  You would rather do something else, but God, at this time in your life, has you doing this.  And without cooperating with God, you are doing it with great reluctance.  If you have ever believed that God takes everybody at face value for their word, you would forever remove from you the bad thoughts and feelings you have against God.  You can’t be doing anything that God doesn’t want you to do to fulfill your call if you are sensitive.  Most of you could be that way, but you’re not because you are afraid to be led by God.  You are all on different levels.  Some of your heavens would be a hell to me.  You don’t realize, in God’s kingdom, which is so vast, I cannot go with everybody doing the things that they would like, and where they want to go, I just can’t.  It would be a hell for me, it’s very difficult.  And I never want to hurt any of you, so I can’t go with you because the places you want to go to would be hell for me and the places I would take you to would be exquisite hells for you, because you are not prepared.  You have to be prepared.  So, God in His love, who foreknows everyone of your ends, has decided to answer all of your prayers with all the zig zags of your walk with Him, till He gets you on the straight path.  And you are finding fault with each other, you each find fault with one another, because you think everybody has to go your way.  Why can’t you just accept one another as is? But give an answer for the hope that is within you for yourself.  And if they want to counsel, counsel them for their good in the highest way possible. 

My belief, in my love for God, is in my total life.  I have never accepted burial insurance because my belief is, I’ll never be buried and I’ll never die in America.  So, that forever frees me, and I have no second thoughts when my mail is cluttered up with burial provisions.  There is no temptation for me.  And for me, whenever they send me invest in a bank, it doesn’t even phase me, it goes into the garbage.  I have nothing to do with the banks.  I know what’s happening and I know what’s going to happen.  Sometimes things that interest me as a part of my call and my life, I listen, I read, and if it’s good, I accept it; if it’s bad, I throw it away.  Do you know what I’m telling you?  You are going to give an account for being called by God, and how have you treated that call?  Evaluate yourself.  If this were the last day for any of you to live on earth, how would you live?  Think how sad so many people are.  Three questions will be asked of them.  What did you do with your life for God?  How have you obeyed God’s will in your life?  And what are your good works and your faith in God?  God gave me my three answers in the very beginning and my whole life worked it out.  I’m a teacher, sent from God.  I’m here for a while to bring good wherever I can by living prophetic demonstrations, and I’m going home to my universe with an advanced understanding of mankind. And my whole life, lived on earth has affected all my creations, everywhere.  You have no idea of the universe personality looking in and marveling, the Lords are on earth.  We are always surrounded with multitudes to hear and learn.  They are learning from us and we are inspired by them.

Do you know your call?  What are you doing about it?  How perfect are you in it?  Some of you hardly ever call any brother or sister that you haven’t heard or seen in a long time.  Why don’t you give them a call and say, “God put you on my heart.  I just would like to know, how are you?  Is everything well?  Are you being cared for?”   Don’t be shocked if they break down over the phone and cry. And say, I’m so glad you called.  I was going through a hard place, and God put it on your heart to encourage me.  My heart is touched.

Always obey God.  You never know.  So many of you are neglectful.  You are given a first thought and a first feeling and you abort it.  And then, of course, Satan’s second thought, second feeling come and you obey it, because it’s so logical.  I’ve taught you,  nothing God will ever ask you will be easy to do.  That’s why Satan comes right in with a second thought and a second feeling to deceive you.

Please, make your calling and your election in God sure from the start.  I told you months ago, before this new year comes, some are going to have to leave this work forever, because the time is up.  We only have a little while to perfect only those who remain and are willing to go on because they believe we are the Lord.  Some of you still are in doubt.  Think of it.  You are still in doubt.  Because you don’t know the scriptures.  And some of you have never read the Bible for yourself from Genesis to Revelation through.  And you don’t have much time. 

I’m sending out tremendous waves of healing for you, for body, soul, mind and spirit and I hope you can receive it.  Make a definite commitment, and a definite change to obey God and go on with God.  About twenty percent of you have not yet sent me any notice that you want to attend “To Hear God’s Voice” meetings.  And God told me to wait until next Sunday, no meeting, and if they don’t answer by then, exclude them completely from this work.  You are free to refresh yourself.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, November 5, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

If you haven’t heard, the President of Israel was assassinated yesterday.  Those are events that have meaning to us.  I’ve been telling you that before the end of this year, I the Lord, would do something that would shock you into a reality to wake up and make your call and election sure, because by January 1, I’m going to release an omnipotent power that will force you to get into this prophetic ministry, or get out.  If my power pushes you out, it’s both first for your safety, and secondly, because of your negligence all these years not to take this work seriously.  But if my power allows you to stay, then you have very little time to get ready for what I’m about to do.  I’m getting ready to reveal the Lord Joanne and I to my people who know the truth in a new spiritual way that you could never, ever believe possible.  And I’m going to become more who I really am and you are going to feel it.  It’s taken me over fifty years to devastate this humanity with divine intelligence.  That means there is a boldness in me, a daringness and a courageousness that fears no death.  I fear nothing.  That will allow God’s power to go through me as it is now.  No human eye can see the forcefields and the influx of energy surrounding us, going out, only a very, very spiritual heart and mind can see.  But you can feel in your emotions and it will supply each and every need.

Some of you, by the love of God have been chosen not to be hurt, though you are definitely in the center of the will of God in this work.  And at times, my spirit will not permit you to come to these meetings as they begin to get more and more difficult for your humanity.  But you are definitely called.  Many of you have been lackadaisical, very lackadaisical.  What you have never heard of, and it’s going to happen, the evil in young people is so bad, they are going to bomb schools and kill children and young people.  It’s out of hand.  You are going to hear of some more world leaders being assassinated.  The times are coming in so strong.  Many of you have misjudged us.  The spirits in you that you do not hear correctly, you think they are all God, deceive you by trying to get you to believe that we are out to hurt you.  They are a liar.  That we are out to destroy you.  The evil in you must be destroyed.  You have no idea the times that are coming.  God has put  within our hearts to teach you for over five straight years only on the times of the great tribulation.  Many have misjudged us because you want us to teach you Christian etiquette, Christian morality, Christian ethics.  That should be within most of you by now.  And besides, God is not saving anybody to bring them into a Christian work.  Whether you know it or not, God is saving people and giving them in the beginning stages His Shakinah Glory, a Jewish spirit, to wake them up.  Some of you are going to feel a love for Israel that you have never felt.  But they don’t deserve your love.  The future Israel does.  And it’s going to be very, very important soon.  And I’m telling you, we were given life, the Lord Joanne and I, to die in the land of Israel.  And that’s been my hope to be of service to God in the land of Israel.  From the day God told me, when everything in my emotions was wrecked from sin, I was so afraid to die. I couldn’t even get into an automobile, and God’s beautiful, sweet voice said, “Julius, I promised you, you can die no where in this world but in Jerusalem.  Do not be afraid.”  Well, those were comforting words.  But all of the demons in me couldn’t take that.  If a person went 45 miles an hour, I was deathly afraid.  Elevators scared the Hades out of me.  I could hardly get on a boat, the rocking would make me sick.  All fear.  Fear of dying.  Then years later God began to show me, the fear of dying is a result of over 101 diseases, just to be afraid to die.  It’s claustrophobic, nerve wracking. so if you intend to be a part of this work, and you don’t want to be disappointed one day, renew your passports.  I think now they give it to you for 10 years, so you have enough time.  Some of you have to live a long time.  Look at your passports to make sure they will not run out before the time.  You don’t want that to happen.

Please take up the offering and we will get into our lesson.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, October 29, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

God’s Peace be with you all.  Everybody come and settle down.  It’s nice to know that those of us who are here this morning are here because we understand to move our clocks back one hour.  That goes with having a form of intelligence and obligation and responsibility, which things are very lacking in this generation.

If you are very tender and sensitive to God you can feel His Spirit.  God’s Spirit works differently with everything.  Many times I can tell the degree of people’s love for God.  I walk into what I feel is like water and I can tell how my movement in that water tells me the attitude of God’s people.  Sometimes when I walk, the water is soft and it’s from my feet all the way up and as it is soft, I can walk very relaxed through it and I know there is a very great reverence and respect for God’s people here.  Based on that, I know what to say and what to do.  Sometimes, I walk and I feel my chest up against a wall and it bends me and so I walk slow, and I know there is a restriction. And I can tell it has to do with faith and trust because it’s all up here.  I’ve learned to be a human being who understands correspondence with God, and I know that in the last week my left knee is very, very tender and sensitive and the skin on the outside feels cold and inside there is a lazy willingness that my foot wants to give in.  I am doing everything I can to keep it from giving in, but it wants to gives in.  And, with the Spirit of God on me, I feel that I can walk but my knee cap doesn’t want to walk as fast and as nice as I normally want to walk. I am not frightened, nothing is wrong with me, that’s the way God speaks in His highest form to a heart and mind that loves to learn.  It would be easy for me to have a message printed out in front of my eyes, “Julius, tell my people they restrict My Spirit in My walk with them.  They are not walking right, they are not praying right.  They don’t have the humility that I want.”  But instead, God allows these things from the people to come upon me, that way, it builds my faith, puts a joy in me and helps me to understand in the best way that I could ever know, the exact message God wants.

Some of you, all week, not one time, not even five minutes, have bent your knees and told God you love Him.  Life has become so cumbersome to make a living, God stands in the shadows, waiting to see if someone will open their heart to take a few moments out to just tell Him they love Him and thank Him.  God’s people are a neglectful people, they stopped being a loving, thoughtful people, first to the Lord and then with the Lord in each other.  Most of us are so guilty of being wrapped up with thinking about how to serve God, we forget to love Him. 

Many of you husbands and wives, children and parents, what if those who you love, not one time, all week took time to tell you, “I love you, Mom.  Dad, I love you.  Brothers and sisters, I love you John, I love you Mary.”  Love from God has such healing in it.  It quiets you down.  Many people would love to be with us.  There are so many reasons why they cannot.  Both they did it and God did it.  Many times God does not let us hear things of and from Him, when we would like to.  That has many reasons why, and they are all good.  If only we would know how to be led by God.  Then our works, some day, would find a reward.  Not that we are looking for one, but did it ever occur to you how valuable the time with God is and you have that opportunity?  Find that verse that says, the days will come when you desire to be with the Son of man and you cannot.  Whoever has it, stand up and read it. 

Lord, that’s in Luke 17, verse 22.  Luke 17:22  Please read it. 

And he said unto the disciples, The days will come, when ye shall desire to see one of the days of the Son of man, and ye shall not see it.

Some one read that in the Living Bible.

Later he talked again about this with his disciples, the time is coming when you will long for me to be with you even for a single day, but I won’t be here. 

See that.  Can you go any moment of the day without hearing the sweet voice of God within your heart, directing you, encouraging you?  If you can, there is something wrong with you.  If you cannot, you are getting more spiritual.  All of us pray, I think, for God’s will to be done and hardly any of us like it when God shows it to us.  We think that God’s will is convenient for us, what we don’t know is, God’s will will always be used to get rid of evil within us.  You attend these meetings for one ultimate reason, you must never forget it:  I want to be more like God.  And if you’re not in these meetings for that reason, your life is wasteful.  To be the child of God that God wants takes a lot of effort.  Because every one of us would like to be who we really are suppose to be, and we’d like to do the will of God without a flaw.  If that desire remains in your heart and you never let anything rob you of it, when your life is over in this work, that will stay in there forever flowering into wonderful opportunities to be fulfilled, and it becomes your ruling love down here. 

God has taught me to expect the unexpected as always coming from Him.  I have learned the secret of knowing God’s will for my life. Therefore I know the general basic will of God for every human life, and it’s so veiled because there is so much self blocking.  I always thought the will of God was immediate knowledge, instruction, to do the next thing.  That was good for a while, but I didn’t learn what the true will of God for my life was and when I did, all hell broke loose, so that I could see them and get them.  It’s in the little things of life.  The interruptions, every interruption is God ringing your doorbell of your heart.  And God wants you to know that it’s Him that leaves you the opportunity, do you answer or do you listen for an answer, or do you refuse things?  And what about people that come into your life that make you upset?  You feel unpleasant about.  Do you feel God’s will in that?  How do you feel when you are comfortable and everything is designed to remove your comfort.  It’s your attitude.  God’s nature is to disturb your comfortableness, to see your attitude.

Is where you live a detriment to your service to God?  Then why don’t you change it?  Is where you live helping you to know God better?  Then why are you always trying to move?  The thing you are doing, is it boring, monotonous, aggravating?  Why haven’t you sought to find a way to make it interesting, happy, encouraging?  We are always looking for the selfish answer and call it God.  We haven’t been taught that in every interruption of life that irritates us, God is offering us freedom from evil and an eternal peace that will bring Him closer to our hearts.

Do you still do things like this?  “Oh, No”  “No, My God, why do I have to do this!”  Well, there’s something wrong with you if you do.  God is trying to show you there’s left overs in there.  “Nah, I don’t want to be interrupted now”.  Who wants to answer that, I don’t want to answer that phone call, I don’t want to write that letter, I don’t want to meet that person, and yet, God doesn’t let it go away.  There it is still irritating you.  Why?  You prayed for God to free you from evil and God is trying to do it and you won’t cooperate.  Don’t ever expect to always do what you like to do in this life time, in this humanity.  It will never work out.  That’s a very rare person. 

I want you to look deep within your heart this morning.  Eighty percent of you would be in the grave right now.  Disease, sick, ugly, stupid, meaningless, you would have been killed or have committed suicide if God didn’t touch your heart.  All that you have, all that you are doing that lets you live and still come to a meeting where God wants to bring you up higher, is a result of His love, Her love to us.  I think that deserves to take a few moments every now and then, with great pleasure, every now and then to bend our knees and to show God in great humility how appreciative, how grateful we are.  If you ever know God’s will and want to know God’s will, you must have a heart and an attitude that makes it easy for God to reveal His will to you. And the revelation of God’s will to left-over evil is very, very hurtful.  Very hurtful.  I know that as a man until I attained to a place where God could inspect me, I wouldn’t like things in my life revealed because, not only was I ashamed of them, but I don’t have a answer, I don’t know how to explain and there are too many mysteries in my humanity that I don’t have an answer for.  Because I know there are things that I don’t want to do, and I’m doing them.  And I know there are things that I shouldn’t be doing, and God is making me do it.  And then there are things that I know that I will be doing and there’s clouds in front and great light in back.

Every minute of my life, God never lets me forget; you must die my son, pray for that day and that moment when your heart, as a human being, will leave me a epitaph of love, and not one of fear, and I know that. God began with me in the very beginning, I didn’t know that he knew how difficult it is for a human being to give up their life, willingly.  It took many, many years with so many heartaches and trouble in order to be a good model.  You must have your heart torn out and broken many times in this life time, without retaliation.  You must have things taken from you that you need, they are very valuable and makes life difficult to operate without them, they must be taken from you to find your attitude.  You must have pain and suffering in your humanity to go deep into your spirit and you must have moments of fear that takes your life and breath away, either under a doctors knife or some accident.

Many years ago, God allowed this vessel to undergo near death a few times.  And one of the scariest was when I was in the hospital and the nurse didn’t know that a nurse before her had given me a shot of morphine to take away some pain, and this nurse came in and gave me a double shot, and she didn’t know, and I didn’t know what was happening to me and all of a sudden everything in my humanity stiffened.  My mind was working, I could think and I wanted to move but I couldn’t move one part of my body and fear began to hit me, I don’t know how long I was in that state.  I could hear everybody around me and I was shouting at the top of my voice, “Can’t you hear me, free me, release me.”  Not a movement.  I tried to move my toes, couldn’t move them, I tried to move my hands, couldn’t move them.  I tried to open my eyes, I could not open my eyes.  All I did was just talk.  I don’t know how long that lasted.  And then, I was able to move my hands, and my body and then I opened my eyes.  And I was flooded with love and appreciation because I hadn’t known the mystery to be conscious inside a dead body until I read Sweedenborg and then I found out that you have to stay that way for three full days.   Think of it.  You have no sense of time. Since then I have learned how to quiet my heart and my spirit so that whatever happens to me is not for my detriment.  I learned to quiet myself.  And even now, there are times I could lie down, I have total use of everything, but I learned the secret of entering a realm of peace, so quiet and helpful, that I can feel God all over me and God speaks to my heart.  He has graduated me from hearing His words to feeling His Spirit, His love.  His Spirit does not have words, just feelings, but those feelings could be put into words, but that’s what I want to develop and train and teach you all.  Those are very high realms.  Some of you don’t even know what I’m talking about, because the words have not been given you, the experience have never occurred to you and you can’t understand the feelable love of God. 

The very breath you have is God.  The five senses you have are God.  You can do nothing, not a thing.  I’ve taught you, you live only in your ears, every place else belongs to God.  You have taken this vessel, your vessel, and used it for evil and your parents gave you the evil and the educators encourage the evil, and you didn’t know what your life was and you thought that was your life.  It’s evil.  That’s why you can’t hear.  To hear God is instant obedience to Him.  To see God in the Spirit is immediately the willingness to do His will.  Of all your five senses, the greatest is in your ears.  Think of it.  How often the Lord has said, “He that has an ear to hear.”  How often have your wives and sweethearts said to you, “You’re not hearing me.”  What they are really trying to say is, “You don’t understand and try to help me and get me out of this quandary, this predicament, knowing what to do.”

I’m telling you all this because changes are coming.  Both immediate and enduring.  They are coming. There are revelations of everything in you unlike God, and remember, in this life with God there will be continual movement.  God will move you from this spot, diagonally, across to this spot for a time, here - you think you’re gone, lost forever, something has happened and God will get out of you here a desire that will turn you and bring you here.  And here, you’ll grow, and be quiet for a time.  Then God will put you back to a spot that you thought you overcame it, and you never overcame it, it was temporary.  And back in this spot, God will bring out more evil and He’ll turn you around, and you think you should be going that way, and God will pull you this way, and this is where you belong for this time.  You’ve got to be freed here. We don’t know how God leads us, but one thing you will come to find out, the preparations of a man, and the leading of his steps, come from God.   If you would go along with it.

Three things every human being is guilty of in God’s sight whenever God brings something new in their life at any given moment. First, an intense reluctance not to want to do it.  There’s always an intense reluctance.  You don’t want to do it. Secondly, fear, because it’s an unknown. Thirdly, all kinds of complaint due to pride or estimation.  Everybody has a better understanding of themselves than God does, they think.  And that’s what gets you into trouble because you don’t think you deserve to be here, you don’t think you deserve to be there, and where you think you deserve to be and God lets it, is so miserable it’s unbelievable.  And where God wants you is so happy, you are miserable there too because you never wanted to get there.  And you fight.  You are always fighting God.  And your fighting are judgments.  Oh, to find a soul who knows they are in God’s will and God is always moving them around, to reveal, to get the things out that should be out.

How blessed is the soul whose prayer is backed up by desire.  Lord, show me my evil and I will work on it.  Meaning, show me and I’ll do something about it.  And God always answers that prayer immediately, and when He does, nobody likes it and they don’t cooperate right away, because it’s in the unknown, it’s the future.  You have to be experienced, trained disciples who can be universal prophets and prophetesses to help anybody.  And if you ever forget, look back and see where you came from.  Remember how dirty, how diseased, how sinful, how hateful, what a liar, what a pervert, what a sexually immoral human being you have been.  And then, turn around and look forward and say, Thank you.  Thank you that I can go on from here.

And stop sitting in judgment on how God leads you, and how God leads anybody else.  Your estimations of God’s leadings are sick and poor. God leads us differently.  I could never have believed it was designed that I would learn fear, to be frightened, so that one day I would be void of all fear, nothing would frighten me.  I had to go through that.  Many times you are going through something and you don’t know why you are going through it.  You’re trained not to go through that, and yet, it looks like there is no God and He is not answering your prayer, but He is.  When you pray for something that you don’t want and God sees that that something is good to train you in, you’ll never understand why, but that training is necessary.

You can’t know pride and how to be freed from pride and help others to be freed from pride unless to a certain degree you go through phase of pride.  You have to go through certain phases of other things to be a help.  And remember this, every decision you make, Now, has in that decision, every experience in your entire intelligent life.  You can never make one decision that is void or empty of every thing you have ever been through.  So remember, the art of clear thinking is how you take the unpleasant experience you are now going through.  You need them for a decision you are going to make. And how you pass the test now will determine both time and attitude in the future. 

Many of you never have to undergo a sickness, or a disease, or any bodily discomfiture if you knew the secret of how to stay close to God and call upon God to bless you and help you.  I am not speaking of those conditions that belong to your demonstration as a prophet and prophetess.  I am speaking of those attitudes that belong to all human beings because in 1st Cor 10:13 it says, no temptation taken anybody but such as is common to anybody.  Everybody has certain similar conditions.  God knows how to humble me too. I walk around often with a drippy nose and I don’t even know I’m slobbering and I have to let somebody who loves me tell me.  And they will say, do you have a handkerchief and I always carry two handkerchiefs and I take one out and give it to them because I thought they needed it.  They take the handkerchief and they rub my nose.  “Oh, I say, thank you.  I didn’t know my nose was running.”  It happens often.  I can tell certain conditions that are around.  And yet, I would never allow that if I was full of pride.  We don’t know how to be humble.  God has something in store for us all and He is going to implement it, and He wants us to have first, and take this down.  Whenever God requires anything of any human being, First there must be a quietness in the human heart and in the human mind.

Secondly, there must be a receptive ear, listen.  And you must listen with attention.  And you must listen with the attitude knowing it’s God, and you will do it, no matter what he is asking of you. Thirdly, if there is anything you don’t understand about what is told you, ask for clarification so that you will know. 

Fourth, ask how God wants you to do it and whatever His answer is, that will be the how. 

He’ll either tell you or leave it up to you.  Five, set a time.  Every time God asks of you something he wishes you were instantly obedient, but God knows you are not going to be that way, so remember, set a time to get it fulfilled.

Sometimes you wonder why God gives you a vision or a dream of a message years in advance. Except for the prophecy drama of your life, God does it with love to you because He knows you are so disobedient.  Otherwise, God would never tell you His will unless you did it right now.  Very few mortals have ever learned to obey God instantly.  Elijah was one of them.  That’s why he was too valuable to be left in this world.  He said, “I’m jealous for you, that’s why I’m here.  I want to know your will.  They killed all your prophets and everybody.  I am alone and they are trying to seek my life.”  And God answered him by the highest method possible, directly to his heart, the still small voice, and said, (it was a compliment), I have left to myself seven thousand knees that have not bowed to the image of Baal.  That was encouraging to Elijah.  God speaks that way.  So remember, if God has spoken to your heart, do something.  He knows you are going to delay, delay, delay.  And He has given you the message this time because he knows He has taken in all those delays.  But how nice it would be if within a twenty four hour period you were spiritual enough to put into practice what God told you.  Then you would understand split-second, obedient timing.  And then you’d enjoy forcefield protection.  And God would never tell you anything unless He wanted it done immediately.  And you would have confidence that whenever God speaks, do it now.  I found that to be true. 

Number six.  Instantaneous obedience is required with the knowledge that God knows everything and has taken into consideration all of your objectives.

Seven.  Put it into practice, however, whatever, God has told you. 

Now listen to a secret in all of this.  Whatever God asks of anybody has within it the freedom from those hells.  God frees us from particular hells and we don’t understand any of that, because it’s so involved.  God could never ask “a one” of anybody.  It has multiple things in it.  Remember that. 

We are going to take up your offerings now and do the best that you can, and then, you’ll be quiet, pray a little bit and then the Lord is going to do something.  One thing about God, whenever He reveals something to people He immediately implements something.  Remember that too.  Give them a nice song that encourages them to contribute.

(The Lord changes the seating order.)

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, October 22, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

I thank God for another day of life, and health, and strength to be with all of you.  I have already told God in my heart, I love Him for choosing each of you.  I watch you as you come in, those of you who were here when I came in, and I said this to myself.  “They are here because they want to hear more of God and they love God.  Many times they come filled with the world, but their deepest desire is to get a truth that they may live it and live it a little better each time they come.”

I know that as a man of God, I have my quiet moments with God where I feel bad that you have to be so reproved and rebuked, but I know that’s a wonderful way of keeping you aware of your eternal objective.  When this life is over and you let all the truth you have ever heard become your life, you’ll have such an appreciation of what God has used to keep you tied into God and to free you from evils that would hurt you so bad after you leave this world.

As prophets and prophetesses, until we learn our call, we go through many, many challenges that hurt us and it is very difficult at times to keep God on your mind, which is part of the design and the plan to make you better people.  But at least one day a week, for a few little hours, you come hoping to be so encouraged that you can make the next six days count.  And what do you come to?  You come to a man who is going to keep blasting you and keep cutting you down.  Have you ever wondered how I must feel (Lord is weeping) knowing that if I’m not faithful to God first, and to you, even as a man, I will give an account of holding back from you what you need to make you better people.

I always ask God to keep you tender.  This is not a job to me.  This is a pleasure to love and serve God and to help you.  Everything in me wants you to be so perfect that you can enjoy the peace and quietness that I do, and that you can attain to.  The spirits, they are afraid to ever talk to me, and they are afraid to reveal themselves in you when you come in my presence.  You must pray for me and the Lord Joanne.  We know truth that is so real and deep and powerful, it can literally change you over.  One of these days, when God my Father gives me permission, and whoever of you are worthy, I want to teach you how to hear, to recognize and to be forever free of evil spirits to where they don’t talk to you, they don’t move you, and all you hear is God’s Spirit and His voice.  There is nothing so wonderful and so peaceful then to hear the voice of God.  God never, never rebukes His children.  Not in His voice.  Only through prophets.  But that voice.  If you could make it come alive and loud, and know how to interpret the language, …the joy you can have to obey God.

It is the most masculine thing to have the Spirit of God come upon a soul and tenderize their heart to where tears come forth because of such a love to want to do God’s will and help His people.  All week you have been bombarded with hell.  You don’t need to come to a Sunday meeting and get some more of it.  Everything in my heart wants to bless you and encourage you in whatever degree you have attained into God.  You are not here in this meeting because you hate God.  You are here because you really love Him, to whatever degree you do, you love Him.  But don’t feel bad at those of us who love Him and little more than you do and in our presence we are allowed to see imperfections in your lives.  No doubt if God would let some one come in that has greater light then us, He’d show us our imperfections.  But, if you have God’s love, no matter what degree or level of God you are on, He’ll accept it.  He will accept the revelations of your imperfections and you will do better. 

The nature of a prophet and prophetess chosen by God, first, must be true to themselves, and to God, and with that ability, they can have a power that speaks to the heart.  There are a number of you, your hearts are crying out for more of God, and God does not allow it, and you don’t know why. You are so cumbered with the things of this world and yet, you want God with a burning desire and God only trickles Himself out.  Then there are others of you, you have more time for God and you feel so bored, and God keeps giving you more and more of Himself, and you are so bored, and you don’t know what to do.  And then there is the middle class.  You are so pulled to do this, or that, and you have such

a hunger to read God’s word and you are always torn between the two.  Your hearts, all of you, are always asking, will there ever come a time in this life when I can just have all of God and just be filled with God?

I would never have known to say “yes”, unless I became the living experience of all my prayers.  My prayer for over fifty years was, “Can I please have all of God, every day?”  And all of those years, when I had two, three jobs, and a family, and people, I never had time just to read and study and learn it. But those prayers were going to be answered.  Your prayers, (Lord is crying) will be answered.  God has a time, a place that is perfect for you.  And then, there came a time in my life, just a few years ago, when God began to rule everything in this world in the background for me.  And His sweet voice said to me one day, Julius, all the prayers you have prayed to want to be alone with me are now to be answered.  I said, “Lord, thank you.”  And I asked, “how?”  He said, “It would take away the joy, just let it come.”  I have enjoyed, for a few years, a continuous conversation with God, He is my love, my life, He’s my joy and pleasure, He is the quietness of my heart and my mind.  My mind is so clear.  It is quiet.  My heart is quiet.  My whole being is quiet and I can hear, loud, clear, precise, His words vibrant with life, and He lets me rest quietly.  What an assurance of peace.  What a blessing.

And when He wants to, He interrupts me with great pleasure.  I never knew one of the highest realities that a human can learn and entertain is to be interrupted by God.  To have God literally interrupt you in anything you are doing, knowing He is welcome.  I could be doing anything, and the Lord interrupts me and takes time to talk to me because He found someone He could open His heart to.  I count that a pleasure and a privilege to open my heart, to let God speak with me, as He can with you. 

Many of you must allow yourselves to be taught how to hear and to recognize the voice of God’s living Spirit in you, and how to quiet down all the evil voices that are so terrible.  I never would have known how unbelievably clever evil spirits are and the methods they use to deceive human beings all day long.  God had to first quiet me down in the midst of turmoil and noise.  Then He began to reveal to me how the first voices to me of evil were always good prisoners of hope whose voices were evil.  I could hear something, like a pinning, a whining, which meant there was a desire.  No devil has a desire to be good.  I could hear the desire to be good while they were condemning me.  It took years to figure that out.  Then I found out in the scriptures there are prisoners of hope and they are living within me, and I was amazed.  Then I found out that behind them were evil spirits using them who were the ideas of these prisoners of hope’s voices.  Then the Lord taught me how to get them, and told me they can be saved.  And it shocked me.  Devils could be saved?  And God began to reveal to me the different heavens, the different hells, and then He showed me who was using them. They were the real ones I was to get. I know these, they are the ones who always block God from coming in.  I didn’t get this overnight.  I got this all the years God has been my God.  It was only four or five years ago, everything quieted down, and all I’ve heard from then on is God’s voice. You must believe me, not because of the genuiness of my experience of faith, but because it is all taught in the scriptures. 

“What is your name?”  “Legion, for we are many.”  You haven’t noticed carefully the detail of my life as Jesus, which was all put in the book, Walk with Jesus.  Many times, I said to spirits, “Go.  Be bound.  Leave.”  Or I said nothing.  I just touched, so that they could be permitted to wander.  There is so much you will never know while you are in your humanity if you don’t pay the price.  And there is only one thing that will help you pay the price; Truth, TRUTH, and your love for it.

God was at a great distance in my life, and God did everything, put everything in my way to keep me from getting close to Him.  He wants to see two things in your life and in my life, forever.  How could I close this gap between me and Him and why?  And I found out.  Desire. My desire for God was so intense, that no matter what obstacle I met, I worked on it.  Got it out of the way. It never discouraged me from going forward.  I kept getting it out of the way, because it was my desire that was pushing me forward. That’s called in the scriptures, “violence.”  The violent, the forceful take God’s kingdom, and then, time. There was so much time involved, preventing. And I had to, while I was working getting this way, to remove all these things that were robbing me of wanting my desire.  Then, little by little, I was gaining.  I was going faster.  The more evil I got rid of, I could go faster and then finally, I made the race.  I touched God.  That is wrestling with God, not letting Him go.  So many of you get so weary and you quit.  You let everything make you quit, even God’s servants are designed to make you quit.  Don’t do it.  It’s all a design.  How much do you love God and why?  That’s what it comes down to.

I lost my family, I lost my jobs, I lost my friends, I lost my second family, one of my children died, my job was taken from me because I told the truth, my friends ridiculed me because I wouldn’t be like them. Peer pressure is a terrible thing, but God can go with you.  I didn’t know that each time I was going, it wasn’t me, it was God.  God was pushing me, God was driving me.  We can do nothing, there is no person on this planet that will ever love God because they want to.  Nobody loves God because they want to.  Your love for God is a gift given to you by God Himself.  Remember that.  You cannot love God by yourself.  You can’t even get one thing that you think you have by yourself.  What I called fate, it wasn’t fate, it was a desire to believe that God told the truth and I could prove it, because it was written somewhere.  I found out what faith is.

Faith is always ahead of me.  It’s in my future and I just have to believe it.  There was no way I could prove the future.  You have nothing to prove the future.  You’ve just got to take God at His word.  That was the most unbelievable thing. Where did this voice come from?  Within me.  Then how can I trust myself?  I found out, you can’t trust yourself if you don’t trust God.  Every thing was dependent on my having the childlike attitude and trusting that God, my Father, will not give me snakes and stones if my heart is true. I’ve been showing God, He’s been showing Himself through me.  And then, He opened up the most wonderful truth, as it happened to Him, He will will that it will happen to all He has brought into existence. 

Think of this thought.  It is the most astounding thought ever given to a mortal mind.  We are dictionary people of the indefinable God.  You are a living word.  Your entire existence will be defining God.  God is like an infinite sign.  He is learning from His creation; all, of, and about us.  That’s why you are always perplexed, because you are undergoing the same experience.  You want to know who you are too.  God put that in you.  And when you find out who you are, like I am, that piece of God is forever defined on that level.  There are other levels to go to.  That’s why you have changes of state.

What I never let happen is any thing, or any one, or any place to separate me from God and His love, no matter how it broke my heart, and my heart has been broken.   I have removed every bit of hate from whatever broke my heart.  Think how I must feel when you come in to this Sunday meeting and I know that you want more of God, and God uses me many times to try to discourage you, to prevent you from getting close. That is such a wonderful design.   Seven times in my Bible there are seven different stories.  I’ll give you a secret and you can find it if you want.  You can call this study, “Am I wrestling with God?”  You’ve got to wrestle with God.  God is worth every bit of the struggle, because if you knew what was waiting, you wouldn’t wrestle.  You’d put more effort into loving God and serving Him. You would never, ever be ashamed of Him.  That’s why I’m often telling you, don’t be ashamed of God.

Everything I am telling you has to have my entire life’s experience in it or I couldn’t be given the words with such emphasis.  Nobody can ever be like anybody else, but be real.  Be who you are.  Be good.  Be true.  Bring God into everything without embarrassment, without shame. Every time you overcome one more step of negativity, you are automatically filled with another step of positivity.  And you have something additional,  you’ve been called to be actors and actresses for the living God in plays and parts that you, as human beings, would never choose.  It’s enough to be good, which is very difficult.  But to be good and pretend to be evil, that is very difficult. And when the job of being evil is over, your goodness will be “gooder”, and a lot better than you could ever realize.  You’ve got to be careful that you don’t make the acting job your whole life.  Your acting job is part of your whole life, but you’ve got to act, because God has a gigantic plan of helping people.

In this generation, the only way to help them is to discourage them.  If you can discourage someone who thinks they love God, and they found out they don’t, you have benefited heaven.  Some day, we all have to be found out who we really are.  And all of us have things in our lives we don’t even want God to reveal, which is terrible.  Remember, every secret thing is going to be made known.  Try as much as you can, as often as you can, to free yourself from everything that would make you embarrassed and ashamed before God. Think of the remorse you, and everyone is going to have, who have known us two, and have harbored whatever they have harbored against us, or what ever they have said or done, and  how they have treated us.  We will never have to say a word.  Everything in them is ready to come alive in front of them and become their condemners.

God doesn’t want a single human being to be compelled or forced into a faith belief in the truth.  The lesson that I have was given to me by God.  He was so kind.  If God ever sends you anyone or anything which stops you from doing what will hurt you, that is a blessing to you from God.   He wants to wake us up.  We are living in the worse generation in human history, which has hidden within it, for those who overcome, the greatest opportunity for nearness to God and advancement to God.  To hear truth, filled with His love.  It’s not a cold light, it’s a very warm light.  There are two kinds of light.  Light with heat and light without heat.  Most people have clouds in front of a light that has no heat, and what you’ve got to do is recognize the disguised God who is coming to hurt your evil.  If you saw God as He really is, in the state you’re in, you could never be in His presence.  The evil in you would push and keep driving you further and further away from God, and all along the way He’s longing to pull you to Him and He can’t.  You will find your level of evil, and you will call it heaven, and it’s not.

Make up your mind, once and for all.  Am I saved?  There are so many of you that don’t even know that you are saved, because you don’t know what it means to be saved.  Saved from what?  I strongly recommend you get back into my Bible and find out what does it mean to be saved.  I’m telling you a truth so powerful and wonderful.  All the hells that speak with you, speak with you in relation to your insecurity.  The more insecure you are in God, the more hell will talk to you.  The more secure you are in God, the less hells there are that will talk.  And when you really know you are forever saved, it cannot be lost, everything after that depends on how have you been used by God to serve Him.  I’ll give you a very, very deep secret.  Listen carefully and take notes for I won’t repeat it. 

There was a man who claimed to be a believer in Christ and he had sexual intercourse with his mother, his father’s wife.  And he was a believer in Messiah.  It was known among other believers, and he was severally rebuked for it, to the point where he was shunned.  This attitude touched him so much, eternal remorse set in.  When it did, he had an absolute change of heart.  For what nobody knew, but God, was that he had never been taught morals, perfectly, correctly.  He was a Gentile, but he knew in his heart certain things are right or wrong without ever having to be taught it, like everyone of you.  But it had an effect.  The shunning of God’s people caused this person to go into deep remorse, and deep regret and deep repentance.  He could not correct what he had done, but he could go on with God.  And he came to a place in time where his remorse was so touching to the heart of God, God put it into one of the leaders hearts to ask the congregation to forgive him and not shun him anymore, but take him back. They were very reluctant because they all had certain standards of morality and goodness that showed their heart and the Lord appealed to them, through his servant to the people, and they took him back and for the remainder of his life he became an ardent, dedicated man of God. He learned a lesson that he knew the value of.

We as mortals are so quick to judge people for their sins.  Some sins are going to be necessary.  Most of us who are here, before we met the Lord, all sinned against God.  Most of us did it in ignorance, which was also guilty.  But God loves so, He forgave us, and He has turned us into better people.  While we are better people, we still sin.  Think of it.  God doesn’t reveal all His standards of perfectness to us or we could never make it.  Only as we overcome, He brings us a little higher, and we see, my God, what I thought was faith is nothing but pure unbelief.  Today, in this new faith I can see that was unbelief.  So we go on, and on.  Listen to these words, “That his spirit may be saved in the day of Christ.”  That’s in your Bible, in Corinthians.  That story that I just told you is in your Bible.  How kind God is to save us in our ignorant states of love for God.  He became a genuine believer, but he sinned, and he was shunned, and he had remorse.  His remorse was that he sinned against God.  That’s where the greatest remorse comes from when you know that your sins are against God, and yet you, as a hypocrite, say you love Him.  You’ve got to free yourself from hypocrisy. That man became a lesson to many afterwards.  He’s been in that Bible in 1st Corinthians.  Think of those people that have read his life and have been changed and saved.  And there are people who see you, and will change their lives, because of you. 

This lesson that God gave for you is a very, very difficult lesson.  The demons and evil spirits in you, the dear prisoners of hope in you overcome by evil, everything in you is going to feel something.  A lot of your conditions of evil, sicknesses, diseases, uncomfortablenesses, pain, mental anguish, these are all influences, instigation’s of spirits.  But what I am going to give you is God’s word, His love, to free you if you take it right, you are going to feel evil react. And the more evil reacts, the more you are being freed, and then there will be a disappearance, you’ll be given a power that you never had before, and you will wonder, “Why couldn’t I do that, why couldn’t I say that?”  Because you didn’t take the right steps, but now you will.  Just like him, I will render vengeance to my enemies and will reward them that hate me.  Every time we sin, we become an enemy to God.  The evil in us is God’s enemy.  We’ve got to learn what are the things that separate us from God and fix them up.  Or why do we come and listen?   The most logical reason you are here today is you want to be better people, but for God and in this life.   And you want to do something worthwhile.

Most young people today are sinning because their parents have failed them, their peers have failed them, the environment is failing them and the life given to them will never benefit them.  They are failing because their true life has never had a chance to be expressed and they have nothing real.  You would cry day and night if you could know how many are killing themselves everyday and the reason comes down to one simple sentence.  I killed myself because there is nothing worth living for.  There is no reality.  They have been taught a lie. There is no life after death, there is no God.  Anybody who believes in life after death with God, can never want to commit suicide.  And unless you make up your mind, Am I saved, or lost?  If you’re lost, make up your mind, close the distance by your desire, and let nothing prevent you from finding out, am I saved?  And base it on genuine authority because you could never ask me and get a hesitant reply.  My reply is so full of assurance and guarantee.  I know the difference between salvation and serving God.  There is a difference.  And many of you think you are saved, and you’re not.  Anyone saved will not be discouraged, ever, from turning against God.  You will have moments of discouragement in life, but these words will never come out of your mouth:  “I’m sorry God ever loved me and saved me.”  They will never come out of the mouth of a saved person.

God let me uniquely go through every attitude that both a lost and a saved soul would go through.  I have experienced, in my love for God, what it is like to nearly commit suicide,  which is forever an impossibility for someone who really knows and loves God.  God was showing me different steps that I was a Prophet and I never realized it.  From the moment God loved me and called me and the moment He gave me his Holy Ghost, He ordained and made me a Prophet from that second on.  I’ve learned this many, many years later that every thing that happened to me was to teach me how to free people and help them.  I had to learn myself how to be imprisoned and bound, how to be separated from God who loves, and how to long for Him and every thing in between.  I only realized this a few years ago why God told me to go to Times Square, sit there in the midst of hell, and see if I could hear His voice.  I could not hear the voice of God in hell, yet the voice of God was talking to me.  Finally I said, Lord, I can hear you.  I can hear God in the midst of hell and God said, “Don’t ever forget this Julius, call it the Times Square test”.  I said, “Lord, I never thought it possible to hear you in all this noise.”  And today, there is no more noise.  All I hear is God’s voice.  And God has never, ever spoken harshly to me even when I need a rebuke, and the same with everyone of you. God does not harshly rebuke His children.  That’s evil.  That could be a prisoner of hope, used by a devil, used by a demon.  I’ve had to learn all the steps so I could help you and share with you. 

If you will let me, I can be your God teacher today.  She can be your God Prophetess today.  Don’t have any thing in your mind, make them empty and listen like you have never heard before.  Believe that we only have your salvation and happiness crying in our hearts.  We don’t want to waste these hours today trying to tell you something that will tickle your ears and make you leave here discouraged so that you hate God and you don’t want to go on with God.  I want to free you of everything that is keeping you back from God.  You have to help me.  You must listen with an open heart.  Don’t listen with a microscope and pick apart everything we say or do.  You can let God be Himself.  And I will satisfy every heart and mind to the degree you need.  That’s why I need your undivided attention and I need your heart open with reverence to God.  I’m going to sit down, and we will take two minutes at least, and you are going to say something from your heart that puts you in a communicable attitude with God, and listen to my voice and to my Spirit within you, and then we will take up the offering and go on with the lesson.  We have things to do.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, September 24, 1995

Plainville, CT

Peace be with you all.  We are going to learn some wonderful things today of and about God that will help to reveal us better to ourselves.  When the Lord allows me to finish this lesson on light, God has put it into my heart to begin at the beginning, like in the days when you first met us.

I want you to begin to prepare yourselves for confrontation, eventual martyrdom, and the finalization of your human career on earth.  I want you to know what it’s going to cost you to believe that Joanne and I are the Lord Jesus returned. I want you to know what it is that you believe in and what you will be willing to be persecuted for and eventually give your life for.  That means the Lord Joanne and I are going to become more real than you have ever known any two human beings to ever have become.  We are going to say things that will  reveal everything in human beings in their relationship with God.  We are going to do things that will irritate the religious hells in everybody.  God, our Father, has revealed time is closing for this work.  Before 1997 ever arrives, the state of children will be hopeless.  You have no idea what is happening.  The world, for the third time in its history, has allowed all the hells to be released and to be made manifest on earth in human flesh.

It’s hard for you to conceive much less believe, that still within all of us are evils that are very offensive to God and offensive to the God within us.  We tried to teach you to be Prophets and Prophetesses in all the years allotted you, and so few, so very few of you have taken this word as anything less than another church.  You are not prepared to hear from our lips the accurate state you are in and have been in all these years.  There are some of you here who are hypocrites.  You would never believe that about yourself but you are hypocrites.  You say one thing, you mean another, and you will never want anyone with God’s power and love to tell you what you are like before you die.  And yet, when you die it’s forever closed and fixed, you will never change.  If you don’t change now, in this very rare precious time allowed you, with the Holy Spirit and I, the Word of God on earth, it could excellerate for the first time in human living.

God has made a permission this will be the first time of the three. Your planet has gone through two complete release of hells on earth that overcome nearly all human beings.  That’s why the first time your planet had to be inundated with water and only one man, only one man, what a record of millions and millions, not even his family deserved to live.  They too had evil because the whole second side showed it.  We are all from that side of Noah and his three sons.  Your world is coming to a close by fire, both man’s atomic fires and God’s permission of Satan’s release of lightning that is going to devestate your earth.  Look at all the signs that God has been giving you, and you haven’t taken your call seriously.  God has always been in the business of stretching out His arms to save, and many of us have become Pharisees and Saducees, and we’ve allowed the spirits of pride and all the evil that we call good. Because you are involved in this ministry, doesn’t mean you are guaranteed in going to heaven.  Nobody will ever have a guarantee of going to heaven except the Holy Spirit and the Word of God.  We, like tight rope walkers, are to walk a straight line.

Some of you are so filled with hate yet. I feel it when you get near me.  I never tell you.  I try to skirt it by giving you words that will free you.  Instead of it helping you and freeing you, the evil in you is so strong and veiled, it prevents anything coming in revealing your evil, and you turn the good into evil.  All you can see in us is how evil has allowed you to see us.  Nearly all of you have forgotten the lessons of correspondence.  You don’t correspond.  Some of you are very dishonest with God.  You are crooks.  You are liars.  You don’t mean what you say, you think you do.  Some of the greatest shocks all of you and everyone on earth are going to get is the fourth day after death when everything in you pushes away God’s highest angels who want to love you and help you, like we are trying to.  And your life has been fixed forever.  You are going to choose the kind of life and society you want because you made that decision in the flesh.  Many of you are religionists.  You are not lovers of God.  You are just religionists.   You think you will do God’s will.  God’s will always hurts.  He tries people just to see if they will say yes.  Many times He requires them to go all the way, and some times He doesn’t require them to do it at all, but wanted to see what was in their heart.  Many of them who say yes, think God won’t require it, but then He does. 

If I or the Lord Joanne were to ask you, what Prophetic work has God called you for and what have you been trained in to reveal evil’s heart and mind, I doubt if five of you could tell us.  You’ve had all these years.  You are waiting for someone to come to you with written records and tell you, this is what you are called for, this is what you are to do, this is how it works.  It has never been that way and never will.  Some of you have used this Word of God time to build up your own evil selfish life.  Some of you only come to these meetings once a week and when you come, you are not coming to learn to immediately put it into practice and to be everything God wants you to be.  Some of you have to suffer too.

You didn’t come here today to be revealed.  If I were to stand in front of any one of you and tell you what God doesn’t like about you, it would be very rare that any one of you would stand there, take it with joy and immediately cast it out.  First, all the evil in you that loves self would hate God for using anybody to tell you what you are like.  There isn’t a human being on earth, myself included, that ever wants their sins revealed, that they have done, are doing, or may be doing.  Nobody wants that, except the person whom God has chosen and called and wants  to reveal everything about them to make them the perfect servant.  If the Lord was allowed to do that, how many would there be left in this ministry?  And yet, we deceive ourselves.

When you die, my people, you are going to be very much awake, only the body dies, that’s all.  But you are awake.  And you stay awake inside this body for thirty-six hours full of fear, full of wonderment.  Your spirit will shout at the top of it’s voice for someone to come help you, or release you.  Not a hair on your head will move.  You stay thirty six hours in total spirit cry and then, when the time is up, a light so bright will shine down upon you and you will be taken right out of your body, and you will never believe that you are alive out of the body, you will think you are still in it.  And you are going to act the same way, and God’s highest most beautiful angels will come to you, because they love everybody, but the evil in you is so great, it repels them.  You can’t stand them, you can’t be with them, they have to leave. God’s love is so great, He sends a second group of spiritual angels to help, to save you, to pull you in, and when they come, you can’t take them, because there is no evil in them, and there is so much left in you, and this process goes on until you find a society who was using you all your life while you are in the body.  And you go to that society.  And you think it is error, and for the first seven days with them, you are allowed to meet anybody you want to see.  Husbands, ex-husbands, wives, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, everyone that has ever hurt you or blessed you.  If you think of them, they are there.  And you think you are on earth, but only until the same situation develops that separated you when you were in the flesh.  Little by little, you are shown what you are headed for, you have already been shown what you missed and it takes unbelievable earth years and still they do not believe that they are dead, because the evil in them is so great.  You will blame everybody but yourself.  You will say why didn’t somebody tell me.  Well, we are trying to.  You won’t let us.  God brings to your life every day, your evils and you don’t accept them.  Strangers, persons, places, things and out of your mouths comes your own future destruction.  “I don’t want to hear that, I don’t want to see that”.  You don’t want to face it.

I know what it is to be embarrassed and to be put on the spot, especially to do God’s will. That more than any thing else was my greatest perplexity.  I looked for God and heaven to punish me immediately, to give me sicknesses and diseases, and chains.  The thing that perplexed me is no punishment.  God was preparing me to be the Prophet and the demonstrator of peoples evils till He knew how to quiet my heart down and my mind.

Do you know what it is to love God with all your heart and to have to portray disgusting things you hate?  You have to portray them.  You’ve got to talk to people you love who are weak, knowing you might turn them off from God forever.   You have to take that chance because you’re love for God is greater than anything on this earth, that’s why you suffer so much.

Why do you think I pray many of you women and men, who don’t get a hug, nobody’s has kissed you in years and the pains in your body are wracking up intense, and your mind is so perplexed.  You don’t want to sin against God, but what do you do with all this?  That’s your cross.  I know.  Fifteen years in my youth.  I know the heartache and the suffering and God was training and helping me and leading me, and her too.  He has done it for many of you.  Some of you are weakening, you are loosing out, you can’t take it, it hurts, God knows that.  You won’t have to say to God, do you know what it is to want to be loved and hugged and never kissed, and the Lord will let you talk, and when you are through blaming God, God will say, “Yes, I know.”  That’s why I became a man and a woman.  I wanted to do something about that.

My original plan was that Adam would be with Eve forever.  No sin.  But they wouldn’t let me, and even in spite of what they did, I’m trying to re-work it out, but it’s going to take thousands of years, because it’s in there.  I’m working against all the generations of time that produced you.  You’ve got over one hundred generations or more in you of evil.  You cannot know your decendencies in this life time but God has the accurate lineage.  Some of you are the offspring of deliberate willful murders, perverts, women who are beyond belief, vile and all of that is in each generation, and it’s never corrected, it’s just compounded.  And many of you wonder why you are the way you are.  God tries so often how to stop you before you get deeper in evil and you fight God, because of peer pressure and personal desire that wants to experience for yourself, you don’t have the faith, the trust.  That’s the way human nature is on earth.

There is so much about us that you don’t know and I want to tell you truth, I want to show you reality.  I want you to inspire us so that you can get from these mouths words that have never been uttered.  You can get feelings better then any marriage love feeling that you can experience in flesh, when God sees your heart and gives you the Holy Ghost, and the Holy Ghost goes through you wave after wave and opens your mind and heart and frees you from everything unlike God, little by little because you are doing something about it.  God is a great Father.  Many times He’s got to let His children go, and He has to give them experience.  They choose it.  They get dirty, they get crushed, they get broken and hurt.  Then they ask God, Forgive me, I’m so sorry.  And if they mean it, some don’t mean it yet, God has to let them go into deeper hells, and strong sin.  But if God has had His hand on you from a child, He’s going to bring you through.  But, it will cost you much.  And it’s so easy for us to say “yes” to God.  It’s easy.  But it’s not so easy to put with that yes a life that will do His will. 

Some of you have grudges so deep even God and His angels can get them out.  You are going to die with those grudges.  You are going to be the most ugly beings there ever was.  It shows in your face.  In less than one month of spiritual time after death, you look like the evil you have always been.  Many people will loose all their hair on their head.  Nobody in heaven is bald.  Everyone in heaven has hair so full.

There are people who will live in toilets forever.  That’s their hell.  They love the smell of fecal matter, they love urine smell.  That’s because they are selfish.  And they love to dig up dirt they’ve got on people and they hold it in their heart until the right moment when self is elevated.  But when they die, there are toilets in hell that are hell.  They drink the piss and they eat the shit and that’s the pride in them.  I can’t even describe for you some of the things that are waiting for you in the hells for many of you.

You won’t clear up, you won’t help God and His Spirit get this work going and it begins with martyrdom confrontation.  You’ve got to expose yourself.  You have to let people lie about you.  You’ve got to take it, you’ve got to let them curse you.  You’ve got to take it.  You’ve got to let no peer pressure bother you.  You’ve got to take it.  And you’ve got to wait on God till His life flows through you to whatever degree you let it.  One day many of you will wish you were not even the objects and the execution of God’s power to go when you see how horrible and deformed you are going to be.  God is going to make a separation. 

Some of you are not here to be the Prophets and Prophetesses God wants.  And you of your own free will are going to leave, because the Lord Joanne and I are going to turn the truth on, more and more, stronger.  And if you haven ‘t prepared yourself all these years, all you are going to do is hurt, and you will protect yourself and lie about us.  And no one is exempt.  Everybody is going to be tried, because we are real.  If you’ve been coming to meetings thinking you are going to be petted and encouraged to remain in your evil, you are one hundred percent wrong.

Some of you are so filled with traditional pride, it’s a shock to see the way you act.  I can tell by the way a person talks and looks what’s in their heart.  I know everything about them, just looking at them.  I made it my business to want to live with God forever and when God revealed to me the mystery of correspondences, it became my life.  I see this is the way God acts and lives, this is the way angels talk and live.  I can tell by the way you move your eyes, by the way your face turns, by the refusal of your eyes to keep looking, by the continual blinking, by the way people talk, and the way they bend their heads and won’t change.  How many of you have while you were talking to me I had to hold your head and straighten it?  You don’t know what I freed you from.  The way you slouch, the clothes you wear and the colors you wear every day, is telling me, and Joanne, an angel, and God, especially God what’s in you that day.  This world has learned how to hide hypocrisy better than any other planet.  If God were to strike you dead today for your hypocrisy, for your evil, how many of us would escape His judgment and walk out alive?  Think of it.  Think of it. 

You haven’t asked yourself these seven questions:

1.     Why am I involved with this work?

2.     Who is running this work?

3.     What is this work all about?

4.     What is my relationship with God in and out of flesh?  God in flesh and God out of flesh? It means both Him and Her and you.

5.     What have I been called for?

6.     What is the trial God has placed upon me to demonstrate which evil God does not like on planet earth today?

7.     Am I willing to be a martyr for God, if need be, in my demonstration?

There are people in this meeting, I’ve tried to tell you this for months and years, that some of you hate and you haven’t seriously fixed it up forever.  You may not have many more chances.  You have a chance today.  It doesn’t mean you fix it up in this meeting, it means you make an appointment in this meeting with that person to sit down and talk it out, everything that you hate about that person.  Give them a chance to reveal, explain, defend, and don’t hate and interrupt and hopefully, if you both love God, you’ll find out why God allowed this between both of you.  There are some people who hate many people, you can tell the word hate, because that’s what it comes down to.  Every thing else is a facade.  It’s a cover up.

To try to teach a group of people where hypocrites are in attendance is very difficult. Nobody wants to admit they are a hypocrite and be put on the spot, so they keep it all in their life and when they die, they think it’s over with.  Oh no, everything you have ever done has got pictures and words and feelings, there isn’t a detail left out of your own book of life.  Everybody is going to be paid back for what they have done and the way they have done it, and why they’ve done it, and to whom they’ve done it and what they benefited or what they lost.

Some of you young people, your teachers and your classmates are so evil, and you are afraid to speak out and see if God’s power will go through you and back you up.  Some of you have parents who are hypocrites, they say one thing, but do another, and you haven’t got the guts, in love, to warn them and rebuke them.  Many of you husbands and wives, your minds are cheating on each other.  You are tired of each other.  You want others to replace you.  You holler at one another, you hold grudges at one another.  Religion is in there to hurt you.  Some of you have been monsters in your marriages,  men and women monsters.  And you think it’s forgotten, covered up, because you are divorced.  Don’t kid yourself.  The Lord has allowed much to happen in this life among this people to try to teach you something and have standards.  Instead of learning from it and never doing those things again, you don’t do that.  You continue and you go on. 

Your prayer life stinks.  You are not the praying people that most religionists are.  They do much better than many of you.  You have taken for granted this call and you think across the board, because you are identified with the Lords in their flesh, you are excusable.  Yet you are so much more accountable.  You are more accountable.  You’ve done nothing greater than the Pharisees and Saducees and you are not going to offend me if some Sunday, I have less than ten people.  You won’t offend me.  Those ten will be real.  I’ve always wanted quality people, not numbers, and not hypocrites. Never hypocrites.  You can inspire me and the Lord Joanne to give you teaching and truths that will help you in this life to prepare for the life of God.  Most of you are living for this life, not for the life to come.  That is going to hurt you.  Ever since God revealed to me who He is, from that moment on, I lived only for the life to come.  That is my life.  That’s why you listen to me.  That’s why you want to hear the truth.  You may hate our guts, but you eventually come back  to letting us tell you the right way, because every thing in you knows we have the right way, though you hate us for it, many of you. 

You are not involved in this work to help it.  We just barely make it from week to week.  When I say to Brother Matthew, and it’s usually a long time away, I say, “You got the offering?” and he always says, “Thank God.”  We have people to pay.  We’ve got more dollar bills, single dollar bills in the last six months than we have ever had.  That shows something in your heart.  I know its tough out there, but I also know we serve a God of unbelievable help and miracles.  What are you going to do one day when you have no place to come to?  You probably were part of not helping.  There are people trying hard to help this work, and others could care less.  Just to let them feel good, they will drop a dollar in or change in, just what’s convenient.

I taught you two questions will be asked of you when you die:  What have you done in your love for God and how has this love helped your fellow man? 

By this time, after these years, most of you should know what heaven you are going to or honestly, what hell has been with you pulling you to it’s direction.  I doubt if any one in this room would have the guts to tell me what hell they have been pulled to and are going to.  You all think you are going to heaven.   It isn’t God’s nature to tell you point blank until you die.  Some people must be divinely told in order to be helped.

There are some of you, you will never be able to stand publicly, being ashamed and embarrassed for God’s sake.  Certain people were chosen by God throughout the years, and the Lord put it in my heart to try them, and He wanted to show the deceit and clandestine nature of the human heart.  Did it ever occur to you that when Jesus read the scriptures, He knew that one of His disciples would have to be His betrayer?  He knew that.  And do you know, that as a man, He never wanted to choose that man.  Because if He chose him, never could He tell him.  He would have to wait till God would show what’s in that man.  The scriptures knew who that man was, and hid it.  No matter how many times Jesus read it, God would not let him know.  God hides in scriptures, generalities over very specific cases.  He wondered and one day, this man who was brilliant, intelligent, came up to Him.  Most of those who Jesus called and chose, came from Galilee, only one came from Judea, around Jerusalem, and he was very educated.  This man heard about Jesus, and he came up, and when he said to Jesus, “Can you use me?” everything in Jesus from the Holy Ghost, went over Him, and was like an implosion, like a dagger, went right into His heart.  He said, “yes, come follow us”.  And He knew all the time, this was the one who was one day going to betray Him.  He never meant to, his human mind never meant to.  He loved Jesus.  He only wanted Jesus to do his will, not the Father’s will.  He thought he loved the nation better than God the Father.  But when you don’t understand God’s plans, and you have your own will to work with, you want that put upon others.

You are going to be given a chance today, like no human being has ever been given, and it’s only for that, for God put it in my heart to give you time.  Many of you have to make appointments with each other. Do it wisely and discreetly. Get every bit of hate out of you for one another and deal with the thing that has made you so-called enemies and you hate one another. This Sunday meeting is not the place to do it.  Make an arrangement during the week, to somehow, depending on how serious you are about getting things squared away, and settled.  Some of you are so afraid to tell things to each other because of the way you have been acting one to another.  You haven’t studied the scriptures that I gave as Jesus and God throughout the Old Testament and the Book of Revelation that ends with the idea , you are going to be judged for the deeds done in the body.

Some of you, in this meeting today are my enemy.  You have hidden for years your evils and disobedience’s and you literally, if you could, would manipulate us to doing your will.  There are those of you in this meeting who for years have told others you love, “Don’t listen to what the Lord Julius says”, and you became dictators.  There are some of you still that way, “Don’t tell Joanne and Julius, this and that”.  That tells you something about yourself.  You believe we are God, and you want to hide from us?  It doesn’t make sense.  What you don’t know is, God won’t let me hear a single thing, or see a single thing, no matter how obvious it is in front of me, to give you all the occasion never to believe that I’m the Lord and she is the Lord.  The only thing God wants me to know, that He opens my eyes and ears to, is to deal with something in you, .otherwise, I don’t know.  A lot of you are full of evil and fear because you think we know.  And it could be we don’t know anything, because God has not revealed it to us.  God put that fear in your heart. There are many of you, many that hate us and yet you are here.  The word “hate” is the correct word.  A stronger word is murder. You’d like to murder our life.  You won’t let us tell you the truth and your forcefield created these two years to teach you this.  We could have had living demonstrations of the call to which you have been called.  Everyone called has been given the idea as to what kind of a degree of evil they’ve been called to, both to practice, to feel the involvement of how people feel, and to learn how to deal with it.  A lot of you won’t call the evil you are doing evil.  And you think it’s part of your training.  It has nothing to do with your training, it’s just you.  You are evil.  You don’t know how to be honest, sincere, real and your feelings are all mixed up with unreality.

How many of us face each other honestly, our heart, our spirit, and our mouth are identical, instead of our mouth is one thing, our heart and our spirit are totally against us.  That’s why in this world only from childhood up do people look beautiful and nice, but their spirit man is horribly ugly and deformed and it will show eventually, eventually.  When you die you have one thing to look forward to, being unbelievably real whether you like it or not.  Find this reference.  Everything that is secret shall be made manifest in the light.  It shall be revealed. 

Eph 5:13  But all things that are reproved are made manifest by the light for whatsoever doth make manifest is light:

Find one or two more.

Lk 8:17  For nothing is secret that shall not be made manifest; either anything hid, that shall not be made known and come abroad.

Ecc 12:14  For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good or whether it be evil.

Remember that, everybody. 

Does anybody want to say anything?  Brother Matthew, would you and the brothers please take up the offering?  Take at least a fifteen minute or twenty minute break and do what the Lord suggested you do.  Then intelligently, quietly talk to someone you know you don’t like, someone you know you’ve got hatred and grudges against and talk about a future appointment.  You have twenty minutes. 

 Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, September 17, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

Don’t let there be any grudges in your heart for any reason.  So few mortals know why God has given lessons in nature, like the shedding of leaves in autumn and bare trees in winter, and then signs of life that is quiet in spring and the full bloom of leaves in summer where the sun’s warmth brings everything out.  The lessons to be learned in life’s living are infinite, but one of the most beautiful to me are the love letters from God, that every heartache I have ever had and grudge, can and will be forgiven forever, just like autumn, winter, spring and summer leaves.

When we go through heart aches and trials that we don’t like, all the evil in us, which is very subtle, tries to justify our hurts by keeping alive grudges and remembrance of hurts which does not help us, but only hurts us, and God, in His love, has given us one of the many ways to learn how He looks at things.  From summer to autumn, so many of those leaves have been destroyed by moths, caterpillars, insects and you see lots of holes in the leaves, that’s grudges.  All of those grudges mar the beauty of the landscape.  And we curse God for winter, but winter is a blessing in disguise, for winter takes away all the leaves with all the holes and there are no more leaves and there’s no more hurts, no more remembrances.  Spring is a beautiful time.  You never see one leaf come out with a hole in it.  Then summer is beautiful.  All the leaves are full until all those grudges and remembrances start again to eat away.  All those little creatures that make holes in leaves are your grudges.  And the holes in the leaves are the grudges remembered.  Wouldn’t it be nice to thank God each new day of your life, when you woke up today, that you were resurrected from yesterday’s heartaches?  You don’t want to bring the yesterdays and all the past yesterday’s heartaches alive in resurrection day with you? Do you?  Ask God in your heart to forgive you for holding grudges.  There is no one on earth that has ever done you harm or hurt for which you are to remember and do it back to them.  Everything happens to free you from all of the hurts and grudges. And those who say they love God, are usually the ones that have the greatest grudges, both against God first and against their fellow man.  Most people who love God don’t like His way.  Because God’s ways are always in the future and they are in total faith and there is no way any mortal can use anything from their life’s memories to understand God’s future love and plans for each soul.

Grudges can stay in you forever and they will hurt you.  Every grudge is a contact with a hell.  Don’t allow hell to have a hold on you.  I could never talk to you like this and be a hypocrite if there was one grudge in my heart against any human being, or God, or any angel or spirit.  God has totally freed me.  You can do it because I’m a man, and an overcoming sinful man, you now have a wonderful example.  I did it.  You can do it.  You have to work on it.  It’s not something that is given to you or comes to you.  Everybody was born with total power, but they are all in a lost state because all the evil and heredity and environment and your own actualities and what parents gave you, has covered it all up.  Death to self is one of the greatest plans of salvation God has ever revealed to us as mortals.  Some of us can do it in one life time.

In ancient times, people like Elijah and Enoch were allowed never to physically die.  There was no need.  They, in their lifetime, absolutely attained to the perfection in God that He wanted.  Therefore death was not required of people like that.  They have left this life and went alive into heaven, and into their heaven.  Many people in this life time, in ancient times, attained to a great state of perfection. They will have a little time in the intermediate world.  This is a generation that is so evil and incorrigibly evil, nearly every one has to pass through death, and some people who will even have an idea of going to heaven, will spend the full time of nearly thirty years, which in intermediate world time, is a very long time.  There is no time and space after death the way we understand it.  So many people in this generation have created for themselves annihilation.  There is absolutely nothing in them that wants to hear of and about God and heaven, they don’t care about being nice or good.

The love of self and the love of ruling has become their ruling love, you can feel it.  I can sense it.  God’s love is that you don’t make their hell deeper by trying to tell them about God.  When you talk to people of and about God whom God does not want to give of and about Him, because they have made that decision, you are forcing on them the message of life which is going to damn them greater and diminish your heaven.  Look at Jesus, “I thank you Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that you have hidden these things from the wise and prudent, and you have revealed them to babes for so it pleases you.”  As I said to my disciples of old, it is not given to them to know the mysteries of God’s kingdom that are given to you.  This is not a time for the Lord to have returned to preach saving news to people.  I think by now you all know why we are here.  We are here to punish, we are here to destroy, we are here to take away life, by power, love.  If anybody is to be saved, the message is already in them.

Look at your lives, many of you.  Some of you were children before you met us and God already began working with you.  It was so easy for you, against your parents, your loved ones, there are some of you yet, your parents used to be with us and they are gone, but you’re not.  There is love there.  And you can’t be untrue to yourself.  You can’t deny yourself.  That’s God working with you.  They will not be your parents after death, you were loaned to them.

Think of the shock that man and woman is going to have who were called to be my parents and were never true parents to me.  They never taught me anything about life, a man, a woman.  I didn’t know who love was.  All I knew was hate and selfishness and holding grudges.  Their heredity offering to me was, I hated Jesus Christ.  To me the name Jesus Christ was Roman Catholic and Roman Catholic’s never let their light shine for God.  They let their darkness shine for Satan and it was called Jesus.

When I first opened up the New Testament and the first words in the New Testament were, This is the book of the generation of Jesus Christ, the son of David, the son of Abraham, literally, honestly, with anger in my heart, I cursed and closed that book and said, “that’s a damn lie”.  Jesus is a Roman Catholic hater of the Jewish people, how does he get his name connected with two Jews? But I couldn’t get away from that verse. For a whole week, day and night, it burned into me and God’s words in me were, (not mine), “Jesus is a Jew, Jesus is a Jew”.  I said, “that’s a lie, it’s a lie”  and everything in my heredity hated that name.  The name “Jesus” meant Jew killer, Roman Catholic Jew hater, that’s all Jesus meant.  Because of the lies.  And then, that wonderful voice said to me, “How do I know who and what a Jew is?”, and I answered, “I don’t”.  And that wonderful voice said, “ Wouldn’t it be wisdom to find out?”  and I said, “yea”.  I was talking to God and didn’t even know it.  And then God put a desire in me and said, I can’t read this book, I’ve got to find out who a Jew is, and in order to find out the answer to Matthew 1:1, I had to read thirty-nine books.  When I read that whole Old Testament and I then opened up that verse again, The book of the generation of Jesus Christ, the son of David, the son of Abraham, love went all over me.  I said, “yes, now I know”.  You see it’s your heredity, your environment and your actuality. 

Grudges can change your entire outlook on how you hear God.  Today, we begin a new dispensation and you don’t want to start this with left over grudges.  Right?  Take a few moments and pray, dedicate this day to God, genuinely, honestly.  Then whatever happens today, there will be so many opportunities to thank God and for you to forgive people, forgive situations.  They are all answers to your prayer, but you don’t know how to do the same every day of your life and don’t forget, when you go to sleep tonight, you may never wake up tomorrow morning.  You open the day to God, lovingly close it.  Say something like this. 

Father, I know you led me today, but perhaps my humanity got in the way and hindered you somewhat.  Only you know how to make up in every body’s life that touched mine today that I hurt.  Make up to them, fix it up, Lord.  I close this day with the assurance that you will correct everything that I did wrong, and if you grant me to wake up tomorrow, put into my heart how to fix things up.  And I trust you God.  That was the mystery when God said, a morning offering and an evening offering.

Every truth God has ever given is capable to each human being reading it of a different interpretation that is absolutely correct.  Any one word in that Bible can mean something to every human being, different than yours, because their needs are different.  That’s why never sit in judgment on anyone’s understanding of anything coming from God.  Don’t allow yourself to have the love of ruling over people, which is love of self, and wanting to force everybody under your will to feed your ruling love.  I taught you who the greatest in heaven is.  Those who love to serve.  You could never know the freedom, the help, the love, all you see is a man crying, you do not see the Creator crying.  This is God, who became a real man, even to sinning, having his heart hurt, crushed, scared and forgiving.  You don’t get that overnight, my people.  You get that from a constant everyday life of wanting and seeking to do God’s will.  It took me nearly seventy years to know the will of God and then I found out all God’s will for my life is, Live.  Think of it.  Just live.  I never knew what that meant.  It meant that everything that I am doing is God’s will.  Just live.  And don’t be aggravated with anything that comes into your life and reveals things in you that are not like God.  God knows all the hells that are going on.  He knows everybody cursing Him, so many times a day, sinning out of style.  He doesn’t hate them.  He still is doing everything He can to make their hells milder.  That’s love.  That’s called love your enemy.  How will you know you have overcome that one part where nothing in you changes, except for the better, when they curse you to your face and they accuse you of lying.  And you know in your heart of heart, they are accusing God, and there is nothing in you that finds fault with them.  You don’t take them to task, you pray for them, because you were once like them.  That’s the kind of love God wants.  That’s the love that will shock.  That’s the love that people want and need.  You’ll be no different than anybody else, if you act like everybody else.  The whole thing is, let your God life shine in all the darkness.  Darkness cannot stain the light of God. 

Many of you are so unwise.  God wants to take evil away from you and you fight to hold it back, you want to keep it, because it’s your life.  So many of you feel bad at God and at people who don’t want to have anything to do with you anymore.  You don’t know that that is exactly what will happen to them after death, people are brought into the spirit world, the highest angels come, everything in them can’t stand them, the angels don’t leave, these people just push them away.  So the spiritual angels come and these spiritual angels love people, they want to help, and those people can’t take spiritual angels, and they push them away.  Natural angels come, and even they love to help, but they can’t take them, and they push them away.  Then the most mildest of the hell spirits come and  they feel a little comfortable, but they can’t, and they push them away, then those opposite to the spiritual angels come, and they are evil, and they begin to feel very comfortable, but they can’t even get them, and they push them away.  Then the worst of all the evils come and they begin to smell them, they smell like toilets, fecal matter and urine and vomit and they begin to breathe.  They feel terrific.  Then the hate that murders God, enters into them and they feel comfortable, and they can breathe, and they have found their life.  They can’t help it.  They are pulled into their life. 

You can only have the friends that God’s love in you pulls.  You are unwise to force friendships that God doesn’t want.  You want clicks that God doesn’t want, you want fellowships that God doesn’t want.  And you are so mixed up.  Years ago, I designed this people according to the pattern of heaven.  Oh the sickness that came on so many of you.  The irritation, the aggravation.  You wouldn’t let me be who I wanted to be among you.  You wouldn’t trust me with my knowledge of everything.  You did not know me or see me.  So I veiled myself and her.  This veiling has been going on close to ten years.  But it’s time for you to tear this veil off of us.  Could you stand us being God and letting our pattern, our form of Godliness in you be the pattern without you having your hereditary influences, your environmental influences that you made actual be the opposing force?  It’s what you think of another person, is the way you are going to hear and see us.  There are some of you who have literally been privileged to see us as demons.  That’s in you.  Some of you have seen us as the most brilliant of people with light that can no longer describe our features.  You are blessed.  Nobody in this room has yet had the eyes to see us without the skin, as we really are, for you couldn’t take it right now.  That power would overcome you with such love.  The love would hurt you because there is so much evil left in you, but every now and then, if you go according to the pattern of God, out of heaven, God will accelerate with your cooperation, your death to self. 

Why don’t you tell God you love Him.  Take a few moments.  You can clear up so much.  Ask God to forgive you for the way you hate your parents.  The way you hate your relatives, your friends, and your neighbors and the bosses you have worked for, and the supervisors and all the strangers that irritates the hell out of you, and see if God can vacuum all that junk out of you by His love.  Try to look at each other without hypocrisy, and if you can’t stand being in the presence of a person in this meeting, that doesn’t mean you are evil, it means that for the time being, or forever, that’s not your heaven.  To force yourself to go into a heaven that is not yours, will hurt you.  God will never permit anyone, even from hell, wanting to go to heaven.  Most people think that gaining heaven, any part of it, or being with God, any part of it, is an act of mercy.  There is no such thing in the kingdom of God.  It’s your life.  Whatever is in you will keep you out of heaven or bring you into heaven.  I’m telling you very simply, faith is, keep the commandments, and don’t sin, and don’t hate and don’t hold grudges and stop thinking everybody hates you.  There isn’t a person on earth who hates you who came from heaven.  Hate only comes up from hell and if you think people hate you, it’s an evident fact you hate somebody, because love doesn’t hate anybody.  Love turns all hate into love.  That’s what Jesus meant when He said, Love your enemies.  Bless them that curse you, who speak evil of you, falsely, for my sake.  Some of you hold grudges so hard, so deep and so full of your hate, it takes years of smaller kinds of heartaches for you just to get rid of that one thing, never mind all the others you have to work on.

If  you had a genuine love for God, and love the truth, you would immediately put it into practice without trying to disprove that God told a lie.  So many people always think that God tells a lie because they want to prove what God says, and they don’t believe unless they understand it.  Any body who believes God, understands nothing.  Not a thing, because it came from God.  That’s it.  There’s no way to prove that.  That’s within a person.  Take a few minutes and remember, every order for this world proves there will be a spring and a summer. Let your new leaves be shades who overshadow everybody, for that sun is very bright without clouds.  God’s love can hurt more than you would ever know, if there is evil in you.  No one enters heaven by mercy.  You enter heaven because heaven is in you.  Let the brothers play softly and quietly.  Please take a few moments, commit this day to God, and everything that will happen.  I am going to do things that will bring the hell out of everyone.  You don’t make it pleasant for God to free you from your evil.  Some of you do.  Reveal to God now your true heart.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, September 3, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

Peace be with you all.  Everybody come and settle down.  As much as you can, keep yourselves free, take a moment or two and feel after God and see if you can literally feel the Holy Ghost, let a trickle come in, a movement, keep your mind on God. Don’t ever come to a meeting thinking it’s going to be routine.  Nothing can ever be routine with Spirit filled and led people.  I taught you the truth.  God’s spirit is unpredictable, in each and every human being.  She has the right to touch any human being with whatever experience that has occurred to that human being, as contributory to her perfect will.  Most of us, if not all of us, always need three things whenever we come into the presence of God. 

First, we need to quiet our spirits down and have our physical bodies at rest because of the world’s pressures. 

Secondly, we need to be filled with the Holy Ghost so that we can understand whatever God has in store to give us.

Thirdly, anything that is in us, usually grudges, for some reason grudges always seen to be outstanding when you come into the worship service of God.  It’s a fact.  But when you come into God’s presence, you also can contribute to the increase of receiving God’s spirit better.  All of us here today, our very presence admits we’d like to be better people,  but the motives are different.  Some of us want to be better because we love God and we only want His will.  All of us think that’s the motive in all of our lives, but it’s not true.  Some of us are here hypocritically.  We don’t mean to be, but we are.  Just to show our face, but we are hiding evil in our lives.  Some of us are here because we are still looking to find God’s will in our life.  It is written of the eleven apostles, they met Jesus in the mountain after His resurrection.  The scripture says, they doubted.  Even after the resurrection, they doubted.  The human mind, the human body, wants physical evidence of certainty and reality, which they would call faith.  It’s never faith.  Anything that satisfies your natural mind is totally devoid of faith.  Faith can never be verified by anything natural.  Remember that.  Only God’s spirit is real and true, and if you can enter into God’s presence quickly with pure love only for God, wanting to know what God wants of you and from you and for you alone, in conjunction with everything else, your very presence, believe it or not, is an admission that you want to know something more of God.  But the motive is different in every case. 

One day, when your life is near it’s physical end, or you are just about to close your earth career, the things that will overwhelm you will be, Am I ready to meet God as he really is?  And you all will be.  Within seven days after your death you will meet both me and my Father.  Even now, people will die and will still meet me.  You don’t understand the infiniteness of God and the mysteries connected with His human incarnation.  Some of you will lay down your lives for us, knowing we are the Lord.  The only purpose in living is ultimately to complete your earth career.  But most of you still find it a great struggle, both to believe that we are the Lord and to give us the rest of the evils in your life.  If you could know God’s love the way I’d like to give it to you and reveal it to you and show you your life, and have you look back, you would do things better.  Most of us do not know we are selfish, or that we are meaningfully evil.  We don’t really mean to be if we love God, but we are.  And all the self life we hold on to will keep us away that much  further from God in this life, and in all of those that are to come.  Remember this is kindergarten life for all of you.  This is your first entrance into human flesh and what you do here is watched, known and heard by all beings.  You are making a life adventure for people by the billions who are yet to come and be born.  As both a man and as God, my heart is saddened that his planet, with all that I have done for it, has produced for me children of disobedience, children of Satan.  Most of them in this generation have to die, many will go to hell, many will be annihilated and it will take a long time afterwards which I will show you in part of today’s lesson, the eight groups of those who are evil.

If any part of that evil is in you, love God enough, to let God use others in this life, to bring to you the evil; to bring out of you, the evil, without you hating the object that God brings to you.  Every time you overcome an evil situation by any body God brings to you, without blaming that person, you not only are forever free from that evil in that form, but you have helped free that human being too. 

You cannot understand at this time in your walk with God, how every human being is involved with every other human being.  There are people you have never seen, everything about you has affected them.  It’s too high, it’s beyond your imagination how that works, but you have been told so many different ways, watch your thoughts, watch what you think.  I wish someone I had known would have counseled with me when I was much younger so that I would have started to absorb that truth.  You can arrive at a place in your life where absolutely nothing outside of you or within you can ever hurt you again.  I didn’t realize that was possible in a sinful humanity.  Part of my human experience is to go the full gamut and enter into everything that both a sinless and a sinful man would enter in to.  I never revealed this to you during those forty days of my resurrected life; they didn’t see me in the humanity that I wore as Jesus.  They couldn’t have. But I revealed myself to them in ways that their heart knew.  My greetings, my mannerisms, and often throughout your life time I allow many of my angels to put on my face, and my form to test you.  To see if you know who it is.  There were many, many who needed me before I ascended to my Father to show them there is growing even after death.  One of the nicest things that can ever happen to you who love me and know me is to die with that knowledge of having never displeased me.  So that I can fill you up, because you are my friends.

But I have evil friends, and I have betrayers.  Think of how sad poor Judas was.  He was so intelligent.  He was the most educated man among my followers and he always wanted me to do things his way.  Like many of you.  You don’t understand how I lead and guide you.  He didn’t know how to take my private and my public rebukes designed for his eternal welfare.  And little by little, grudges that he thought were well meaning, began to build one upon another.  Every time I rebuked him, no grudges were removed, grudges were added, until one day he was so overtaken, he began to justify that if he could force me in to a display of omnipotence for the restoration of Israel, he would have prided himself as being my best apostle.  You can be so deceived in what you are thinking of doing to benefit God it will be written of you, they thought they were doing God a service.  It will never turn out to be your way.  Because you try to stereotype the infinite Spirit of God who can never be stereotyped.  You can’t force God to do things your way.  Poor Judas.  He thought he would be number one in the Sanhedrin if he would just tell them all about Jesus.  And here was a man who witnessed a miracle, signs and wonders and was present for the greatest miracle this planet had ever seen.  He saw Lazarus, who was dead four full days and stinking, raised to life.  With that miracle and all the miracles previous, he turned out to be my betrayer.

If you would stop and think, signs and wonders will never hold you.  There is only one thing that will hold, and God trusts you, you, and you alone, will hold yourself.  You have got to force yourself to give up things that you know are displeasing to God, and you have got to take on things that you know are pleasing to God which your nature does not like.  The more you do that, the freer you are to be filled up with God.  Watch your words.  Try to listen with your own ears as to what kind of words are coming out of your mouth.  Then you will know who is using you.  When you meet with one another, some day it will be true, there is nothing in your heart and mind and spirit but God’s love, to greet one another with a genuine love.  And you are always willing to learn.  You are in a state of readiness to learn more and more of God than ever.

This afternoon, I hope you will inspire me to help you to finish the last part of this lesson.  There are forty nine points here on resurrection of the dead, and within us there are many dead people yet, that are not absolutely dead.  They are dead to God, they are dead to the spirit, but they are not dead to us.  They are alive, and we have to do every thing that we can to free ourselves from them.  This will be a wonderful people one day, if you can look everyone in the eye and never have anything in your heart but love for God living there.  No one can look you in the eye and make you feel comfortable but God.  No one can speak a word to you and make you feel comfortable but God.  God lives in every one of us to different degrees.  The two things which must be restored to this world is God is our Father, there is one God and we are all His children.

You know why family ties sometimes are very strong?  Because it was a good family.  The father was nice, the mother was nice and the children were nice.  They all go out of their way to help one another.  We all can bear witness, I don’t think there is any body here that has had that kind of a family.  We’ve all had either a bad father or a bad mother, or both, or we’ve had lives that were so different.  I didn’t even know what it was to love, genuine love, until after I was married two times.  As a child I didn’t know what love was.  Nobody ever taught me.  I never saw it in my family.  I had to go through that experience.  I had to imbibe and learn what does it mean to be alive.  No one ever taught me that I was a male person.  What did that mean?  New things were happening to me that were frightening to me.  Nobody ever told me for about the first seven to nine years of my life, I used to have a beautiful soprano voice and then one day it just changed to a baritone.  It frightened me.  Nobody ever told me about my voice changing.  I was looking for years for that soprano voice to come back.  It never came back, it just got more and more base.  A lot of things happened to my body that I didn’t understand,  nobody ever told me.  A lot of you young people, watch, you too Enoch, your voice is going to change.  Watch it and don’t be frightened.  The same with you young ladies, it’s going to happen to you, and you mustn’t be ashamed to go to your father or your mother, especially in this work if they love God, and ask them sincerely and honestly, dad, mom these things are happening, what is it?  I’ve had the experience that one of the children that I was allowed to help rear lost some fecal matter and they screamed and I didn’t understand why.  They thought a part of their body was dying.  You have to learn little things.  The same with us, there are things left in us that are going to hurt, but we don’t know, but they must come out.

It’s hard to believe that our heavenly Father would like us to leave this planet the way we came in.  But instead of being an ignorant child, He wants us to leave a very mature and wise child.  That’s why when people get older, and they haven’t taken care of themselves during their youth, they become second children, but they lose all the genuine innocence because of so much sickness and disease.  I must have been in my early thirties and God spoke to me and said, “Julius, my son, it will be better for you if you will begin to walk many miles a day, my child.  It will help you when you get old.  I didn’t know what He meant, but I obeyed.  I’m seventy-one and to a great degree I am enjoying it.  The health that I put in my body when I was thirty five up, I have that as a reserve.  That’s what makes me so strong and so young looking and I’m becoming childlike without becoming sick or diseased.  I don’t know how much longer God is going to let me live but I am prepared for whatever turn He takes in my life.  I know His plan.  I don’t know the immediate times of it, I was ready to go when I was about thirty seven or forty, and many of you came into my life at that time, and I sincerely taught you the truth.  The plan is right, it’s just that God will not let us know the time, but it was right for Him to put it in our hearts to believe it would happen right away, or He wouldn’t get out of us what He did. 

I will reveal a wonderful secret to you.  The one truth that all my early disciples misunderstood, was my second return.  They could never pin down how and when I told them I’d be here.  And everybody was trying to follow it, and plan it, and date it, and it just doesn’t happen that way.  In the meantime, here I am.  And if they would have read carefully like I kept teaching you during those weekdays, in the great tribulation series in Daniel’s time.  There were ten things that had to happen first before I ever came in my glorious appearance.  Some of them are happening more and more, but still things are jelling, they are not yet perfect, but they will be.  It is written, they are there, but God does not allow it to be revealed because the times are not right.  You could never have known one of the signs of my coming is children must turn out to be willful murders.  Think of it.  And this is a generation that already has it.  Women are no longer going to be and act like women.  They are going to be crass, brazen and hard and they are going to lose every quality of softness and smoothness, and this is that generation.  Look at what’s happening to women.  They want to vie with men for muscular backs and bottoms and chests and they enter into all kinds of man made things, that can hurt them terribly.  Even now, we are thinking old fashioned, according to them.  I don’t like to see a woman play basketball or hockey.  It wasn’t made for a woman to do that.  Or to get in a wrestling ring or to fly dangerous planes, and ships, and submarines.  That’s not for women.  But I’m not against women being whatever Jesus wanted them to be.  Jesus was the first man on this planet to free women from age old ideas.  Do you know what it meant for a Jewish man to have many women follow him unveiled, sitting in his presence, interspersed with men?  (tape turned over)  It’s happening again.  In certain segments of your planet all female children are being put to death.  They don’t want the girls anymore, just the boys and it’s going to become so universal.  And yet, with all of that, how do you explain that there is going to be a shortage of men?  Think of it.  There are so many things happening.

And how does that tie in and be brought down into you and your personal problems today?  Very simple.  You have to know God.  God knows your life and your plan.  He has a will and a way, a plan for you.  Learn not to sit in judgment on one another.  All you have to do is ask this question. Whether people are deceived or not, is no concern of yours, ask them this question.  Did God tell you to say or do that?  And if they answer yes, that ends your argument.  Whether God did or not, is of no concern to yours.  They have obligated God, so either they will profane His name and lie, or it’s the truth.  You have to have Gamiel’s attitude, “Leave them alone, if this thing be of God, you will find yourself fighting God and if not, it will come to nothing.”  Have that attitude.  That’s the best attitude to take.

We don’t know what God has in store for each of us called to this work.  This is a very unique work.  That’s why we are small, that’s why we are preserved and reserved for something unique and special.  One day strangers will feel an actual presence of love from some of us, most of us, who are real believers in Julius and Joanne being the Lord returned.  And with your permission, I want to help teach you those necessary truths that will take you through spiritually, physically and mentally to the worst time in human evolution and human history, ever to be lived and recorded on this planet.  It’s not going to get better physically, naturally.  It’s going to get worse and worse, but when it’s the darkest, those of us who have the light shinning within us, are going to be objects of ridicule and persecution, but we will have God.  When you get to the place where you are unafraid to die for the Lord’s sake, you will have understood what I feel and have been feeling for years.  I am at peace with God and with myself.  I have literally attained, in this sinful humanity, of status with God.  I am a Perfect Man.  My perfection is my obedience to God and the desire of my heart, soul, mind and strength to do only His will.  Ever since that day on the ship, I never dreamed I was doing God’s will.  With everything that has ever happened to me and God foreknew, and He gave me that first vision.  Contained in that vision was my entire walk with God and not once anywhere in that vision, did I turn out to hate Him.  It ended with me becoming the ruler of my universe.  He placed me on a throne so big and nice, and dressed me up and had billions before me to judge them.   My kingdom is an everlasting kingdom.  It will reign forever and from this world I will have gotten Agondonters, overcomers, who through all heartaches will have known the right attitude to take.  Do you have the right attitude, are you here today with the right attitude?  If you are not here today with the right attitude, your heart may get hard.  Everything I tell you, you cannot receive correctly, it will be given to you wrong, because your heart’s hard, and you must do everything in your power to free yourself from the evil that still leads and guides you incorrectly.  Some of you always avoid a person, a place or a thing or the plural of them, to free you.  Many times God sent me more than one person, at that moment, to free me from something in my life that I never realized had both or more of those spirits in me.  Don’t limit God to how God is suppose to help you.  Most of us do that.

I watch people when they put their hands to their ears and they don’t want to hear things.  That spirit is in them.  Or they don’t want to see something.  They turn away or they tell people to stop.  When I said to Peter, When you were young you went wherever you wanted to go, (and that’s true of everyone who has ever lived, but this is only true of very special people), but when you are old another will gird you and take you where you don’t want to go.  How could Peter have ever dreamed that he would live to be an old man and die a martyred death.  God has a plan for every one of you.  Do you seek for it?  Have you asked God to reveal it to you?  Is your love for God, unshakable?  Can anything come to you to separate you from the love of God?  Can any person?  Can anything they say?  Can anything they do?  Can you be led to a place where that could take God away from you?  Can anything be given to you that can remove God from you?   You’ve got to find that answer.  Once you know it and settle it, you will be given the peace that passes all understanding. 

Everyone who needs healing, raise your right hand high.  Keep it there.  You may lower it.  Whatever you need from God that will bring God closer to you, raise your left hand high.  Lower it.  Everybody take a deep breath.  Relax.  Give God at least three minutes of heart commune with Him.

Thank you.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, August 27, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

Our peace and love be with you all.  Get in an attitude where you feel God.  Try to deliberately quiet yourselves down.  Feel how wonderful it is to be in God’s presence and also in each other’s presence.  The thing that delights me in this people when I get here and there are just a few here is, I listen with my heart and I put all my educated masculine feelers out, so that the Spirit of God can take those feelers in each heart and the joy in the way you greet one another. It is so touching to my heart, it tenderizes me.  It reminds me, what made this people up.  Love.  Love for truth. And as difficult as it is for us as humans in our lifetime to live the truth, each of us, the way God has been leading us is very, very important.

When I was younger and I was very fiery and so desirous to do God’s will the way God revealed it to me, I was correct in wanting to implement that, but I was also very unwise because I thought everybody should see God through my eyes and through my eyes they would walk their individual walk according to my eyes and my walk.  For me that was proper because my motive was good, but  my methods were poor and inexperienced. As I grew and God’s love became so overwhelming to me, I became sensitive to each child of God.  I didn’t realize it would take me almost sixty years to become a perfect man.  I’ve been perfect in God’s sight for nearly fifteen years.  And I hardly hear from God anymore because God is my life.  And I found out that all the heartaches were part of the plan to make me as an individual, the kind of a person God wanted me to be.  I found out that in such a state, I’m easy to get along with.  I don’t sit in judgment anymore on the human heart because every one of us are a unique individual to God.  Every one of us in our well meaningness always offend people, especially children of God because we are in a light a little ahead  or a little behind our brothers and sisters.

It took me years to get rid of grudges.  Just the name of a person would activate a grudge and every event or certain situation connected with an individual, I found out that the grudge was still there.  It took me years to learn that God calls perfection in the human heart, “how are you living in this moment with God”.  Nobody wakes up among this people, planning to be an irritation to anybody else.  I think most of us wake up, either knowingly or unknowingly, committing the day to God and what we are unaware of is, God really heard us and He is really taking our life in stock.  But we lack the faith to believe that the words we are speaking are God’s words and the deeds we are doing are God’s deeds.  That’s not true in every individual situation where the motive is very selfish and the attitude is selfish.  That’s only true when we willfully and deliberately seek God’s will. 

Many of us as children of God will die with grudges on our heart.  God doesn’t want that,  and deep in your heart you don’t want it either.  But you have never seen that every situation that is brought to your life is the answer to a prayer that you’ve been praying somewhere in your heart, either to be freed from or to be used somehow.  When you get to the place where the self in you no longer shows itself and you would rather go the extra mile, either to be taken advantage of or allowed of your own free will to share, you begin to understand something about the marvelous love of God.  I don’t wake up every day looking to see who I can hurt or who I am going to create grudges against.  I wake up every day with an appreciation that God was power over my sleeping for thousands of years and knowing nothing and then waking up the next day.  That to me is a gift of life.  It means there is work for me.  I can get up and I can work for God, and I commit my day into God’s hands that he may lead me only to the people that He alone knows something about me can help and bless them.  Or He brings them into my life to help make my life better, sweeter, kinder and nicer.  I’ve learned to let the Spirit of God in every human being express herself the way she wants to.  The perfection of God in this humanity is so tender, so sensitive that it only reveals to me the motive and the intention of anything and everything that is being said or done by this particular human being.  And to me, that’s my opportunity to go about and do good.  That sentence about Jesus, He went about doing good, healing all who were oppressed of the devil.

Some of us, even now, we are making decisions and our conduct in God’s sight is not where it should be. But there is something about God’s love that as you get older, you learn.  God may call a person in their youth to do His will perfectly, full well realizing that they will zig zag and be in and out.  Some of us are used to try to press them into the right way, to keep them going, but something about them will not allow us to help them and we can’t hate them.  We must let them go and let life and God working with them, work things out in their life.  Once in a while God touches people who used to walk with God and they call to come back.  Some find it’s too intense, they still cannot come, so they come a while and then they leave.   “Master, how often shall I forgive my brother.  Seven times?” “Nay, I say unto you not until seven  times, but until seventy times seven.”  What kind of a love does God have that He will wait years for this prodigal child to go into all kinds of heartache until they come to themselves. Your best teacher is your heartaches.  When God no longer is allowed to talk to you and direct your life and time intervenes and there is much heartache, that longing for God wells up and if you are a lover of truth you will break through and you will do what that prodigal son did.  “Here I am, away from my father and his love and his provision to bless me.  I’m hungry.  I’m even willing to eat this pig stuff and yet in my fathers house they are so well taken care of. I know what I’ll do.  First, I’ll admit that I have been wrong.  Then I’ll return.  And though he loves me, I will not act like his son.  I will be his servant.”  He had settled this in his heart. 

It’s when you listen to your heart, and you make that right and final decision.  It will never be whether you are saved or lost, once you’ve settled it, it’s settled.  Everything after that is walking closer and closer to God even if many, many heartaches are allowed you.  You will leave the world in what may be a much lower state than God ever intended you to.  It will have it’s consequences.  But listen to this.  That the Spirit may be saved.  That’s the love that I would like to show before I die and share with every human being that comes into my presence.  I have learned to let you live your life.  You say you love God.  In my light without listening to my counsel, I see you are digging a pit.  You will have a lot of heartache.  But if you don’t ask my for counsel, I have to be quiet.  I must let you go and live your life because God your Father has a direct connection with your heart that I personally refuse to step in and destroy.

There will be people yet who will call to come back and there will be people here who will want to leave.  You must not hate them.  You can appeal, you can suggest, but you must not interfere.  Let them go.  This may not be their time.  There are not enough lessons learned.  Enough heartache haven’t come yet.  Sometimes to get one truth in can take many, many years of experience.  You’ve got to be gently prepared.  That’s because we are a people who by our life, by our conduct and speech, we make the admission we want to know God’s will.  Nobody can ever be like anybody else.  We are unique.

I have never taught you anything that you can use and turn it into a church. We’ve got too many churches already.  What God has always wanted is to be the divine ruler of your individual life and He is the only being in the universe who can unify every human being to be different.  To remain different, to honor that difference, to respect it and let them all work to a perfect work.  I’ve learned that.  That’s why to many of you I may appear to be too much a pacifist.  You don’t know what God has trained me and the Lord Joanne for.  And I have had to be careful that your usefulness to God which is never going to be the same as anybody else has to be dealt on your level.

There are people who are no longer with us today because God showed me a very important work for them and told me and motivated me to keep working on them privately, and publicly, to irritate, to get out for the future would be detrimental to their life. And because they could not take the public embarrassment, private, continual shame, grudges secretly built up in their heart and they fell away maybe never to return again.  But they can still be children of God.  And God will work with them on their level. 

One of the most difficult things for me as Jesus, was to accept Judas Iscariot, without him ever knowing, I knew everything about him.  He was the only one of my apostles brilliantly educated, but he had within him from heredity, a spirit that was always judging, looking down on people, and I could never get him involved in very deep, high love of the truth. He did not know he was prophesied about.  “Have not I chosen you twelve and one of you is a devil?”  I did that so that they would all be motivated to inspect themselves out.  Am I that one?  Every one of them had a spirit to betray.  But only one always was offended because I took him to task.  He objected to Mary pouring her ointment on me and called it a waste because he was a crook.  He stole what was in the treasury and he thought nobody knew it.  And everything in him tried to force me to be politically minded and I had to turn on him and rebuke him.  Every time I rebuked Judas, like many of you, you don’t take it right.  You take one rebuke designed to free you forever from a future destruction, and you turn it into your immediate destruction.  One trial after the other built up into Judas’ heart.

I want you to think of this truth.  Judas was present when he saw Lazarus raised from the dead and he still betrayed him.  Miracles will never hold you.  Wonders will never inspire you to be very real.  They are only attractions to get attention.  These seven things that I tell you are only for attraction.  To get attention.  Signs, wonders, miracles, supernatural events, dreams, visions, and special dispensations of unbelievable miraculous occurrences, all designed only to get your attention.  The purpose of it is that you will listen to truth designed to free you from things in your life that are hurtful.  God has never said or done anything to ever hurt one human being.  Never.  Appearances and so-called situation appearances have in them the design of His love.  You don’t talk to each other with an uninvolved love.  People speak to you and you can feel the hurt.  That’s God telling you, don’t find fault with this person, but what they are talking about and their presence is revealing something in you and the answer to your prayer is standing right in front of you.  Thank God that you have been able to detect and see what you could never have seen.

One day some of you will have the personal pleasure, where there is not one situation, not one person that can ever again stir within you anything to make you have a personal involvement that borders on murder.  So many of you have the spirit of murder in you yet, because you’re irritated, and yet that is the answer to your prayer which you refuse to let take you over.  You want your way. You think your way is God’s best way for you.  It isn’t.  It may indirectly be God’s way for you at the present time in your growth, and God will let you do those things that will forever separate you from the perfect plan of God in your life.  And you will put yourself further away from God.  You can never, ever be separated from God, fortunately, but you will not have it as fully as you could have and should have and would have.  If you endured as seeing Him who is invisible, I don’t know how to put it into human language, God’s love.  It’s my driving force.  It’s the very center of my being.  It keeps me going.  God has a very, very special plan for my life.  All of you are here because of us. 

I want you to think of these words.  God loves me.  With all of my evil, in spite of my selfishness, God my Father loves me.  He will let me sin, He’ll let me do everything I want that hurts me, but that has not changed His love for me.  And then one day it will occur to you, how can I love the one I am hurting?  And something in you will rise up.  There is no freedom greater than self determination, and you yourself say something, or desire something and you follow it through, you are the greatest victor in your life.  I am a concentration of victory I have gained ascendancy over the evil nature, that’s why I am able to teach you the way I am.  I found out there is more power in being real, without hypocrisy, than in any other manner.  The lessons that I am teaching you have a design and they are doing good.  They are revealing all of you.  I don’t have filibustering messages.  I haven’t changed my mind or my will or my plan.  I am going along with my Father in His will for me, for her, for this people.  There is something in my father’s mind that for four years of our lives, whenever they come, all the years of living training are necessary.  Do you realize what we are capable of doing in one minute?  Within each day of four years?  Why such special training?  Why such severe heart rending, heart crushing training?  Why has this people been so cloistered and dealt with so severely?  To teach you that in the future, the truth that we will have will be so penetratingly hurtful. They are going to try to blame our humanity.  They will do everything they can to take away from that truth that hurts so bad, and then in my case, and in her case, and in some of your cases, it won’t have an effect, because the only thing they can fight and defend and weaken us is to keep the evil in us called self.

For over twenty years, with great intensity in the beginning and in ministering toward the end, I dealt with death to self.  That’s why I tried last week to do something wonderful and new and what a block I hit.  So many of you yet have ideas.  If you call me “Lord”, do you understand what that means?  It means I’m God. I know your heart and I designed for each of you what might get you into trouble with the other, just to see if you will be quiet.  Most of you forget who it is you are talking to when self is irritated.  You have an enemy, that’s not your brother, that’s not your sister, that’s an enemy that is trying to hurt you instead of having a different attitude.  This is my brother and sister.  What is so important for me to be protecting the self in me of an idea, or anything and I hurt my brother and sister. If you study how God works with all of us you will find out, God’s methods have always been unquestionable. Emanating from my humanity, as it always has been, is power and virtue.  There isn’t a moment, there isn’t a person I can go to and touch, and what for that moment and for the rest of their lives, they will be changed. (The Lord moves away from the microphone and cannot be heard clearly).

How many of you remember brother and sister Zaciatis?  I told them in the early days, when they come back there are certain things I wanted.  They were so overjoyed, but they never allowed the truth to keep affecting them and they became like they were when they left for many years.  So I had to tell them you are not allowed to come back to find fault with people and to demand things of people.  I said, God brought you back that you may reconsider the weaknesses  in your life that you have never dealt with.  And I said, stay away for at least three months.  That’s why they didn’t come and they both took that to mean obedience.  They obeyed.  The three months were up and they gave me a call.  They said, can we come back?  I said, no, not yet, not for the present time.  So in human understanding I thought they would know that they are not ready for this people the way we now are.  And they were nice.  They left.  I personally never told some of our people to leave, but they did.  Well, over this week, when I went away with Brother Mathais to be quiet and pray and rest, it was my birthday week, and lo and behold in a distant state, at five o’clock in the evening, we had planned at six to go to supper, but God works things out for His good.  We walk into a restaurant hundreds of miles from here and Brother Mathais says, Lord, Look who’s here.  And I said, brother Joe and sister Pauline!  And I thought it was just an accidental meeting and I said, would you like to talk after supper and they said, yes.  I said, fine.  So we finished our supper and they came over and we talked till midnight.  And we found out they planned to find me on my birthday, that wherever I was, they were going to come down and it was literal, they led me to find them.  We were thrilled.  And we brought out one truth.  Brother Mathais was very good in presenting it.  What good does it do to be with this man if you don’t know him as the Lord.  And that’s the message to which you were called and that’s the message that deals with all the self life.  All of your self life can be stopped and dealt with forever if you really believe we are the Lord.  You can be healed and blessed and encouraged.  Get rid of your ideas of who these two human beings are because other wise your time is wasted.  They were very nice but they are not ready to come back yet.  They love us and they are still waiting for us to make God’s will known.

Now look at many of you.  I’ve allowed many of you to have things happen to you to be an example to people in the future who need your kind of experiences.  You do not like how God has been leading you and guiding you and you are fighting the will of God for your life.  What I want you all to do from today on and to the end of your life is, and you better write it down. 

What did God call me for?  What did God call me for?  You have to find the answer to that for yourself.  Then you will understand everything that has been happening.  This is not an ordinary human work.  Every one involved in this ministry has a special call upon their life.  To know God first.  To know what His plans are for this generation.  What his purpose is to use the two witnesses.  What His purpose is to use you with the two witnesses.  Then you will have a meaning to your life.  I’ve allowed things to happen to this people that every one of us would be stoned and killed for by those who think they love God.  Your very life is a witness how God is going and wants to use you. Some of you will not be able to be used by God until your heart is crushed so much so that everything you love and call your life is taken from you, because you have designed it that way.  Others of you do not know what the word and quality patience is and means.  Most of the things happening to you is to teach you patience, because the Lord and I and this people who love us and know us, are headed for the most intense suffering that cannot let any human feelings out that takes away from our message.  The words are going to be so anointed, they will hurt.  And those people who are hurting are going to do everything they can to destroy first the self life and they will always accuse you and you must not defend you.  Leave it alone.  Your words are getting through because they are going to try to retaliate. 

You are going to learn, I have a divine lesson to teach you everything about the resurrection.  I’ve got to lead you up into a fulfillment of this.  I’ve got to finish this before I bring you into the heartache of the situation.  Do you know how wonderful it is to be honest?  Do you know how few of you are honest?  You don’t tell people really how you feel.  You lie to each other.  You don’t know the blessedness and the power behind being real and simple.  You would have so much power in your forcefield.  Your truth may always hurt, but if you do it in love that hurt will save them.  Some where in their life they will be saved by that hurt.  You may not have a friend for a long time, but deep in their heart they will know that was God.  You had better get the Bible, my Bible, deep within you so that you can bring out the truth from it.  For your personal life and for all that come into your life.  You do not have to have the answer for any and every human being on earth who comes to you, you only have your answer and what it has done for you.  Never tell another person how to live.  Suggest, recommend what it has done for you.  Leave it up to them to make the decision.  Well if it works for them, why can’t it work for me. 

My life as Jesus was only to be an example.  Not for anybody to be identical.  You are all different.  God who is God can be the leader in your life in any and every situation.  You don’t know how to trust the Spirit of God within you leading you and guiding you, because it’s covered up with a lot of self.  If you ask another person who loves God for an answer to your problem, then why do you fight with them when they give you the answer you asked for.  That’s stupidity. When you learn to be led where you don’t want to go because God is leading you, then you will have reached the maturity to where you can become known of God.  Imagine what Paul said, I have learned that in whatsoever state I am in therewith to be content.  I, too, have learned that lesson.  In my personal life, the greatest prize has been patience.  For me to be patient for what God’s will is has been a great trial, because I came from a lifestyle of continuous activity.  To me movement, doing, going, coming was my life.  How to be quiet was never my life.  And all my life, God has been using every situation to get me to quiet down for one wonderful week, so he could tell me how much he loves me.  Think of it.  Your heartaches are to quiet me down.  Those times when you think you are lonely, and you are, are designed to quiet you down.  So many of you are letting Satan build up situations when you are active, active, active.   You’ve got to learn to thank God for persons, places and things that are forcing you to quiet yourself down.  You can hear God louder when you are quiet.  You can feel God stronger when you are less active.  That’s why Jesus of Nazareth is the Prince of Peace in your life.  If you want peace that passes all human understanding, Be still and know that I am God. 

 Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, August 20, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

It’s good to be real.  Don’t you feel good when you come in among God’s people?  At the present time we are just small numbers, but I’ve never been a very great person in this world of ours.  My greatness is dependent on the simplicity of your reality.  How do you feel when you don’t see one another for a little while, doesn’t that bother you?  We are living in such momentous times, yet it’s like a bright light in a very dark world.  Surrounding me are angels who love us and they marvel how I can be here like this, at this time, and I’ve brought my Spirit with me to talk to you about truth that one day you will be living messengers of light.  To walk by faith is a very wonderful privilege when you are led by God.  I know how I feel.  I just love God and I love every influence I can feel of God from anyone.  And when you come together as my people, I don’t feel any evil from my people.  I feel a concentrated goodness, a desire to want to know God’s will and to do it.  If you could know what that could mean, in time you will. 

No one ever could believe that preaching or teaching truth can be by unspoken gestures.  If I just stood here and cried, my heart would be read.  It would be your attitude toward God because I am the reflection, with my quiet spirit, of your attitude toward God.  Without your awareness this is her, talking, because she’s on that side.  That’s why I’m speaking because this is the spirit of God talking to you.  If she were on this side, it would be me talking to you, love would be speaking to you. Right now you are hearing love but in a more principle tone. Just those three letter words, G.O.D.  Say it in your heart quietly, God.  What it could mean to the human soul.  I have no human language to describe to you what a lifetime here on earth, and the struggling with unreality, by trying to create in some human spirit and heart the truth that God exists.  And the closer we get to the very end of this world’s evolution into what should have been man’s greatest awareness of God, which will be the smallest awareness of God, you are going to see the Lord’s words coming to pass, greater than you have ever known. 

I can hear stories about the Bible, and I am enraptured with attention, but I hear about a man called Jesus, and His life eclipses every story, and pulls all the Bible stories into His one life.  I’ve taught you this book, and the truth of this book, as you have been able to understand it, but without belittling your intelligence, I know that you know this entire Bible is but a small writing, a condensed writing, of such a great, unwritten truth.  There were many people in New Testament times who wrote about the Lord Jesus, some bad, some good, as they did about the Prophets of old, some bad, some good.  There are scriptures written by false Moses’.  They are written, they are out in the world.  False Isaiahs’, false Jeremiahs’ and there are truths.  The Bible was put together very uniquely but it’s a condensation.  Our Bible is a condensation of a great, infinite God.  Ideas, to get across to you, something you can start with, and from the truths of this condensed book, God, who is total reality, can begin to work on it and open it up more and more.  I tried to teach you, this book is put together by the Holy Spirit through many different lives.  Don’t be deceived by people who use scientific terminology to impress you with their abilities of knowing things. They are trying to tell you things about this book that are not reliable, or that it was written, not by the Holy Spirit, or there are things about this book that you are not supposed to believe in, and the whole intent is to rob your confidence in an infinite God, who without this book, could reveal anything and everything for you if it was necessary.

This book was put together by over forty different people who never knew each other, in many cases over thousands of years, and the Holy Spirit of God took abridgments of truth to give you, as human beings, the first necessary steps of an entrance into a gigantic reality, if you were able to understand it.  And you can, because God relates, and proved it by becoming a man.  That is the most astounding truth of all the ages of creation, is that our God willed to be born a human being, so that a story could be told to many who would be worthwhile, giving up things in this life.  To hold on to that one, wonderful truth, God became a man so that man might know forever, he is a child of the living God.  It should make a difference in your life to know God is both your father and your mother.  And it is your home, this world, it is a schoolroom of living, it’s become a very, very bad school for most people.  That’s a part of the wisdom, to maintain in our part, the truth.

Ask yourself this question, my people.  Is it worth believing in God no matter what hurt it costs you, no matter what pain or experience you go through?  Will you love God for yourself, if the very one you have ever loved, turns against you, turns away from you.  Do you know what it means to love God alone, and your heart is breaking? (Lord is crying).  But people are very unreal.  Is God your only love?  Can you hear God talking in everybody and in everything?  Don’t restrict my Spirit for taking any portion of my abbreviated words of life and expanding them better than you have ever understood it.  Don’t ever limit the word of God in your heart that was planted there by the Spirit of God.  I am going to teach you things today about the Spirit of God, in these times, so that you will be better prepared for what is about to come.  There are only three things necessary in your walk in life. 

1.     Always know God is your father and your mother.  God is your true parents.

2.     You are really, absolutely the child of God, no matter what anybody ever teaches you or tells you, you came from God.

3.     You are in the lowest school of living.  You are learning.  There is one great lesson you have to learn in this school of life.  Can God be taken from you?  Will you allow anything, anyone to take God out of your heart? 

If the answer to the first one is you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is your father and your mother, one third of your whole life is settled.  You will be guided, you will be protected.  No matter what it looks like it will only work for your good.  Second, if you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are a child of God, then there is always a purpose to your life.  Everything that will ever happen to you is going to add to that purpose, to get you out of this life.  You will always have angels from heaven sending you, leading and guiding you.   And thirdly, if you take everything in this life as coming from God, the evil, the bad, the good and the just, and work it in your life as a blessing to take out of your heart every human being who has been used to hurt you.  Every human being who has been used to hurt you is your brother and your sister, whether they mean it or not, you must allow life, not to leave in your heart any grudge of any kind.  All those heartaches were necessary.  Everything that has ever happened to you is necessary to reveal to you, your attitude.  The greatest joy, my people, you will ever have, is that you can look every human being in the eye and know that there isn’t one that you hate, there isn’t one you have any grudges against, because God designed them, for you, to make you the person you are suppose to be.

Do you know how difficult it is to give up the pleasure of hating?  That is the most difficult thing in human existence.  To give up the pleasure of holding a grudge and blaming the rest of your life on some body being led to reveal you to yourself.  I thank God, I have learned so much more this time, with my Spirit, and I want you to know the same thing.  We are not always going to be here on earth.  If I could have been taught, even by my parents, or by someone who loved me, when I was a child, it would add to all the years that I have today. And tomorrow, at one minute after noon, I will have attended my seventy first earth birthday.  I can hardly believe that still within my mind there are places I can still see, way back to where I was nine years old, a little Jewish boy, still alive, and I was thinking, in the repository of this human being, is one complete whole lifetime.  I have the ability to look back and let God show me all the steps until today.  I don’t know how many more years I have left.  They don’t matter to me.  One thing matters.  I am a child of God.  You are my brothers and sisters.  I am here to do a very, very difficult work.  And in these years of very careful training, I have to destroy, in love, my very children.  My very human being brothers and sisters, and there mustn’t be a drop of hate in me or a drop of pleasure in seeing their destruction.  Do you have any idea of how difficult that is?  I have to allow people to accuse me of being evil, and I have to love them, and forgive them for doing it. And you have to do the same.  My life is in the hands of God, my Father.  I am in His perfect will.  I haven’t got any weapon to protect me but His love, and my faith in His existence.  And that’s all I have.  The belief that God is alive, and exists for me, and my faith in Him.  And you are my evidence.  God forbid, if every one of you were to leave, you would not change my love for God.  It would hurt, but I would love Him still.

There are truths that I allowed to be written that became the foundation of my conduct on earth.  Turn with me to Romans.

Look at chapter 8.  Begin at verse 33.  Who shall lay anything to the charge of God’s elect?  It is God that justifieth.

 Who is he that condemneth?  It is Christ that died, yea, rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us.

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?  Shall tribulation, shall distress, shall persecution, shall famine, shall nakedness, shall peril, shall sword?

As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long;

 That’s something most of us in this generation know nothing of.

We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.  Are we?

Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. 

There is a very important word here in verse 38.  It’s the word persuaded.

For I am persuaded that neither death, shall be able to separate me from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus.

Life won’t do it.  Angels won’t do it.  (Certain kinds of angels won’t do it.)   Principalities, powers, things of this present life will not do it.  Things of the future life will not do it.  There is nothing high or low that can ever separate me from the love of God.  Where is this love, my people?  In Christ Jesus, my Lord.  Imagine what your faith, and the love of Jesus Christ, can do for you.  Don’t ever think that I, or the Lord Joanne are offended if  you love Jesus even better than you love us.  That’s the reason we came.  If you love Jesus and you know us, you are very blessed.

We are coming to the close of certain things in our lives and you are going to have to know for yourself.  It is a life.  I would not say ask my brother and sister if I love God or not.  That’s not my testimony. My testimony is, I love God with all my heart.  You can ask me anything you like about my love for God, and I do not care whether you believe me or not.  Because God knows whether I tell the truth or not.  If your understanding of my love for God will help you to love God better, that was your doing.  My part would be to not take away from that love, as much as possible, so that you can be helped.  Because we are a very, very unique people.  You must not hate or feel bad at any human being that doesn’t know, and has not been called to such a work like you have.  Always thank God for everybody who loves God in any degree, even if their love for God is designed to kill you.  Who killed Jesus?  It was not people who hated God.  It was people who loved him and loved him with a love that very few people ever have.  They are the ones that killed him.  And what was His statement?  “Father, forgive them.  They don’t know what they are doing.”  How do you know, but what your attitude would change that heart.  Look what it did for Paul.  There was a man who loved God with all his heart, and that love made him kill people who were given a greater light; only God saw his heart.

The way Stephen died affected him so much. It was Stephen’s love for God, “Lord, Don’t lay this sin to their charge.” Stephen called Paul’s love for God for killing him, a sin.  Stephen was killed by Paul because Paul’s love for God thought that what Stephen was doing was a sin.  Many of God’s children throughout the earth today, are hurting the rest of God’s children, who don’t hear, or see, or live, or do, the way they are living.  And those who are in a greater light, are known by the abuse that they take, not by the retaliation they hear. I want to teach you, like I did as Jesus, that there is no power greater than love.

I have lived to be seventy-one in this world.  Don’t think that I am not willing to learn the truth that I learned as a young man, you can teach an old dog new tricks.  No matter how old I get, everyone can teach me.  I’ve never had a father’s love.  I never had a mother’s love.  I didn’t even have brother’s love.  I never knew what sister’s love is.  I was a simple Jewish lad growing up, making my way in the world, without God.  Without any  idea what love is and how to understand it.  And there is I was, me, writing poems about death and life, not knowing where these ideas were coming from.  And one lady, from the world’s viewpoint, a very sterile woman, very unladylike to the world.  But my English teacher saw possibilities in me and understood where I came from, and without offending me, what she saw was God, and I didn’t even know God existed.  She took me under her wing and began to teach me certain ideas of life.  She liked my poems of life and death, and tried to help me to see they come from sources called inspirations inside of me.  She was gentle.  Trying to help me to learn of God.  I didn’t know she was a Christian lady.  She influenced me.  Every good influence in my life has made me the man I am today.

But God my Father, who has a love beyond all wisdom, never spoke one word to save me.  God waited eighteen years in silence. Do you have that kind of love?  To be quiet, knowing you must not interfere.  And when the time was right in my life, and in your life, God saw to it that I had enough understanding and education, then he started to give me feelings that made me think, How does one talk to God?  And then He made the first contact when He came upon me when I was on that ship. And I thought that this came from my heart, How does one talk to God?  Would God understand this kid from Brooklyn?  And the first words that ever came into my heart were the most beautiful words, I know I never said them.  “My son, I am the author of all languages.  Speak whatever you know, I understand.”  I said, “Who are you talking to?  That’s hi faluton language.”  And again the voice said, “I am the author of all languages, just speak what’s in your heart”.  And the only language I knew was pool room language.  And my heart said, “God, I’d like to know you, and I want to be a nice person, would you please help me.”  That’s  what my heart said.   But my mouth said, “Hey you up there, get a load of this kid from Delaware.  I’m a square.  I’m behind the eight-ball.  Somebody gave me the wrong pool stick, I don’t even have the right que tip. Do me a favor, God. Give the right pool stick, give me the right que tip, I’ll shoot a good game of pool with you, but don’t put me behind the eight ball.” Instantly, God took all of those meaningless words and retranslated them into the most beautiful words.  “Lord, I’m a sinner.  I don’t know how to love you.  I don’t even know if you exist, but touch my heart and change me and let me know you and live a good life that has meaning.”

Water came down over my head and went all through me and whet all the way down and around and over me.  I had forgotten the ship was docked.  I thought we were moving.  I was at the bow. I thought it was splashing on me until I started to feel, and there was no water, and I didn’t understand.  All I felt was love.  I had no words for this kind of love.  (Lord is crying)  No one had ever loved me.  I didn’t know what love was. I thought love was sexual intercourse with any woman.  I thought love was eating the potatoes that I stole and it felt good.  This was a Love that asked for nothing and gave all.  And ever since that day, That God has been with me, encouraging me.  Your Father, and your God, and my Father and my God.  And I want to encourage you, my people, don’t let any one or anything turn you away from God.  Every thing in this life is designed to turn you away from God.  That’s the marvel.  Hear the truth.  Know it.  And know you have a reason for why things are happening. Your heartaches are good.

There are some of you who haven’t held the hand of a masculine male man any where from two to eighteen years.  You don’t know what it is to have the pleasure of a kiss or a hug, but you’re here.  Some of you have longed to be loved and you can’t find a love as part of that life’s plan.  How do I know?  I’ve been through it.  Very few of you will ever want my lifestyle this time.  It’s the most intense lifestyle ever required of a human being.  I’ve been trained by God to be in love with goodness and righteousness.  I have to portray evils and while I’m doing it, I must maintain my integrity and teach those who I am training to maintain their integrity, and to stand for what’s right and being misunderstood and not hate my brother and sister who love God that misunderstand them.  Very difficult.  And to have a clear conscience before God while they accuse me correctly and I don’t hold it against them.  Because that’s the plan God has.  The most difficult of all is to be quiet and to live as if God has not spoken again.  But I know why.  The less God speaks to me, the less evil there is in me.  God doesn’t talk to me as often as He used to in days gone by.  When I didn’t realize how much evil there was and the voice of God within me guiding me always to be better, until I came to the place where I recognized there was no more evil within me.  And I wondered why is God’s voice so quiet.  Why don’t I hear God anymore.  I’ve arrived.  God is living my life.  I have learned what it is to live the life of God in flesh.

Your life is not in vain.  Your work is not in vain.  Some of you are unkind.  You love God.  You are His children, but you sit in judgment on your brothers and sisters because they are further along in God than you are, and you are jealous.  Some of you look down upon your brothers and sisters because you don’t know why they are so stupid that they can’t see what you see.  Oh, my people.  If you knew what it takes to just get one lesson, you would never judge anyone again.  Sometimes it takes years, and many, many lessons, to learn one lesson.  If we were a people that would take each other at face value for who, and what, they are, and leave them alone, and love them because they love God, and help them when they need our help, and have no grudges against anybody, you could have the Spirit of God come in, in such miraculous ways, and many of you would feel an inward joy you have never known.  You will know God better than you have ever known Him.  Some of you are candidates for never dying in this world, in these bodies.  I would to God that many of you were like that.  And when the time is right, you will be divinely siezed by God and removed from this world, for those who have died throughout the ages and those who yet have to die.  Your belief in us is not in vain.  Don’t stigmatize or relegate or confine us to your understanding, even of the things we taught you. Allow us to be ourselves and to be led, as we allow you.

To confirm this, please stand up, our dear brother and sister from New Jersey, two words.  We know your hearts.  We know what it means for you to have your word.  The Holy Spirit and I got together and we have these two words.  One is Fulfillment and that is for our dear sister, Eileen.  We have called you,  Fulfill it.  And to Brother Jack, we give the word Interpretation.  There’s a new interpretation coming into this people.  From this time on you are Brother Interpretation and Sister Fulfillment.  Allow me to be inspired by my Spirit to bring out of your hearts today, a group need and fulfillment as I begin to finish many of these things.  I won’t be forever on this subject of death and life. 

Please give what you can. Will the brothers please take up the offering. 

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday August 6, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

My love and peace be with you all.  I want you all to relax.  I’m going to read you a certain portion of scripture for divine reasons that it will accomplish what I want it to say. 

And, behold, two of them went that same day to a village called Emmaus, which was from Jerusalem about threescore furlongs.  And they talked together of all these things which had happened.  And it came to pass, that while they communed together and reasoned, Jesus himself drew near, and went with them.  But their eyes were holden that they should not know him.  And he said to them, What manner of communications are these that ye have one to another, as ye walk, and are sad?  And one of them whose name was Cleopas, answering said unto him, Art thou only a stranger in Jerusalem, and has not known the things which are come to pass there in these days? 

And he said unto them, What things?  And they said unto him, Concerning Jesus of Nazareth, which was a prophet mighty in deed and word before God and all the people.  And how the chief priests and our rulers delivered him to be condemned to death, and have crucified him. But we trusted that it had been he which should have redeemed Israel:  and beside all this, today is the third day since these things were done. 

Yea, and certain women also of our company made us astonished, which were early at the sepulcher; And when they found not his body, they came, saying, that they had also seen a vision of angels which said that he was alive.  And certain of them which were with us went to the sepulchre, and found it even so as the women had said:  but him they saw not. 

Then he said onto them, O fools, and slow of heart to believe all that the prophets have spoken:  Ought not Christ to have suffered these things, and to enter into his glory?

 And beginning at Moses and all the prophets, he expounded unto them in all the scriptures the things concerning himself.

And they drew nigh unto the village, whither they went: and he made as though he would have gone further.  But they constrained him, saying, Abide with us: for it is toward evening, and the day is far spent.  And he went in to tarry with them.  And it came to pass, as he sat at meat with them, he took bread, and blessed it, and brake, and gave to them.  And their eyes were opened, and they knew him; and he vanished out of their sight. And they said one to another, Did not our heart burn within us, while he talked with us by the way, and while he opened to us the scriptures?

And they rose up the same hour and returned to Jerusalem, and found the eleven gathered together and them that we were with them, Saying, the Lord is risen indeed, and hath appeared to Simon.  And they told what things were done in the way, and how he was known of them in breaking of bread.  And as they thus spoke, Jesus himself stood in the midst of them, and said to them, Peace be unto you. 

Sit back, relax, and close your eyes, and picture that scene.  There has never been a moment in your life that you have ever been alone, and God who loves you, as the man and Jesus, has not walked with you, and though he may pretend He doesn’t know you, and He doesn’t  allow you to be unveiled to know him, you can know him by a familiar question.  What things?  What things make you sad?  While you think you have lost hope.  What things make you sad?  While you thought the Lord was one you really believed in and has not fulfilled your so called expectations.  What things make you sad?   And what voice makes you talk about the things that make you sad, so that you can have an inward joy speaking of the things that made you sad, when it turns out that the things that made you sad, is what causes your heart to burn with joy.  In retelling the story that God became a man to love and save you.  and the Lord, he began at Moses and in all the prophets, He showed them every scripture that pertained to him at that time. As a stranger, do you know the voice of the divine stranger that speaks to your heart every day of your life?  I want you to think seriously how wonderful it is to be tender hearted to the love of God.

There are stories yet, that have never been opened.  The time isn’t right.  When the time is right like a gigantic time clock, all the combinations are loosened and all the secrets are made available.  There is something wonderful about knowing the Lord.  I want you to listen to a tape message for a few moments with an open heart and an open mind.  Please begin. 

There is a secret of receiving heaven’s best in the scripture.  A mighty man of wealth who owned houses and lands, and stocks and bonds, and hotels and airlines, and gold mines worth millions of dollars, died.  He has one invalid son, that was his only living relative that he had of his original family.  His wife passed away.  He loved that son as the apple of his eye.  The outside world didn’t give much for that son, but the maid loved that boy very much.  She cared for him day and night. When he died the relatives began to search for the will, and they could not find it.  So under the appointment of the court they went to the mansion and began to give various artifacts and furniture away. The court appointed officer looked at the maid and said, What would you like to have in this vast mansion.  And she looked to the picture of the invalid boy on the wall in his wheelchair and she said with tears in her eyes, “I’d like to have that picture, that’s all”.  The officer of the court took the picture down and handed it to the maid.  When she took it in her hands she felt a lump in the back and turned it over, opened it, and it was the will.  The will had one line written and then the signature.  The will said, Whoever loves my son is heir to all I own.  The officer of the court said, “It belongs to you, all his wealth belongs to you.”

There is a Father who sits on His highest throne who has a Son that He loves above all else and He said if you will love my Son at the cross, I will give you this earth and heaven too and the many years of eternal life.  And if that were the only message of the gospel, it would be the greatest message in print.  God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that you, and you, and you, and me, and thousands can be saved by His sovereign grace at the cross.

Turn it off.  Now think about that.  God has designed a time for us of quietness that  has the greatest heaven in it.  What made those two on the road to Emmaus sad?  Listen to these words. 

“What manner of communication are these that ye have one to another as ye walk and are sad?  And one of them whose name was Cleopas,  answering said unto him, Art thou only a stranger in Jerusalem, and has not known the things which ware come to pass there in these days?”  And Jesus asked them only two words, one question.  What things?

What things make you sad or glad as you walk with God along life’s highway wondering if your understanding which is making you sad, concerning God, and the things that he has revealed to you, are the way they are suppose to be.  And listen to what they said. 

“Concerning Jesus of Nazareth, which was a prophet, mighty in deed and word before God and all the people, and how the chief priests and our rulers delivered him to be condemned to death, and have crucified him.  But we trusted - listen to these words - that it had been he which should have redeemed Israel, and beside all this, today is the third day since these things were done.” 

You are coming into a time of both individual and collective faith tests.  What you believe about God and the Lord Jesus and the Two Witnesses and yourself is getting ready to be tried.  There is so little faith left on earth, and that is the design, when the son of man cometh, shall he find faith on the earth?  The Lord has the right to test everyone of us by whatever means and method he knows are the very means and methods to reveal our weaknesses, or discouragement, and the sadness left in us, because we had hoped it should have been the way we think it should turn out.  It will never be that way.  Your faith alone in God, and in the truth of and about God, is what’s going to carry you through this last period of evolvement.  Things are not progressing.  Worse than that, there’s a retrogression going on.  Man has reach a point of evolvement turning into an animal.  He is an educated beast without God or His Spirit.  And that spirit is prevalent throughout the entire planet and there has been a design from hell to ruin the innocence of every human being on this planet.  Innocence is the only forcefield of love and power that can both surround a human being and ward off civilized people. It’s your love and the tenderness of your love that sets up a forcefield of such omnipotence, that if that were interfered with, damage would occur.  I do not want you, as my people, my sheep, to lose your innocence.  You may educate it, but don’t lose your innocence.  Educated innocence develops into divine childlikeness.  You can be a divine child no matter how old you get.  The world has enough hatred and suspicions of evil, you don’t need to take them on.

I gave you a few years, perhaps four to seven, without correspondential power to let you come into the awareness by example. But what many people for the next sixty nine hundred years are going to enter into, God could withhold your eyes from knowing anything and everything, He can change your spirit from feeling what you need to feel.  I don’t want you to lose your childlike innocence.  You don’t have to conform to this world.  You don’t need this worlds stimulus in anything.  Learn to stand out and stand up from what is unreal.  And watch God’s spirit begin to honor an confirm the word of faith in your life. 

There’s going to be fearful sights from heaven and upon the earth.  Men’s hearts will fail for fear, for looking at those things that are coming upon the earth.  Your little human heart knows what it’s like to love and want to be loved and to share love and have that all  turn, and be accused of being evil.  All the truth in you changed willfully into evil, because evil has a standard, there is no God, and there is no devil, there is no heaven, there is no hell.  There is not what is right, and there is not what is wrong.  One of the most subtle secrets of Satan’s presence on earth is virtual reality.  Or what they call emotional reality without God.  And it’s getting worse and worse, because the more scientific inventions they find to augment and increase emotions without God, you will find three year old children killing without remorse.  And any child ten and down is the basic foundation of every future generation.  And when they are that evil, and the foundation are from ten down to three, your planet has lost the purpose of its continued existence.

Think of how that must touch God’s heart, who foreknew all that and prepared us, called and prepared a people, to withstand two or three of the greatest eternal shocks.  It was never given to Jesus to fulfill the scriptures that were meant for the Messiah concerning the day of vengeance of our God.  Jesus was aloof from that.  It was not given to him to know that.  It was given to us to know seven different phases of Messiah.  All the Jewish people could never unify the seven different characteristic of Messiah as one person.  That’s why they always looked for different people because Messiah to them was anointed.  That’s why they asked John the Baptist, Are you that prophet?  They thought the prophet Moses spoke about would be Messiah.  He said, No.  They said, Are you Elijah?  They foresaw that Messiah would have Elijah’s spirit and do great miracles.  He said, No.  They said, Who are you, give an account of yourself.  And he chose a scripture that, even that, belonged to Messiah.  I am the voice of one crying in the wilderness.  Prepare ye the way of the Lord.  They never knew the Lord himself would be Messiah.  That never occurred to any Jewish mind, ever.  They were just looking for a super human being, as a human. And the Lord never fulfilled their Jewish Messianic expectation and this always troubled His disciples. All the disciples looked for a Jewish Messiah who would do what the Jewish rabbi’s taught.  Destroy the Gentile governments, exalt proud arrogant Israel,  world dominance, supremacy, but no change of heart.  My kingdom was a kingdom not of this world.  But it’s so unbelievable that I am the same person.  I did  restore. It is I myself.  I now know the other part of my plan.  That’s why it’s easy for me to leave the book open and not close it.  And to declare the day of vengeance of our God, which was very repulsive to Jesus. It’s not repulsive to me.  It isn’t repulsive to you, because you’ve been trained for a generation of incorrigible violence.  And the violence that surrounds us has become the normal way of living.  Another generation could not take this generation.  Each person is prepared for his generation. In the last third of this half of a century has all the evil, of all the ages, been concentrated, accumulated and brought to pass.  Satan has unleashed everything in his kingdom to veil everybody to reality. 

People’s understanding of reality today is what the scriptures said in the Book of Judges.  Because there was no standard, no God, no king in Israel, among God’s people in the world, every man did that which his feeling, his emotions told him was pleasurable and right.  And Satan is bringing into the world through twentieth century inventions, now, what is getting ready to destroy all people on this earth from what is real and true.  Now the scripture in Luke 18, that never had meaning, will now have meaning.  When the son of man cometh to the earth, will he find faith?  Did you know everything is designed to rob you of faith.  Faith is devoid of human emotionalism.  It is based on divine principle which can never be proved to the satisfaction of a carnal, natural mind, that it is true.  You’ve got to go, not by how you feel, but by what is truth.  And that will usually hurt your emotions because your emotions are the gate to everything from hell in this generation.  That’s why you were taught for many, many years continuously foreknowing the end times is going to be totally devoted to destroying everything in you called principle, by emotion.  Because if it feels good, you are deceived into believing it is true and real, and that is a lie.  That is absolutely a lie. 

You are the only people who are going to be able to love and know each other and understand each other.  Some of you, because of your own discouragements and your own lack of faith and spirituality, have ignorantly and unintentionally formed your own little friendship clicks, and in your unwisdom, you are building yourselves up against others in this work and speaking evil one of another.  You are looking down your religious noses as it were.  You don’t have the proper love you were taught.  Everyone called to this ministry has a training time, a learning time, a testing time, a witnessing time and dying time.  You choose your friends by how you feel.  You don’t choose the God friend who reveals the evil in you, without retaliation.  There’s a fault among my people.  You are losing your faith, the things you were taught, correspondence, you don’t wrestle against flesh and blood and the Lord has been withholden from your eyes because of the attitude you have.  You’ve got to be a unified people, who accept each other as you are.  Learn to help one another without hating and protecting self.  You are going to find out what kind of days we are getting ready to enter into.

 I’ve told you for a number of years there’s going to be fearful sights on earth, in the heaven.  It’s slowly coming to pass. I told you years ago when innocence is destroyed and nearly destroyed, so much of hell is going to be opened.  Innocence was a forcefield of protection, hell cannot penetrate genuine innocence.  It is a power unbelievable and when that innocence is trained and educated to maturity and maintains it’s childlikeness, it only accrues tremendous power for concentration, so that, if that was in danger or tried to be destroyed, it releases energy.  I haven’t mistaught you since the beginning that we don’t need a weapon.  We do not need weapons.  You yourself are a living weapon if you knew how not to let your faith diminish.  Don’t let the truth be robbed from your hearts.  And no matter how evil evil is, and God allows it to confront you, you should have the will to see, How strong am I in God?  Is this the time when God will, through me, release his power.  And then watch and see that happen.  But when the spirit of fear is associated with self protection, a gigantic padlock is put on your faith, no God.  You fear men, you don’t fear God.  You’ve got to learn to fear and respect and love God, and not fear men. And if God allows you to be brought into situations where you have to talk, be sure that your talk is devoid, empty of self protection, self life. You are witnesses, you are vessels fit for the power of God to go through and your enemy is not flesh and blood.

Don’t let anybody in this fellowship talk to you against anyone in this fellowship.  For whatever reason.  We’re few enough.  We don’t want to lose the little grapes we’ve got.  It depends on what your taste buds are like.  So remember, how strong is your faith these days? And ask yourself the question.  Am I ashamed of God?  Am I truly ashamed of being identified with God in any form?  Am I ashamed of knowing the Lords two witnesses?   Am I ashamed of my faith in God, whether it be by loved ones, friends, employers, employees, relatives, whoever.  Not every body is going to believe.  You already know that.  God allows trials and tests to strengthen us in what we believe concerning God, if we’re not discouraged walking by life’s ways, while we’re waiting to hear the report, He lives.  He lives.  There are too many evidences and witnesses concerning His being alive.  Look at the change in your lives.  Are you going to throw that overboard because the emotions are being accentuated towards this world? 

I’ve been meditating.  By what power have I been prevented from smoking cigarettes for over fifty some-odd years?  By what power have I been prevented from masturbation for so many, many years?  By what power am I kept to have self control in many areas of my life, not given to human beings?  Do you know how tender I am?  I grew up at a time when movies just came into existence and certain human beings were starred, and I’ve lived to see many of them die, pass off the scene, because they shortened their life through all kinds of things.  There are others to take their place, but they can never fulfill those original prophets and prophetesses that were trained for Hollywood, and lost their call.  You cannot be an actor or an actress any where for any reason unless you came to the call to be a demonstrating prophet or prophetess.  Think of it.  And here I’ve been trying to get an unpublicized group of actors and actresses and the difficulty I have found and encountered, because people are very, very fearful of playing a divine part.  You will never do anything for God, my people, that will bring about martyrdom and the total death to self in your life, unless you get a good taste of who God is.  And you never let that leave you.  You alone have had the experience that nobody else can have.  You think there is anybody that can ever rob from my personal experience with God?  That’s impossible.  It’s been tested.  It’s been tried.  All the years of my life since I found Him.  God in His all loving, quiet, unattractive way confirms it, both within and without, and strengthens me. 

It’s always love.  I know that we are coming to the close of our life in a few years, and many of you will too.  I want your report and her report to be, I’ve never been ashamed of God.  Are you ashamed of God?  Are you embarrassed that you have to talk of and about God?  Has Satan put such a poison upon you that you have been inoculated with embarrassment?  Many opportunities are given us.  One day, within some of you, will surprise and delight you as your faith turns into the release of powerful magnets, both to heal and to deform.  This world is never going to change towards goodness at the rate it’s going.  And talking about being saved is practically void of power in this generation. 

There are only three things this generation will ever understand.  Jesus said, a sinful and adulterous generation seeks after a sign.  No sign will be given to it, meaning, that they want, and can understand, and accept, and change, but an adulterous and sinful generation will be given many signs of God’s existence and the value of truth, and meaningfulness, and values.  Don’t ever forget these three things:  purpose, value and meaning.  Life is meaning.  Life is valuable and there’s a purpose to your being alive.  Make it count.  Always make it count.  My words to some of you may sound like a pep talk, but I am God Himself, and for God to speak to any person or audience is instant forgiveness and healing and blessing and encouragement.  Whatever you did this week, just to be in our presence, and hear us, is the forgiveness of your sins.  It’s not meaningless.  And these words are eternal.  They will stay in your heart and when the time comes and  you need them, they will come out of you, from your experience, in ways you don’t expect.

I told you in the past often, do something to exercise whatever faith is in you.  See how strong you are.  Don’t answer the Lord when he asks the question, show me your faith, and you say, I have none Lord, sorry.  When the son of man cometh will he find faith on the earth?  What has happened to your faith, my people?  Don’t be ashamed of God, don’t be ashamed of what you believe about God, and try to stop each other and help one another from running each other down.  We all have weaknesses. It doesn’t make you stronger to magnify my weaknesses.  That’s the work of evil, to belittle, that you might be made strong.  When you don’t like to be in the presence of people, you better find out what’s in you that hates to be revealed.  Learn to take everything as coming from God.  If it’s your time to be embarrassed, find out what in you is still left that is embarrassing. 

Innocence doesn’t know how to be embarrassed.  What is embarrassment to the innocent?  That’s what you as parents with your little children need relief of nature.  You find no embarrassment for the child, to allow the child to release it’s nature.  You may be embarrassed at the place and the time that you have to do it, and people are looking around.  You are embarrassed, but the child isn’t.  If the child’s got to go, he’s got to go.  You know when you’ve got to go, you’ve got to go, but you look for convenient places of unembarrassment to go.  One day God is going to take that away from you and see if you still have the blushing conscience or not.

You’ve got to learn if you listen to someone talk, three things are involved.  They have a motive, but what is the nature of the subject?  What do they want to accomplish?  How is this going to affect me when I hear it?  You had better learn to discern.  I’m bringing you into a lesson, and a time, that is relatable, to free you this time.  And watch out for things that heighten and intensify your emotions, and they are evil. Unless God has trained you to learn, how to learn to be unembarrassed, and speak out for God’s sake,  don’t be afraid.  There is no meeting here next Sunday, August 13.  There will be a meeting on August 20.  I also have a book to give out, Walk with Jesus, one to a family, volume 5B, appendix 7.  You are going to love it if you look at it and read it.  Everything to do with the Herods of the New Testament.  You would never believe there’s that much in there, and you will learn so many lessons as to how be aware of subtle evil powers in the name of religion.

Everybody is being sucked in at this time to what they think is a better America.  It’s getting worse and worse.  You are going to be shocked at what is going to happen up till and before 1997, the fall.  There is going to be fearful sights.  The weather is going to be so concentrated for destruction.  A lot of you have never understood the revelatory words of Jesus in Matthew 24, Mark 13 and Luke 21.  There is a generation who every week, and every day of that week, will see an increase in diseases, famine, upheavals of nature, in weather, in earth dislodgment’s.  We have never known an earthquake twice a day, every day of the week.  You’re not listening, you don’t hear, you don’t study, you don’t know where to look for, you’d be shocked if you knew how many earthquakes a day are recorded all over the planet.  How many wars are going on at the same time, every day.  Diseases without let up, every day, thousands of diseases a day, starvation over two thirds of the world.  There are so many people starving in America, you’d never believe.  Children, a massive design of taking children out of the world by corruption, by vice, by diseases, by starvation, by death and by murder.  If people don’t believe in God and His existence, where’s the design of all this evil and what it’s for?  You cannot believe in God without the other.  Satan exists.  Remember that.  You are going to be taught more of Satan, and how to be freed from the wiles of Satan.  Many of you are addicted to Satan’s wiles without being aware.  I could name three of them to you right now that would shock you and embarrassment is one.  Many of you are embarrassed concerning your love for God, and your state in God.  The proof of it being, you have shame.  Shame attends embarrassment, and that means self protection.  And self protection means self is still alive.  Many of you are reluctant witnesses to the truth, and the opportunities presented to you which God opens for you to step in and take advantage of.  With embarrassment and shame you are reluctant to be a good and true witness.  And thirdly, you don’t have the vibratory joy and love of being saved from your sins.  You are afraid of being a good and a true witness of how God has done things for you without being hurt by whatever statements are said about you and your life.  Evil has a tremendous design that when evil recognizes truth by any vessel and is hurt, the first thing evil does is destroy your character.  The destruction of your character is proof positive you are getting through.  But instead of you taking it right, you are deceived and you begin to defend a reputation that you don’t need to defend.  Remember that. 

May we take up the offering. 

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, July 30, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

Put your feelers out.  It’s always good not to be told to worship God, but just do it yourself.  Give God your best and you love Him.  If you haven’t told God you love Him, tell Him now.  In the morning, O Lord, you will hear my voice.  In the morning, O Lord, I will lift up in praise.  I wish I could impart to you, my people, the love of a child who is very mature.  There is no way to describe God’s love for His people.  It is the most wonderful love.  It’s the love of homecoming.  In ancient times, homecoming had the greatest joy.  To meet loved ones who had been gone for a while, or relatives and friends you hadn’t seen for years.  Some of our young people must wonder when they go through certain cities and they see large houses and mansions and wonder, those are relics of a past age.  We are so used to becoming twentieth century cave dwellers, that we are content with holes in walls and we pay millions for them.  Condominiums are holes in walls.  We are so content with being boxed in and squeezed in, we don’t realize that the whole generation has been designed to take away from us the feeling of homecoming.  I always look forward to being with my people.  It’s like coming down, and sharing with you, and learning of your heartaches, and trying to help you, not forcing you, but listening with love. 

Out in the world you meet so many people who have never even had a trickle of the love of God.  And here, what a pleasure, what privilege.  Just coming to this place, knowing you are going to be here, God’s spirit begins to well me up.  As soon as I hit the parking lot and I see your cars and you, the love of God keeps going over, and cleanses you, and I’m reminded of contacts.  I was discussing with my spirit Joanne, a while ago, you would never be here this long, if we hadn’t agreed for a time to be as if we weren’t.  The sacrifice that you and I have made for the love of God.  And those of you who gave up so much to be with us, and to help us, because you are lovers of truth.  You are going to find out that God has never been the ogre or the hard man that most religionist have presented God as.  God isn’t the cut and dry destroyer that many of His unwise servants have presented Him.  He’s like the way Jesus presented Him, every evening, after supper He goes out on the hill, because He knows some day His son will come back.  And every day, for years that father went out on the top of the hill and looked.  That’s why the scripture presents it in the most normal manner.  And his father, seeing his son afar off, ran to meet him.  It’s a habit.  The father made it a habit.  His habit was his faith.  Your faith is revealed in your habits, your ways of life, which you make your life style, has your faith in it. 

I was listening to one of the Lord Joanne poetry tapes the other day, and one poem touched me. It’s called, Get a Transfer.

            If you are one the gloomy line, get a transfer.

            If you’re inclined to fret and pine, get a transfer.

            Get off the track of doubt and gloom,

            Get on the sunshine track, there’s room.  Get a transfer.

            If you’re on the worry train, get a transfer.

            You must not stay there and complain, get a transfer.

            The cheerful cars are passing through, and there’s lots of room for you,

            Get a transfer.

God makes my heart tender. (Lord is crying)

            If you’re on the grouchy track, get a transfer.

            Just take a “Happy Special” back, get a transfer.

            Jump on the train, and pull the rope that lands you at the station, Hope.

            Get a transfer.

That touched me.  It’s so easy to change from this attitude to that.  All you need to do is be free.  Freedom of heart and mind and spirit is true living.  I don’t know how many of  you have ever read in the back of a certain Bible, this has been in the back of my Bible all the time I’ve had this Bible, and I’ve never looked at it to read it.  It’s called the Bible Study Help.  And it’s in the World Bible Publishing?  Well, you look in the back.  You are in for a treat.  In the back of this Bible is a four year college course, pithy put into a few pages.  It’s all about the Bible, and how we got the Bible.  And in the most pithy  summary, every book of the Bible.  It also tells you all the moneys, the weights, the measures, the distances, and I’ve always been wondering, how much is a crooked?  What’s a Sabbath’s days journey.  And a hin, and have it all available, I knew them from other books, but here it’s all compiled under one study.  And then it’s got a harmony of all the gospels.  All the miracles that Jesus did, all the parables that He spoke in each of the Gospels differently.  Then a concordance.  But the reading of these studies by different educated men who love God.  It is different when you listen to different educated men who love God as opposed to different men who hate God.  Everyone educated who hates God tries to destroy the reality of God because they don’t want to believe that they have to give an account for their sins.  But those who love God, they go along with it, and they are real archeologists and scientists.  So every once in a while, look at your Bible Study Help, they help.  They are very good.

Does anybody wish to say something, maybe you want to share an experience before we go into our meeting.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, July 23, 1995

Plainville, CT

God’s peace be with all of you.  I thank God that I am alive to look upon your face.  What a wonderful feeling, and I mean an emotional feeling, I’ve been absent from you, and now to be with you again.  There is so much in life to lead us away from God, and from each other.  I’m so grateful for the foundation of goodness and love that was put in my heart by God.  My little heart loved God, and I hardly hear God any where I go, I don’t feel God any where I go, but I can come into this place on a Sunday and watch you come in, and those of you who are already here, and like Elizabeth knew John jumped for joy at Mary’s little Jesus, the God in me just wells up for joy and appreciation that I find people who love God, and want to know more of God.  It makes me feel very unworthy.  What a trust has been placed into my hands to guide these little sheep, from among the Gentiles and some little strays from Israel into a fold here among the Gentiles before God closes the world.

The things we hear and see every day of the week are so discouraging to take one away from God, but God in His love and mercy grants us oasis an from work, this is a wonderful wet place to come from a dry desert.  Put your feelers out my people, there are angels here.  There are good spirits here.  They are preparing the way for their creator who is here as a man and a women, sinners among sinners, little righteous people, stained with black spots, but God has a stain remover.  He’s going to remove it.  I long to go to God’s cleaning shop, that beautiful little tailor shop where He can press me out, and take all my spots away.  No human has yet been able to worship God, love God, or each other the way the heart wants to.  We men have never told those we love the true, deepest feelings and secrets of our heart, unless we learn how to do that without pride or embarrassment.  Think of what you husbands could do for your wives.  You sweethearts, if you would but consider, what if this love were removed from me.  Think of your loneliness and your heartache, think of all the misunderstanding that goes on in life, because of the unexpressed love emotions that cannot be let out.  Heaven is a beautiful place.  Nothing is hidden.  You can really be yourself.  That’s why, when you find something in this world that can let you just be as much of yourself as you can, you feel as though you came out of a dry desert, and you hit an oasis, and you just want to swim in that water.

I wish the world would know what the love of God is like, (Lord is crying) I can feel it.  That’s why I’m always tender.  Do you realize how difficult it would be for me to put my whole heart into taking a human life or to saying a bad word to hurt a human being, or to deliberately go out of my way to hurt someone and laugh to their calamities.  God made my heart tender and the older I get, the wiser I get.  My wisdom is based on the pure loving forgiveness of God.  There is so much hurt in this world, so many bad words are said that hurt people, because they have a reputation to go on to protect.  Examine your reputation.  See if it’s worth protecting, and if it isn’t, why don’t you give it up, and be free.  And when you meet one another, let it be like you died, and you haven’t seen each other for ages.  Everyone who hates me will get a joy when they see me, because there is nothing in my heart that harbors grudges, and when you don’t harbor a grudge, it’s erased from your memory.  But those who remember and hold grudges, have a screen of pride protecting them, and they’ll wonder, how come he is loving me, I hate him.  I don’t feel that, I just know God loves, and it’s an intelligent love.

We meet from time to time, more than just to hear truth.  We’ve got to feel God.  Oh, if you could put your feelers out, my people.  It’s so thick here with God.  Feel.  Did you ever think of how God must feel when He wanted to be with the love of His people?  Remember God has become a man and a woman.  This is something new for my Spirit.  She doesn’t know it but she never was in a full human form until this time.  There are so many secrets you do not know, my people.  And yet you are learning.  I’ve been here and I’ve been in a human form, since the beginning of eternity.  My spirit has been my cloak, my cape, my emanating power.  Think how difficult it must be for her to be, for the first time in a human form.  And I live within you.  Every good feeling you ever get can only come from God.  Every good thought comes from God.  Has God been on your mind since you woke up?  Has God been on your mind yesterday, the day before? Is God your life?  That’s why you are here.  You need an example.  A consistent example that never ever refuses to talk of and about God and to live for God in every situation.  You may not understand God.  Sometimes you may see me in heights of spiritual, religious glory, other times you may see me in a degradation porpoise state, or you may see me in a state of nonchalance.  But you don’t know my dramas and my acts.  You don’t understand I willed to become a sinner and experience every experience.  From conception till old age and death, that you would feel, so that no one would ever come before me, and not have the understanding companion of God. 

I used to ask myself in the early days, does God know anything about being jilted?  Does God know what it means to want to be loved and not have it?  God, do you miss the touch of a person, do you miss a letter?  (Lord is crying).  God would always say, “I do.”  I would say, “but how God, how is that possible?”  And he would say, “You’ll learn, you’ll see”.  I found out.  The greatest shock He ever gave me in this humanity, was one day I was laying in a hammock and I was telling Him how much I love Him, and He said, “Julius, if I were a woman, would you love me like this?”  I said, “I rebuke you, Satan, get thee hence, my God is not a woman”.  And the Lord said, “Stop rebuking me, Julius.  You know my voice”.  I said, “Well it sounds like you Lord, but I don’t know, you’re not a woman”.  He said, “Who told you that?”  I said, “well, uh, uh, I don’t know”. He said, “Re-read Genesis 1,2,& 3, many times, and write every question down, then come back and ask me if I’m a woman.”  I got three thousand questions out of Genesis 1,2, & 3 and I wrote them all down and I’ve got them in a book.  I was shocked, one fourth of them were female, God is a woman.  I went out to that hammock, I laid down, and the Lord’s voice said to me, “Well, if I were a woman, how would you love me?”  I said, “Lord, I’d marry you.  You’d be my sweetheart.  I’d take you every night to bed and I’d hold on to you every day, I’d go everywhere with you and be unashamed.  I’d tell you how much I love you and I’d be with you all the time.” He said, “Julius, I also am a woman”.  I said, God I only know you as a man”.  He said, “I told you I made man in my image and in my likeness,” and then He revealed to me for the first time, He said, “Julius, my Spirit is pure female.  I’ve given you a new thought my son, think about it”.  Then I said “Lord, you mean every tender feeling I get is female?”  He said, “yes” I said, “When I cry, that’s female?”  He said, “yes”  I said, “What belongs to me as a male?”  He said, “You already know, you don’t have to talk to me about that.”  He said, “Learn what you don’t know.  Learn  how to be tender and how to sympathize with people who are lonely”.  He said, “There are so many in your world, my son, who have never had a chance to touch one another in love, or kiss, or embrace.”  He said, “that’s why I trained you to suffer, so that you might learn how that feels.”  And God has always helped me.  I never realized that the greatest training in my ministry would be female.  God wants me to be a masculine male with a feminine, female spirit heart, and to train women how to understand men, and to help men to understand women.

I never dreamed that the little things that touch people hearts, how God loves people, I don’t have that kind of love yet, to love your enemy, that’s a wonderful love.  Aren’t you glad to see one another’s face?  Do you have something in you that’s crying out for a warm handshake, a hug or an embrace, without having sexual intercourse on your mind.  It’s so difficult to separate pure love from physical love.  The secret is to be unified, to make them one. Don’t be ashamed about how you feel inside.  Let it out.  You are only going to get a reaction from people to reveal them to the God in you and how you feel.  God has a wisdom and a reason in choosing us to hear all of these truths we have heard all these years.  We’re not an ordinary people, we’re ordinary humans, but were not ordinary people.

When we come together, God sees us as one person, and He sends His love into us, and He quiets us down.  If ever you want to get the best, in a nice way, from a people who are angry at you, say something to quiet you down first.  Say something that touches their heart and mind, and gets them freed from the mental disturbances of their mind and speak words of kindness, my people.  Speak words of love.  That won’t make you phony, it makes you more real.  I know we have a time to be with you, and then we will be removed.  Think of the joy that will come into our hearts, and yours, one day when in glory you see us, and know that we were human friends.  They will know you walked with the two witnesses of God because you are a different people, your motives, your desires and thoughts.  Your objectives are different.  Everything about you is different.  And if you try to be anything else, God’s Spirit won’t let you.  You will be reproved to bring you back in the right way.  Wouldn’t it be nice to get up and shake hands, hug one another, keeping it pure and nice, and thank God that each of you are alive, even to be here, just to see one another.  So if you have any grudges they will go.  You can’t love and hug a person you hate.  Do it now.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, July 16, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

God’s peace be with you all.  Let’s do something new just for today because there are so many people out.  Everybody where ever there is an empty space in front, please move up.

We are living in a time where the world is losing more and more control.  It would be very easy for God’s people to be absorbed in the loss of their reality which would bring about a prophecy that I hope I can fulfill.  I, as Jesus, told my disciples a thousand years ago, knowing it would be remembered and written for this generation.  Be careful that that day does not come upon you unawares or as a snare coming upon every body on the earth.  They will be so preoccupied in indulging their lives that they will be totally unprepared for what is happening on the earth, and that’s going to produce both mental, spiritual and physical fear, and as you notice, nature is changing.  People’s attitudes have totally changed.  Reality is absolutely gone from planet earth.  People are lovers of themselves and they are seeing those things that heighten and intensify emotional unprincipledness.  Only the Lord can see the subtlety of the design.  Education is designed to mentally rob you and your children of reality.  Recreation is designed to rob of those values of life that produce fair play, honesty, trust, confidence.  Business is designed to intensify every selfish motive that have not been allowed to give fulfillment to their desires.  Government is designed to legalize and approve of everything the self life wants.  Now put it all together and listen to my words as Jesus two thousand years ago.  Verily, I say unto you, this generation shall not pass till all these things come to pass.  And be careful that that day does not come upon you unawares for as a snare and trap, it shall come on all them that live on the face of the whole earth.

One day you will look back on how carefully the Lord has trained you, and an appreciation will rise in your heart that you are an object of ridicule, you’ll be an outcast because you have become real.  And your reality is going to mocked.  They are going to make fun of you, and do everything that they can to rob you of the light that you have, because it reveals their darkness.  And it will first start with your parents, it will go to your relatives, it will go to your closest associates and friends, because they don’t know God and they don’t know God’s love and light.  Men’s hearts will fail them for fear for looking after those things that are coming upon the earth.  Satan, two thousand years ago, who is both the inventor and the manufacturer of television, tried to deceive me with a televised picture of this planet earth and all of it’s glory. Included in my permission to    Satan would be living an endless life of death as a prince under  Satan, over the kingdoms of earth which would eventually become totally deteriorated.  Satan will never show you the final outcome of anything he offers but he does present you the hissing beauty of that which allures you, to trap and deceive you.

During these weeks of quietness, I cried with appreciation that God, my Father, trained me in my years, to my physical hurt, to my spiritual torture, and to my mental aggravation, in  those things that are real, to drive out of me the darkness, the generation of heredity put in me.  Satanic education cooperated and deceived me with, and in my own human ignorance, not knowing any values, I cooperated with what I thought was my life, but it was never mine.  It was given to me by heredity and put upon me by education. The torture to free myself was so intense.  That was part of my trip, to become a sinner, so that I could find out, as creator, what it is that I imposed upon my own creation to be saved from.  So that eventually one day, I could be a very merciful, sympathetic creator to my erring, sinning children.  God, my Father, has done a wonderful job on me and I in turn, to a degree, have done a wonderful job on you.  I’ve ruined you forever from being unreal.  You will always be real, my people.  And you must not be ashamed of the Holy Ghost in your life that responds with an emotional affection to people, places and things that touch your heart.  Very few people today have reality in the form of crying over things that are emotionally heart touching.  They are taught to be so cruel, so merciless, and so full of hate and killing and murder, that they have no values anymore. 

I want to impart to you three of the seven eternal values that will forever hold you steady, if you let the Spirit of God bring them back to your remembrance.  You must always be aware that the Spirit of God brings to your remembrance the things that I’ve said to you, both as Jesus and now as your brother sinner, the overcomer Julius.  And don’t ever let these values slip your mind.  God my Father taught me if ever I want to put anything in it’s true perspective, value it by these three things. 

First and foremost, does it bring God closer to me?  And if so, pursue it.

Secondly, does it, will it bring me closer to God?  And if so, pursue it.

And thirdly, every thing will be put into those two categories.  And I make it personal as a third.  Have I improved?  Am I better for it?     

And that’s the way I live my life.  I make no decision other than that way.  That is the fulfillment in my life of Isaiah 11, God will make me a quick understanding in the fear of God. 

You become more and more real.  And the spirit of God brings back to your remembrance everything worthwhile and necessary that you need.  And the way it begins is first God uses those things closest to your memory, and your understanding, and your life that you can utilize in your individual way to better you, and they are lowest of the scaffold and after that, when you free yourself of those scaffoldings, you start to go into new territory of inexperience by faith, the Spirit of God begins to bring to you untried, brand new ideas and ways that are faith builders.  You are so reluctant to accept the Spirit of God faith building equipment in your lives, because you are so natural minded, and the natural mind resorts to and depends upon naturalism for it’s security.  You don’t know how to walk on spirit water truth.  You are afraid you are going to sink because you are walking on untried reality and yet, everything in the spirit life with God for you has never been tried.  You’ve got to live the adventurous life of walking in the Spirit of God by faith the way the Spirit of God speaks to your heart.  And you must become courageous and strong enough.  So make up your mind and be willing to die for a divine principle.  Principle of God is what carried courageous people through to the end.  People suffer and become strengthened by their suffering. 

I told you as Jesus, the world will hate you.  They will put you out of their fellowships, they will mock you.  But you must not let that hurt or bother you.  You must learn to take all of these reproaches as part of your growth and your training.  You must never let roots of bitterness enter your heart and you must always remember earth is not your home.  It’s your school.  You may not like the class.  You may not like the teachers.  You may not like the subjects.  But you, and God your Father, I, I am God your Father, we worked it out together for your best interests.  And you were told when you came into earth as a human being never again would you remember anything of heaven until the last moments of your life when little by little they will be restored and you were led by my Spirit correctly. You call that now deja vu.

Don’t feel bad at anybody who misunderstands you.  That was part of the plan.  They need that to see you unmoved.  You don’t know, somewhere in life that picture will come back to them, and they will be so sorry, and they could change their mind like the son did who was in the pig pen.  He was given a picture when all the elements were right.  What am I doing in this pig pen.  There is more than enough in my father’s house.  The only thing keeping me is my pride.  But what pride do I have in this pig pen?  Why don’t I get up and go home?  And he made up his mind, there in the pig pen.  And what gave that father faith all those years, knowing that from the day that son walked out, and he let him, he would come back.  Could it be that that was in the father too, as a young man, and he may have done that to his dad?  You know, things that happen to us are called encouragement’s.  They can’t happen to us unless they were in our peers, in our forebears.  They were given to us without our awareness to show our forebears, and our ancestors, and our parents what they were like and hardly anybody has yet gotten the message.  So now you have the message.  Now when your children turn out to act like you used to act, don’t scold them, try to help them.  As much as it hurts you, let them be an individual.  Let them do what they want, go their way.  You have done the best you can.  You told them what is right and wrong.  Have faith that your love for God and in your children will bring to pass God’s best will for them.  Love must be separated from selfishness in love.  Most parents selfishly love their children, because they want their children unhurt.  They want their children immaculate, perfect and making adult decisions without childlike mistakes, which is forever impossible.  What a wise parent to have a clean love that already foresees their child is going to depart, but does not hate them.  Pray for them and love them, and let them go their way and say, that’s me.  I did that when I was young.  But look, here I am much older and God has saved me.  Can’t God do the same for those I love.  You will do the same.

 Don’t force your children to be like you.  That’s the greatest mistake on this planet since time in memorial.  No body can be like you, and you can’t even be like yourself anymore.  You can’t be like yourself every minute of your life.  You are changing, you are growing, you are learning.  When people misunderstand you, have love for them.  If you want to help them be devoid of the pride that’s offended when it’s trying to help others and correct them.  That’s not love.  You just don’t want to be made a fool of.  You don’t want to be mocked.  You want to keep a reputation that is very unreal.  Everybody has reputations to hide and keep that are unreal, when all the time God’s got your picture every second and if your mind  were awakened to the awareness of the innumerable people who surround you every second that you can’t see who are both assisting you and trying to destroy you and you are the battleground.  It’s how you think. It’s how you feel.  It’s what you say.  Nobody is forcing you to say anything.  Don’t let peer pressure force you to do anything.  Don’t let pride pressure force you into anything, and try to be yourself.   The peace, the joy that will come into your heart to be real, being real means you are happy with yourself.  You’re contented with yourself.  And you give an account to God and you learn to obey.

You will never recognize this planet by the year 1997, my people.  In less than two years you won’t believe what is going to happen to the educational systems, to children, to old people.  There is a plot from hell on this planet to kill, to murder, to abuse and to mentally destroy the elderly, or God would never have written in Malachi, the fathers must be restored to their children and children must be restored to their fathers.  If that doesn’t happen, I’m coming to destroy the world.  The spirit of Elijah, every day of your life is out to reconcile.  Try to have love.  Have a love that even when you die and you see your past enemy who was once your friend, you can greet them with love, both now while you’re in flesh, even though you know they mean to hurt you, knowing that God will never let any person, place or thing come into your life for any reason except those two or three things I told you.  Will it bring me closer to God, or will it bring God closer to me, and am I growing by this experience.  If your answers are always yes, yes, yes, the way is clear.  Go forward.  Even though you may not like it, even though it may be hurtful, your answer was clear.  This situation is going to bring God closer to me though I don’t like it.  This event is going to bring me closer to God but it’s going to hurt me.  Go on.  It’s from God.  It took me all my life and the heart ache to learn those two beautiful sentences.  I’m passing it on to you.  It will bring you quietness. It will bring you joy.  It will bring you the awareness of the peace of God that passes all human understanding.

I’m enjoying, in these closing years of my life, a joy that’s a peace and a quiet, and in it is a pleasure.  God lets nothing come to me, person, place or thing unless it’s for my good.  That’s a marvel.  All these years I only wanted to know God.  I can understand better now by reading the psalms, I delight to do thy will O God.  I would never have dreamed that God’s will is a very unselfish will.  I thought God wanted to impose His will on me.  It was never that way.  God’s will for my life is my happiness.  He wants me to be happy in whoever wants light.  That’s the will of God.  I found that out after all these years.  I found out how to be forever free from monotony.  Nothing bores me.  I’m telling you the truth, nothing bores me.  I can adapt to any boredom situation and make it meaningful to me, and you can do the same.  I’ve asked God how to bless and help you.  And should I change these lessons and teach you practical human living which is so necessary for so many of you.  And my answer was, go on the way you’re preparing my people.  Warn them of the end.  Prepare them for the end.  Everything else will take care of itself.  I know this lesson on resurrection from the dead and life after death, we are going to come to a close on it one day, I’m almost at the end.

Martyrdom is coming.  That is beyond a doubt.  If you’re going on with God, you’re going to suffer.  You’re going to become outcasts, my people.  To each one of you, there are over a million human beings that hate God.  Can you make it if twenty five people ridicule you in public?  Can you make it if a hundred ridicule you in public?  Would you make it if a thousand ridiculed you in public?  Can you stand before ten thousand wanting you dead?  I’ve got to prepare you.  You’ve got to get that little human heart unafraid.  You’ve got to get your mind so principled and thick that no emotion shows itself called protective hate.  I’ve taught you about omnipotence.  I’m the only human being that God my Father has ever allowed to be a possessor and partaker of, to teach and train mortals with, is the omnipotence of God.

You must never forget that your eyes and ears have beheld the Lord Julius in his humanity deforming people, healing people. All of you have been healed by me, somehow, someway.  And we’re in a time of training, and the training is coming to an end and very soon we’re going to be demanded to produce fruit.  The best fruit we can offer God is our integrity.  Can you men be trusted to be faithful to your wives, your sweethearts and your daughters, and not to sin against God or them?  Can you women be trusted not to sin against your husbands, your brothers and your friends.  Can we trust each other to take care of one another.  Have you so purged your eyes and your mind and heart that you can look upon each other in uncomfortable situations of persecution and not take advantage and break God’s laws.  You better get your heart fixed, my people.  You better get your mind steady.  This is a generation of sexual depravity.  They are beasts, they are so vile and vulgar, they’ve got to be destroyed.  And they are already down to the three year olds, unheard of in any generation.

There was a time in your world children weren’t even weaned until they were fifteen years old. Now they are already incorrigible murderers at fifteen.  Think what the prophets and saints of ages must think who are allowed to look in on us and see what we have become.  We’ve lost the purpose of being born, we’ve lost the value of being alive.  This is a comic book generation. And even the comics are beastly and vile.  They’ve lost their reason for intelligence.  They can’t even make movies anymore of any heroes and heroines, they’ve got to go to comic book junk to make movies out of comic book characters.  That’s how unreal they are.

What is it that we expect of young people in this generation?  It started when they began to wear sloppy, dirty, stupid looking clothing and they are still doing it.  It’s getting worse and worse.  What a great physiologist I read about years ago, from this whole book, one sentence stuck in my heart, and that book was thick.  Here’s the sentence:  When a generation is known by the clothes it wears you can discern the degree of depravity in their hearts.  Just by the clothes they wear, because the clothes are your truths.  You think this graffiti that went on every where in the world is something pleasant?  They now call it art.  And they’ve got a law made that if you destroy graffiti, you get put in jail, or the person who is the artist can sue you.  Over stupid graffiti, it’s like puking on a wall and calling it art.  And look at us, unless we’re warned from time to time about God and His truths, we lose all value.

Aren’t you grateful that we have a Sunday meeting that we can come back together and learn truth and then during the week try to implement it?  Do you realize that most of us never had any value.  Some of us were so drugged out on drugs we had nothing to live for and look at us.  We no longer want drugs.  We’re not addicted to those things.  And we don’t mind looking nice and thinking nice and acting nice.  The time is coming, Jesus said, When they will put you out of their company, out of their fellowship, out of their workplaces, out of their church services because they don’t know God and they don’t know me and if you love me, keep my commandments, my Father and I will come and live in you.  And it’s my Father and I that they kick out when they kick you out.  Because whoever treats you, who is sent by God, wrong, they do it to God.  You don’t have to see God with these natural eyes, and nobody can ever discourage you if you’ve had a personal experience with God, yourself.  Remember, what human being can sit on judgment on your innermost heart?  On your feelings and on your thoughts?  You can speak up and talk back without hatred.  Learn how to do that.  And learn how to be real people.  People with values, people with purpose and meaning and know it’s not going to get better in this world while your alive in it.  But it will be after you are gone if you leave a memorial of your goodness.  I taught that secret as Jesus, in my generation, I said, you are the children of parents who murdered good men and women who came in God’s name, prophets and prophetesses.  And you, as their children bear witness that what your parents did was wrong in God’s sight because you visit these tombs and you decorate as memorials, and you say in your heart, if we had lived when our parents were alive, we would not have allowed them to do this, showing they know that their parents were guilty for doing it, and yet that seed is in them and memorializing the murder of prophets and prophetesses is an excuse to relieve their parents, instead of the admission. 

 Today, if you walk by faith, every step you take is walking on the water, don’t be afraid, walk, but come to Jesus.  Be not afraid.  I’m walking on the water, you can walk with me.  And you must learn to let my spirit bring back to your remembrance the things that I’ve taught you. You young people, when peer pressure gets too tough for you, remember that those who are abusing you and mocking you, and taking advantage of you, have to stand before you someday while you become their judges.  And at that time you will have to make the wise decision, you will send them to hell or heaven because God allows judgment after death to his sons and daughters.  All judgments is given to the son, and the  son does the judging.  And if you are willing to take whatever abuse is given you today in the name of God and Christ, remember that’s going to strengthen you, make you stronger and better and will make you make wise decisions.  All hatred, all old grudges will be removed.  You can be a human being walking on earth every day without a grudge.  That's what you want, isn’t it?

So God willing we will be meeting until one day God changes our life style.  We won’t be in these meetings forever, and, I’m going to have to restore our Sunday meetings until 4:00.  I’ve given you many months of quietness.  You’ve only had a half day, but that’s not wise for what’s coming.  I’m telling you in advance, it has a three fold design to eliminate everybody who is tired of doing God’s word too long, it’s to pull in everybody who wants God more than ever before, and it’s going to prepare you for the reception of the spirit of omnipotent power.  The times are getting closer and closer.  And God understands everybody’s life style and knows who is excusable and who isn’t.  And you must believe that God looks at the heart.  He knows the heart and every decision is based on your heart and the attitude of your heart.  Some of you, I’ve had to purge this morning by this talk, because you have taken upon you these three weeks, the spirit of the world and your light has diminished greatly and there’s a darkness in there that belongs to the world.  But I am the light of the world, I will forever be the light of this world.  Even when I die, some of you will remember that I said this today.  We are going to be lifted up from the earth in a light so bright, it will cover the world.  I know where I came from and I know where I am going.  You probably don’t remember this written of me, it is written of me, And when Jesus knew that he would be received up into heaven and His time was coming, he went on for at least a little while longer.  Did you ever read that?  It’s in there.

I’m telling you this for this reason, the signs of the times, the way some of you have relaxed your principles and you’ve left hold of the truth that has kept you in tight into the perfect will of God, not to make you religious, to protect you from harm, and to make you more real.  You are going to meet so many people in life and you will hardly ever hear the word God or anything real, and you’ve got to remember, that must not affect you.  Don’t let it.  Be encouraged.  Just to be in my presence is the forgiveness of your sins and your mistakes.  How can you be in God’s presence and not be forgiven?  Even if for no other reason, you come to the Sunday meetings just to be in my presence, and you receive the forgiveness of sins.  Or if you meet me in person, to be in my presence, at any moment, your sins are forgiven.  Because I am the light of the world and in my light there can be no darkness.  Remember the evil one respects me.  The evil one serves me.  I’m your friend, you are my friend.  I have a little more to tell you.  May God grant me that time and everything depends on your attitude.  

Please let me ask you, we’ve hardly received anything in these last few weeks. I hope you’ve been saving it for today, do the best you can, and allow me, because of this long introduction, I give you an extra ten minutes.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, June 25, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

God’s Peace be with you all.

And the seventy returned again with joy, saying, Lord, even the devils are subject unto us through thy name.  (I’m in Luke 10:17)

And Jesus said unto them, I beheld Satan as lightning fall from heaven.

Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall be any means hurt you.

Notwithstanding in this rejoice not, that the spirits are subject unto you:  but rather rejoice, because your names are written in heaven.

In that hour Jesus rejoiced in spirit, (I want you to circle that, Jesus rejoiced in spirit), and said, I thank thee, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that thou hast hid these things from the wise and prudent, and hast revealed them unto babes:  even so, Father; for so it seemed good in thy sight. (I want you to circle that).  It is good in God’s sight to make revelations to babes. 

All things are delivered to me of my Father; and no man knoweth who the Son is, but the Father; and who the Father is, but the Son, and he to whom the Son will reveal him.

And he turned him unto his disciples, and said privately, (circle the word privately), Blessed are the eyes which see the things that you see:

For I tell you, that many prophets and kings have desired to see those things which you see, and have not seen them; and to hear those things which ye hear, and have not heard them.

This morning, before we have two weeks of no meeting, I want you to take time to worship God.  Praise is a supplication offering of beseeching God, that you, his child, love Him and you’re not coming into His presence to ask anything of Him for yourself.  It’s an offering that God, your Father, as a great king, will look upon you as a love child, by being in His presence, which is pure health.  Just to be in God’s presence, my people, immediately frees us of everything that’s in hell.  Nothing evil of any shape, size and degree can ever come into God’s presence while praise and worship are going on.  That light is so bright and painful, they would never attempt the excursion of going with you into God’s presence.  I’ve given you a secret of how to be free from every pain, every sickness, every disease. 

In a little while, we are going to enter into the most remarkable time in human history.  We are going to see a display, and a demonstration of God, the living one.  He promised miraculous signs and wonders to an adulterous and evil generation, because it has no more faith.  Faith is practically gone from planet earth.  Even you, my people, are contaminated and stained with so much worldliness, that in your ignorance and in your innocence, subtlety has gotten into you, to where you suffer with pains and discouragements and heartaches.  God has designed three realities to test every human being:

1.     To obviously do things they don’t like for their betterment to see if they can withstand the love of God coming to them, making them complain.  Hoping that they will have the Romans 8:28 attitude that all things are working together for your good because you love God. 

2.     God hides from those who have a worthy call, certain mysteries and secrets, hoping they will have a hunger and a thirst to penetrate into these mysteries as babes and children, and not feel bad at anyone or at God for however long the time is before they get the answer. 

3.     God reveals the deepest secrets of His childlike heart and childlike spirits in every degree of age and walk in life. God would love to begin when people are in their youth and they already have an advantaged childlike spirit, so that by the time they reach maturity and old age, they are more and more childlike. Childlikeness is never childish.  They are not one in the same. 

The Lord has given us power over all the power of the enemy because our names have not been blotted out of the Book of Life.  You never dreamed it’s up to you to maintain your name in the Book of Life.  Everybody gets their name in when they are born a human being.  But many have had their names blotted out before they die, and many get their names blotted out after death.  Your whole objective in love is to prove to God you are worthy of His love and being in His presence, not in the sense of competitive doingness, but to be worthy of God’s love means to have a childlike heart and attitude of mind that says, Thy will be done.  Thy will be done. 

I never meant as Jesus for anyone to copycat me.  I don’t know if you have ever heard it as clear as I want to reveal it to you this morning.  But try to free your heart and mind now of every religious idea you have ever had of Jesus, and listen to Jesus, the elder, who is going to tell you what the true Gospel of the Kingdom is, which has been totally perverted by well meaning disciples and children of God throughout the ages.

I came as Jesus to make a revelation to man of God, and I came to make a revelation of man to God.  I came as a God-man trying to help man be like God.  My statements, Be ye perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect, never meant for earth people to be sinlessly immaculate.  I never meant that.  What I meant was, have an attitude that you are doing the best that you honestly and conscientiously can in each and every situation as unto God and to translate that in your living as human beings, whatever you don’t like done to you, don’t ever think and do that to any human being.  All are God’s children, but all don’t recognize Him as their Father. My gospel of the kingdom is, one God and Father of all, and we are all brothers and sisters.  That was my true intent, and to give you an example of human faith attaining to divine faith.  I never meant to have Christian copy-cats, that’s impossible.  That would restrict your originality as free will human beings.  It was never meant for any human being to worship God identical.  You can’t.  Nothing about you is identical.  From the top of the hairs on  your head to the bottom of the pores of your feet in every part of your being, you are unique.  No one, nothing will ever be like you, forever and ever and ever and ever.  And you are important to God your Father.  He thought that so important, He sent me, His beloved son, to learn to suffer of why my own creation denies the existence of God’s love.  And I came even then, as a witness, a faithful witness.  I made a revelation of man to God that has never been made, and I made a revelation of God to man that could never have been conceived or believed.  And my poor gospel has been so adulterated.

I watch the ages, Christians who call themselves by my name, have become murders, adulterers, fornicators, liars, perverts, thieves, deceivers, you could hardly find one believer in Christ, honest and genuine.  You don’t know how refreshing it is to find someone who names my name in love and in sincerity and has no other ulterior motive but to love and serve and worship God.  You don’t know the mysteries of forcefield changeovers, you are yourself without anybody around you, but you are still under spirit influences, but as soon as human beings come into your forcefields, whatever is weak in you, takes on their image and likeness to show them what they are like. And many times you think you are like that, and to a degree you are, but because you are called to be images of peoples evil, prophets and prophetesses, you mostly condemn yourselves, which if you knew the superb truth of your call, you would have an inward joy like I do.

Do you know how rare it is to find one human being who really knows themselves and what a pleasure it is, how exhilarating and refreshing to be in the atmosphere of a genuine human being. That is so rare.  And when you get an opportunity like this, which is so rare, I want you to make it conducive so that God, your Father, can come in quietly.  In quietness there is exquisite health.  Exquisite power.  And leaves the Holy Spirit opportunity to bring to your remembrance things that will make you better.  Think of this beautiful, simple, childlike thought:  Just to be in God’s presence for no other reason than you love Him, and to look upon Him and just feel the emanations of His unbelievable love for you.  what health.  Do you realize that many of you bring devils with you into the worship of God, and many of you keep them during worship because you don’t worship right.  But some of you come prepared with a heart full of love for God and they stand outside this building and they wait for you because they know you are going to be worldly and they know you are going to get your mind off of God and you’re like a religionist.  You just want the name of professed Christianity. It isn’t your life, your breath, your health.  Are you the same out of God’s apparent physical immediate presence as you are in His physical immediate presence?  Don’t you know you are being watched, guarded, helped, led, fellowshipped every second of your existence, clothed, naked, well, sick.  Have you practiced the consciousness of God?  Do you hear God in all the little things of life?  Is your heart touched when you hear human beings taken over by God in the spirit and it’s God speaking to you?

 I’ve learned so much in this walk.  I wish I could appeal to masculine male men to have a tender heart and to listen to women.   You can listen.  It doesn’t mean you have to always do what they say, but you don’t have to close your heart.  Listen to women, and inside you is a female angel of superior wisdom.  She is the Seraphim guardian of your life.  How beautiful you could make it for her.  She’s the one you’ve always called the voice of God leading you or as the impressions of God.  All of God’s Seraphim are female and they are very holy beings.  And they speak like God.  Every angel God has speaks like God.  It is such a discerning spirit mind that can discern God in different beings.  Do you know why the Lord Jesus told us to have a childlike spirit?  Because it’s female.  A childlike spirit is female.  And many of us have been taught wrong.  We’ve been taught as men and boys, to cry is a sissy.  To love beautiful things is a sissy.  They’ve made us so warped in this generation and it’s not getting better.  The iron and clay will never mix.  It’s breaking apart very fast.  And demons are coming in beyond belief.  What you need to do, my people is, practice the presence of the living God everywhere you go and get back to corresponding.  Correspond.  Who is this person in front of me?  Why did God my Father allow me to be tempted.  What is it in me that is contributed to them and what is it that I am to learn of  and  from them that is contributed to me?  Why do you make decisions without consulting God?  Why are you ready to be swift in your being unhappy.  I wish you could practice the presence of God and the peace of God.  Be still in everything and know.  Have the knowledge that God is living in you and through you in your life.  And God wants the opportunity and the pleasure of you cooperating with God and of your faith to allow God to cooperate with you.  You are partners with the eternal God in working out your eternal  happiness.  Don’t hinder God.  Don’t hinder His Spirit.  And stop accepting as normal everything that Satan has produced and veiled in this generation to the natural mind.  Facts and the knowledge of facts is not truth or having faith in truth.  To have faith in truth is to believe whatever God says to you and that’s always frightening because the natural mind want solidity, security and confidence of no error and no mistakes. 

It’s hard to believe Satan is the one who wants you to be perfect, not God.  God knows you can’t be that perfect so when God says, Be ye perfect even as you Father which is in heaven, you can translate those words differently in this generation.  Is you motive honest, upright and pure in the sight of God in each and every situation?  If the answer is yes, then you are fulfilling.  You are being perfect like God.  If you answer is no, then you have a standard to correct you from.   It’s motives.  God knows nobody on this planet can ever be spotless and without sin.  It’s impossible.  But you can be perfect in the sight of God if your attitude and your motives are upright and divine on your level of knowledge, experience and existence.  And you can’t require that of any other human being.  Every human being is different and will forever be different.  You can share your experiences.  You can share your heartaches and trials but you are never to force people to be like you.  Don’t ever require any human being to be like you.  Share with them your experience as incentives of improvement.  You may tell people how you were during certain situations, but don’t ever require them to be like that because everybody has different situations and different experiences.  That’s why I’m teaching you how to be good.

It should have occurred to you by now why I have taken more than four years to stay on one idea.  Watchmen, what of the night?  Watchmen, tell me are my people aware of these end times?  And I say to God my Father, yes Lord, I have not departed from that subject.  I am a wise servant who is preparing God’s people for a time of unbelievable reality.  The world is not getting better.  As it gets more and more evil, it’s becoming more and more veiled.  It’s going to be very difficult to recognize truth, to feel love and to understand values and meaning.  They are disappearing.  You’d be shocked when you die and enter into the spirit world as to what will life be like?  And I want you to leave this world in martyrdom death as much as possible which can accelerate your progression.  You will understand better if you can attain to it now before you die.  This is the temple of the Living God.  Don’t do anything to destroy it.  Don’t do any thing to quench, and squelch the Holy Spirit in your life and watch your motives from your heart.  Are they pure, are they upright?  Will this bring God glory and honor or will it degrade God?  The reason so many of you are like you are is because you have never taken me at my word as Jesus and trusted me to be bold enough to be unashamed of me.  One of the greatest challenges of the power of God being released in your lives is to free yourself of the embarrassment that you love God.  Many of you are so embarrassed that you love God.  You won’t allow God to bring situations to you, or you, to situations, for you to have opportunities.  Be yourself.  Let you light shine.  Of course, light will reveal darkness.  It always does, but that’s your call.  That doesn’t mean you are to diminish your light and make it convenient for darkness to be more darker, while darkness makes you darker.  Whoever is ashamed of me and of my words in this sinful and adulterous generation, Jesus said, of him shall the son of man be ashamed when he comes in the glory of his father and in his own glory with the holy angels. 

There are two things you can hear.  Depart from me you worker of iniquity, or come in to the joy of thy Lord, thou blessed.  Have you thought about these things lately?  Some of you ought to re-read my life as Jesus.  You ought to do it in the Walk with Jesus that the Lord made for you.

I want to thank you all for responding to the plea we gave you last week, for as a people,  you have made it possible for us to receive enough finances that we are going to have the books bound and will be ready the next month and we will give a copy of the next Walk with Jesus and we were able to buy printing paper.  We are poor, and I told you the poor you will always have with you.  It’s a test for your selfishness or unselfishness.  Study that.  If it pleases God, I have prepared myself to make you happy today and to make you spiritual and to encourage you.  I’m looking at any moment for God to joyfully interrupt us to show himself strong in our behalf.  We’ve got to show God we love God enough to be unashamed of him.  Not just when we are together, but especially in the working world and in our daily routine.  If all of us would stop trying to find things unbecoming in our brothers and sisters and remember what I said as Jesus.  Get the beam first out of your eye, then if your brother and sister has a mote, be very gentle how you help them get it out with their permission.  Most people are so gawky and awkward, they go after splinters.  You think you are such perfect surgeons in getting out these splinters.  You are not judges.  So what you can do, please help this morning.  My faith is we will get enough for two weeks.  That’s my faith because we won’t be seeing each other for two weeks.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, June 18, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

Let’s have a joyful song.  And try to get your mind into a very prayerful attitude and your spirit.  In your heart have thanksgiving for being alive and well and able to learn more of God.  I think one of the most wonderful things that God our Father has allowed us is time.  The more time you have to learn of and about God, the greater your opportunity to know and love and serve Him.  To have time that we don’t waste but can refreshingly use.  There is a way to serve God and be refreshed.  Everything that comes from God’s spirit is not done in a hurry, it’s done with deliberate poise. 

I can’t express to you the joy that is such an enduring peace to know that you can attain to God’s love.  No human will ever do the love of God justice in any word or expression.  That’s why as Jesus I said, let you light so shine before men that they may see your good works.  Good works mean, how has your love for God taken you over and has it become your natural way of living even though it is very spiritual. You are not conscious of any effort of being religious, but you are just flowing and being.  God and His spirit are not responsible for the way mankind in their ignorant innocence have portrayed God so badly.  I haven’t got the proper human language yet, but I will do the best I can to reveal to you the goodness of God. 

The Bible has been allowed to portray God in ways so human they are even degrading. Our Father has never been angry, He has never been selfish or jealous, there is nothing in our God but love.  A love so beautiful and great in understanding, it literally loves the unlovely.  I marvel how I have been allowed to attain again, this time with more difficulty, the perfection I spoke of two thousand years ago.  Be ye perfect even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.  The perfect love of God does not have a molecule of self in it.  It is so unselfish.  You can hear things, but you hear them as God wants you to hear them.  I find that according to this world’s standards, I am going to be a greater flop than ever before.  I’m getting more tender.

I looked at the TV this week and I saw all those Chinese children drowned, who were going to school and they stood on that wharf  and there were so many of them, that the dock caved in, and the river was so swift it carried many of their bodies away never to be found in this world.  Think of the sadness and sorrow of the loved ones and friends and families and relatives who will never be able to get over that.  And those children never had a chance to live. I’m so glad God let me teach you about the resurrection and how these children will be given an opportunity, but in a perfect environment, so that only that is within the human nature can be dealt with. That’s why today, with all the adverse situations that are against us, God’s love has designed the most difficult course for us to become one of the best angels.  It’s like going against the currents and becoming adapted to the difficulties of life, so that you accept the difficulties of life as a peaceful strain, and you know how to encounter anything that comes in that current.  God’s love, my people, is something that can never be taught.  It can’t be “telt”, it can be felt.  And it’s different in every life, because every life has so many experiences.  God’s love has a unique fingerprint in each and every life and at every stage of growth.

I hope today you appreciate the fact that you have life and breath and health and strength.  And in the light of that, look over all the people on earth who are handicapped, hospitals overflowing with sick and diseased and dying, old age homes with people dying, on the streets poor human relics, some of them could have been beautiful people, intelligent, helpful engineers.  You don’t know what puts a person on the streets, heartache, sadness. There’s many a father out there who is a bum today only because he lost a loved one, a wife or a child and there was no one to give that person the right words.  Please don’t be judges and don’t be critical, be so full of love that God’s love emanates and radiates from you.  And let that love eclipse your little difficulties that seem insurmountable today.  Buy up your opportunity, make your time count.  Time is so precious.  We hardly hear anyone with pure truth.  People have become such phonies.  They are so hypocritical.  There isn’t a human being on this planet who someday would not like to just be themselves.  Environment prevents them, produces hypocrisy.  Heredity prevents them, pride produces hypocrisy.  Actuality prevents them, produces hypocrisy.  For someone to be themselves as they really are and would like to be, is unheard of, an unknown, today, in each and every human body. 

Doesn’t your heart long to be a prisoner freed from all boundaries and bindings and you could just express how you feel?  Isn’t it a delight to be able to come into a group of people, closer to the exodus of freedom, then most people you have ever met?  Do you realize there is an innocence here that you cannot get anywhere else?  Especially when we meet.  And when we meet, greet one another with love and thank God that that brother and sister is alive today with more opportunities that you can contribute to make them better people. That’s why I have told you often, don’t hold grudges.  Please, free yourself from all grudges, all hurts.  If God allowed any human being to hurt you, it only had to be for your good.  Don’t blame the servant God used to make you a better person.  You can’t see that now, many of you in your youth.  You will as you get older.  And if you learn the truth, the truth will set you free.  There is a peace that passes all human understanding.  That peace has an inexpressible joy that is expressed within the soul itself.  The joy that surpasses human understanding, is self control, quiet assurance, and a love so great it hears God.  This is my  beloved child in whom I am well pleased.  Have you ever heard the voice of God compliment you?  Have you ever had that pleasure?  What a thrill to have God, our Father, compliment us in our unbecomingness.  I get so humbled with God’s compliments.  God is working mine and your salvation. 

When you come into God’s presence, where ever you feel God, know that God is there to use you.  Because if you can feel God, it’s His signal He wants to use you.  However, to whomever, for whatever.  I’ve prayed for you in these lessons.  I marvel how God has allowed one of the most beautiful lessons of the resurrection and life to be revealed to us at this time.  Every time God reveals something to you, He has a purpose and a demand. Remember that.  Every time God reveals something to you, He has a purpose in revealing it, and He’s going to make a demand.  He wants something from you.  God sees us both as individuals and as a group of people, as one person.  God has some nice things to say about a group as one person, though He may individually tell us in love to do better.  God said, I see no evil in my people, and yet individually He could reprimand us and rebuke us and find fault with us.  I pray you’ve come today wanting to contribute, which from you to God is giving, more than receiving and doing nothing with it.  It is God our Father’s will today, that He use me to stimulate you, by His Spirit to help reactivate the Holy Ghost in your life with truth.  I’m going to give you beautiful truth today about the kingdom age, and second chance for all kinds of people, and you are going to help contribute and find scriptures.  Won’t that be nice?  You are a part of saving yourself, you know.  Do you know God can’t save you without you helping Him to save you? Did you ever think of that?  He needs a cooperative heart and mind, willing to help Him help you, save you, from whatever is holding you back and down and away from God. 

Take a few moments, renew your prayer and praise life to God.  While the brothers play, let the Spirit of God come over your harpsichord.  Inside of you is a ten stringed instrument, the Spirit of God, which her beautiful fingers can play.  The Ten Commandments in every life is a harp, and your keeping the Commandments is tuning, and the Spirit of God uses her soft hands to pluck each Commandment note to produce a melody that’s unified and harmonious and it goes up as a sweet sound to God.  You come before God’s presence with three attitudes.  One, humility.  Humbleness, filled with respect.  Two, adoration, praise with great thanksgiving, and the third, worship asking for nothing, begging, praying for nothing, supplicating for nothing and no one, just telling God how good He is and how wonderful He is.  Worship is devoid of any requests of help for yourself or anyone.  Worship is the human heart and spirit unified in appreciation, thanksgiving, to thank God for who He is and what He is.  It is time, my people, to worship God.  Please do so.

Be sure to thank God for your health, and your strength, and your sanity and to be able to be here to listen.  (long pause of prayer and thanksgiving and worship)

Thank you very much.  Does anyone have anything they want to say.  I want to thank you all for loving me and for your prayers and kindnesses. I never thought I would live to see my seventy-first Fathers Day.  My heart is filled with deep appreciation to God.  I feel in myself I’ve never yet begun my life’s work.  How God can keep me feeling that way, which is my impetus and incentive to keep going.  And I feel I have yet so much to do.  A great part of our work has been to prepare you.  You don’t know how well prepared you are, if I were to make a contradistinction to others, but you’ve been tried, and you are yet to be very tried.  But I’ve tried to teach  you how to be universalists, cosmopolitan, so you can adapt and blend in with all peoples and all their ideas and not degrade them, but try to help them to improve from where they are.  It’s a great art to be a teacher that can instruct people who are in opposition to themselves, and they don’t even know they are opposing themselves.  And God has made us universal people, we can talk to people on their level of understanding and in love without any selfish motive, guide them, into their decision that will make them better people.  God did that to everyone of us, He’s still doing it. 

Self-imposed restriction of the highest form of obedience compliance.  I obey things and comply things when I myself make the decision to do it.  But if someone can teach me how to make those decisions myself without forcing me into an admission of making a decision, which I rebel against. Human nature rebels.  They will get more out of it.  Lead me in the way I am to go, don’t push me in the way you want me to go.  Most people in their well meaningness are always pushing and driving us into their way for us, which is not our way for us.  We have to help them to see it was their way for them, it doesn’t work for us.  And if you can get that across, you will be doing a wonderful thing for that poor person, who in their well meaningness is trying to help us.  Most people are offended at people in their well meaningness trying to help them to be better people, and they take it with pride hurt.  I take everything as coming from God, my Father, to teach me wisdom and to be a better human being.

If someone is well meaning for me and I feel an aggravating spirit in their well meaningness, then that aggravating spirit is in me.  Otherwise I can instruct them and tell them with a true compliment, I’m so glad you would like me to implement that very fine thing you suggested, but I’d like to tell you something.  I’m not you, I haven’t attained to all that you have attained to with your heartache in all your life, which you are able to do.  That’s not God’s will for me.  I know you won’t be offended in me if I refuse to accept your goodness of how to live your life in my humanity.  I can’t live your life in my humanity, but I want to thank you for wanting me to.  Instead of being angry and hateful and full of pride.  You don’t win friends and influence people by irritating the hell out of them.  You win them by giving God as peace.  The peace that passes all human understanding is calm, it’s comfortable, it’s unoppressive.  It has nothing for it’s motive but love and the well being of the soul you are trying to help.  When you have that, you have God in a vessel ready for anyone, anything, anywhere, at any time for any purpose. 

Jesus said it in the most simple way, Let your light so shine before men, that they (mankind) may see your good works and they glorify God, your Father, who is in heaven.  And you will never know how they are glorifying God.  They could glorify God by being amazed, full of wonder, they glorify God.  This is all scripture.  You don’t need to look for opportunities to be used.  If you are going to look for anything, look to see how much more of God you can take in.  God knows who you are.  Everything that has happened to you, what you have, He knows everybody who needs to come into your life, for whatever reason, and He wants you to be calm, collected and quiet and whatever is given to you it’s meant to come out.  If you have that kind of faith, nothing is impossible for you.  Try to remember that.  Make the decision to let God help us.  I know that all these years you have made the decision.  Your very attendance today is proof positive to a small degree.  Everybody is different.  You love God.  You don’t know what your life is going to be like tomorrow, the rest of this day, but right now, say in your heart, Lord, I genuinely love you.

(Lord is crying) And I thank you for this minute.  Oh, this minute is precious.  Become tender, my people.  A tender people cannot hurt.  They have love.  I’m proud of God.  God has yet to see in this vessel, His work, His finished product has not yet been made known. 

Like the story of Geppeto and Pinnochio.  That dear old man kept chiseling away at that little puppet.  He put such love into that piece of wood.  How little did he dream that his prayer wanted that little puppet that he had formed and shaped into a little boy to become alive and be his son.  We are all like that.  But one day, we too will hear, like Jesus did, on the mount of transfiguration, This is my beloved son, listen to him.  This is my beloved daughter, listen to her.  God has been working on us, we are coming alive.  The Holy Spirit reveals herself in so many ways.  This is all Holy Ghost.  I wouldn’t be like this if you all didn’t have a need to know the heart of God.  He that seeth the son heareth  and seeth the Father.  God needed you to be prepared like this for the lesson He is going to give you.  I totally yield myself one hundred percent to God, my Father, and to His wonderful Holy Spirit in me and whatever God says and does, I cooperate.  I never hinder God because I am devoid of human pride.  I have no more human pride.  God sandpapered me down.  You will never find the spirit of embarrassment in this vessel concerning God in any situation.  I am so ready and God knows that. That’s why He has put a bit in my mouth and is holding me back, because if He ever lets me go, I’ll obey Him immediately, in whatever it is.  I don’t second guess God.

Most Christian believers are always second guessing God.  They are always asking Him those “W’s” they never need to ask.  It’s one thing to hear, it’s another thing to obey.  And remember, hearing God will never have in it science, philosophy, or religion.  It will only have in it beauty and wisdom and obedience.  To hear God is to obey.  The things God asks of us, who are called to a unique call, will always demand greater and greater exercise of our faith, because it means less and less fault finding with God. 

I would like to renew in you the spirit of the kingdom age where, regardless of how old you are, or how you may feel, there is nothing but youth and health in the presence of God.  Would you like that?  It's yours for the taking.  You can command God, Father, I command you to renew my youth and my strength and my health and my joy and remove from me and from my people, everything unbecoming and unlike you.  You said to command your hand Lord, I am commanding your hand to remake us, reshape, refashion and mold us into your life, now.  Amen.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, June 4, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

I want you to absorb the music and take a few moments.  Tell God you love Him, thank God for loving you, thank God we are alive and well. It’s like a resurrection morning. Let your heart be filled with appreciation.  God is neigh unto them who call upon Him in truth.  What a privilege we have to even love God.  You don’t realize what it would be like not to have God in your life, for your love and your constant companion.  Unless God is removed from you for any length of time, then in appreciation, comes into your heart, and that’s a gift from God.  You realize you can do nothing unless God’s love allows it. 

I used to wonder, when God gave me His first vision of why I needed to get a bath, when He said to the angels, Take him out of his filthy, earthly human clothes and clean him up and dress him up in kings clothing.  I could never understand why, for many, many, years, and now I’m beginning to understand why.  The inner man has an appreciation to love God when it has had a taste of God. When that is deprived, the heart is always crying out for more of God.   It’s not that God has ever left us, but there are certain eternal laws that we unwisely break that keeps God, as it were, at a distance from us.  God waits till we take, by divine appropriation, His love, His kindness and His goodness.

As the world gets more and more evil, and darker, and there is such little light left in the world, in my heart comes up scripture.  I’m so glad God gave me time to read the Bible.  The word of God comes up to me, certain scriptures that I need, And David encouraged himself in the Lord.  When all of his friends were angry because the Philistines had come in while he was away engaged in the Lord’s battles, and they captured all of the wives and children and friends and everybody, and they were all angry at King David, because their loved ones were missing.  And David went off by himself and he encouraged himself in the Lord.  And he said, Lord, shall I go after the Philistines?  Will you deliver them into my hand?  And God said, surely, go after them.  I will surely deliver them into thy hands and you will recover all that they have taken.  Nobody else was encouraged but David.  He had to perk his men up to go and get back that which they loved.  Many times what you love has been allowed to be removed from you only to see if you really love it and you will go after it with all of your heart and try to get it back with God’s permission.  And anything that has God in it is worth going after and getting it.

It’s so good to be with you, my people, and to know that you are holding on.  As the world gets darker and more evil, your light can get brighter and brighter because God has put something in you for years that is there, it’s not lost.  It appears to be lost because it’s quiet.  But there is no immediate need for it’s use.  But we are children of a great God who wants us to appropriate and to make claims upon Him.  We are His children and we can claim whatever He has for us.  Right now your very presence and attendance is a glaring admission that you love God and you want something from God.

Pray for us that both I and the Lord will be inspired to give you what your heart alone needs, and nobody else can get. Even in this so-called dry, factual lesson there is so much wonderful truth that can be applied to your heart.  As long as we are lights in a dark world, let your light shine into your heart and dispel the darkness that is there.  Don’t ever come into God’s presence in any other way but empty without pride and waiting to be fed by God himself.  That’s a wonderful attitude to have.

And now, take a few moments as the brethren play under the Spirit of God and fill your heart with thanksgiving for being alive, for being well, for being at least intact and here, and thank God for us that we can help you and feed you and teach you.  And thank God for yourselves that you are here to be able to hear.  Fill your heart with praise and appreciation, and when you end your prayer, end it on a note of great thanksgiving and see how you feel afterward.  And you prepare the ground and the heart or whatever God would like me to give you.  I prayed and I prepared myself for you, but I want you to feel God and remember, your very ability to look upon me and my dear spirit is proof positive that God has forgiven you.  Every sin you’ve committed up to this minute, is forgiven, because you are in the presence of God himself.  Just to be in my presence is forgiveness.  Think of that truth.  You cannot be in God’s presence without being forgiven.  God does not hold grudges.  God doesn’t hate his children.  God is not hatefully, despiteful to His children.  Your very presence here is a sign you love God and you want something from God to make you better people.  God knows your motives.  They are not that bad or you wouldn’t be here.  If your motives were good or bad, God would do three things.  One, keep you from coming into his presence because it could hurt you.  Two, have you so occupied that you can’t come into his presence, and three, get you so humbled that you are hungry to come into his presence. 

Thank God for the pleasure and the privilege to pray.  Do you realize you have the best telephone in the universe?  You don’t even need to dial.  Just talk.  Take a few moments now and thank God for everything.  It will be so good for you.  It will take away all of the irritability.  (Long pause for prayer)

Include in your prayers those that you love who are sick and would love to be with us and can't.  Ask God to forgive everyone that is in your memory that do not like you.  And ask God to forgive you for everyone you don’t like.  Let every day be a day of cleanliness and cleanness so that if today were the day you were to leave the world, you could leave with a good conscience.

The subject we are on is resurrection and those who are worthy for different kinds.  What a privilege to wake up every day to a new opportunity to make right all of yesterday’s mistakes and to prevent any of today’s.  What an art to be nice. I long for the time when truth, honesty, modesty, gentility, goodness, sweetness and unselfishness will come back into this world.  And love, genuine love, with no selfishness, no animosity, and no deceit hidden in it.  Just to be good and real people.  There is a time coming when this veil of tears will be removed.  In the mean time, we are going to do the best we can, each of us, in our own way. 

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, May 21, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

Peace be with you all.  Nice to see you all again.  Just for the benefit of my friends and my enemies, I feel well.  It’s a nice lesson.  It’s a very unusual experience to be in a humanity that you own and you can live inside, looking out and watch it, and as an innocent person, be perplexed as to these new things that are happening to you.  It gives you a sympathy, a great sympathy comes upon me and of course, a grandfather spirit stays with me.  I have a better understanding of human nature and I also see what produced it in my youth.  I always used to wonder why the Lord told me when I was a very young man, walk a lot, my son.  You will need it when you get older.  I didn’t know He meant, Old.  He said, older.  I just thought He meant older than I was then.  But because I walked for years, it is now taking it’s benefit toll on me to straighten me.  Where I used to have an instantaneous, acute, sharp memory, I’ve watched God not allow me to have that, but I have something better.  I have a strong understanding of the generalities rather than the specific, and in God’s sight, He’ll never make a man an offender for a word, if you don’t get things precise, but you give the tenor of a truth.  If you have the spirit of giving the tenor of a subject, that is higher and better than the particular and specifics because the tenor of a thing reveals your heart and your motive, whether you want to help or whether you want to find fault.  So I’m still in a learning stage and I will always be in a learning stage and I will remember these things.  Also, I want you to find this verse for me. It pleased the Holy Ghost.  Find that verse. It’s in Acts.

Acts 13:2  The Holy Ghost said, separate me Barnabas and Saul for the work whereunto I’ve called.  Isn’t that the same as saying, when the Holy Ghost makes an act, it affects God’s people.  And it pleased the Holy Ghost.  Is there an expression like that?  It pleased the Holy Ghost.  Act 15:28  For it seemed good to the Holy Ghost.  That's it.  It seemed good to the Holy Ghost and to us to tell you something. 

Sister Corresponding, will you stand up.   As of this moment among God’s people you are no longer Correspondingness, but it pleased the Holy Ghost to call you Believingness.  Because we are a people who are going to enter into heart belief instantly.  Welcome Sister Believingness. 

Heart Pep Talks

May 14, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

I was glad when they said to me, Let us go up to the house of God.  It’s a wonderful thing to know that in these closing days of planet earth so dark, God has a light in many different persons on earth, hungry, looking for God.  You are a very blessed people to have God as close as you do, and have a hope for truth.  Take a few moments while the brothers play and tell God you love Him.  Offer up your heart’s prayer right now in quietness.  And your strength will be in the quietness of your love, and your prayer to God.

Father, dear, thank you for the pleasure and the privilege of having your light, and to be told by you, Lord, an invitation to come into your presence.  Father, thank you for your truth and your love, your mercy and your kindness, to help us with these dark days of planet earth’s history.  So many of your little children are out there floundering, wandering, and looking for warmth and something real to hold on to. You know we’re here, Lord, and yet in your great love and wisdom you keep us back from being tremendous bright lights.

Help us Lord, to bring you glory and honor without any drop of selfishness in it.  Heal all of us who need healing, Father.  Heal every part of our being, inside and out.  Please accept our gratitude for health and strength, for friendships and for pets, thank you for our little pets, Lord.  Father, today it’s your will we learn about life.  Thank you for life and thank you for death.  Thank you for all things, Lord.  Thank you for prayer.  Someday help us to understand, Father, how prayer is the link-up between you and us. We walk by faith Lord.  We don’t walk by sight.  We long and desire that our lives will be worthwhile to you.  Thank you for friends and enemies, all used by you, Father, to make us better people.  May there never be in our heart anything but love.  Please help us to rectify all mistakes while we are able to.  Help us to be forgiving and loving.  There’s so much anger and animosity in the world today, and so much evil to take us away from you, and there’s so much natural good, Father too, that takes us away from you.  Keep us very close to your heart.

Please, Lord, hedge us in very tight, into the center of your perfect love and divine order, and please prevent us from ever sinning against you.  Don’t let us hurt you or grieve you, Lord.  Be with us today.  Have your way in our lives.  We are not stereotype people.  Have your way, Father.  Interrupt anytime that you want, however you want, by whatever means you want.   Take out of all of our hearts today, personal hurts, personal grudges.  And Lord, those who don’t like us, or hate us, or seek for our downfall, please forgive them.  Somehow, some way, help them. You alone know what has caused the human heart to turn out the way it has.  So many circumstances will forever be unknown to us as mortals.

Help your people all over the earth today in whatever degree that they love you.  Father dear, bless everyone who is trying to worship you today in any and every religion, where ever they are, their hearts are well meaning.  Only you, Lord, are the interpreter of the human heart.  Please take away all forms of pain and suffering.  Some day, Father, this world will be a place when there will be no more evil.  Everyone will be righteous.  Grant us a foretaste of this so that we can love and help people.

Some of our people are discouraged, Father. Help them, please.  This is a time of quietness.  Let your quietness which brings eternal assurance come into our hearts.  Thank you for our poverty, thank you for our richness, thank you for our enemies and thank you for our friends.  Fill us with your love that passes all human understanding.  Lord, we invite angels and good departed men and women spirits and children with us today, to help train them and teach them as they influence and inspire us.  We are a people filled with your spirit, Father.  You can do whatever you like with us.  Bless each and everyone of us, Lord.  And please bless the little ones.  Take good care of them.  Help us to watch the doors of our mouth and help us to be examples of your love and your light in this great dark world. 

Father, bless our departed friends and those who are scheduled to depart from this world, who love you and have done the best they could, Lord.  Help us to find fault with no one and no thing, ever.  Help us to always seek for someone’s good.  Make us courageous men, women, boys and girls.  Quiet us down from the turmoil of life that we may feel your love, your kindness and your mercy toward us.  Help us never to forget the pit from which you dug us out, you took us out from among the dead and you brought us in among the living.  Oh, God, there is no one like you in heaven or on earth, you are greatly to be praised.  (Lord is crying)  Take away all hurt and irritation from our lives and fill us with your love.  Help us to see every one as you see them and give us a loving, kind heart and be with us today Father.  Please have your will in our lives and thank you Lord, with all my being, I thank you.   We love you.  Amen.      

Take a moment or two and offer your own personal prayer while the brothers play.  Be still and know that I am God.

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, April 30, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

 Let God’s love come into your heart. So many millions today suffer.  You can feel their cry.  May we be an empathetic people.  I long for the day when this earth has birds singing again, and flowers blooming again, and no dark clouds under this heaven and there’s peace all over the world, and God is close to people.  Then there will be no more pain, no more sadness and heartache.  Love never ceases to hurt.  We used to have the time of the singing of the birds. You can even hear the poor birds have anger.  A thing unheard of.  O my poor world.  People are so broken, so sad.  And there is such cruelty in the human voice.  Oh, when you speak to people, mankind is your business.  Learn to send love out of your voice.  There’s so much hatred and unkindness everywhere.  Oppression, taking advantage of human need, getting rich on people’s poverty.  Many of us wonder what will we be able to do about it? 

When I open up my book, the Bible, and I read words like, Behold, what manner of love the father hath bestowed on us, that we should be called the sons of God.  Therefore the world knoweth us not, because it kneweth him not.  Beloved, now are we the sons of God, yet it doth not yet appear what we should be, but we know that when he shall appear, we shall be like him.  For we shall see him as he is.  And every man that has this hope in him, purifies himself, even as he is pure.  I look at my poor world every day of the week and I see how it’s deteriorating and in consonance with the deterioration of my world, nature has gone in rebellion to man’s needs.  Even when you look at the buds on the trees, there’s an anger in the budding. All nature is rebelling against serving man.  Man brought that about. Oh, poor, poor mankind. 

Sometimes we get very, very lonely.  If you could sympathize with people.  Think of the people on your planet, my beloved.  They have been alone for many, many years.  Some haven’t had a kiss, a hug, a warmth.  Do you know what the pain of loneliness is?  I pray we haven’t become a self-sufficient people.  To where we are filled with pride and we become careless.  Mankind is our business.  If you want perfection, become a servant.  The greatest in heaven are servants.  Take a few moments and talk to God, your Father.  Make a renewed commitment if need be.  Some of you are so starved.  You haven’t had a good taste of God’s living bread or his drinking water for a long, long time.  Renew your prayerlife.  The silences of God are so revealing.  Is it well with your soul?  Oh, my people, is it well with your soul?  It is written God is not in all their thoughts.  My people have forgotten me days without number.  When I asked the Lord that question as a young man, I was shocked at his answer. 

He gave me a lesson where a woman was ninety years old and he told me to be careful when I asked her a question.  I could hardly believe this woman at ninety, hadn’t talked to God since she was seven.  She knew something at seven and determined her life throughout her youth.  Find that in Jeremiah.  My people have forgotten me days without number.

Jer. 2:32  Can a maid forget her ornaments?  Can a bride forget her attire?  Yet my people have forgotten me days without number.  Fix that up, my people, while you have breath and are alive, fix that up.  Find this phrase.  Pray without ceasing.  You can do it. You can bring God into everything.  You can have a continuous conversation with God, that’s prayer.  Learn God’s ways.  Love Him.  Bring her into everything. 

I Thes 5:17 Pray without ceasing.  If we were a praying people, we’d have no sickness among us.  We’d have very little poverty.  We’d have encouragement and miraculous signs and gifts.  God would be so nigh to us.  We are deficient in so many areas.  Try not to be like the children of Israel, who because the way was long, they became discouraged.  They needed activity, so they found fault.  Is your activity based on fault finding?  You need some kind of exercise and you have to show it in anger or hatred?   Some of you don’t even know each other any more.  I put certain people’s names upon your heart and I tell you to call.  That’s because I know there are grudges there.  And you refuse to make the call because of the grudge.  I can’t use a people who have all kinds of hatreds and judgments.  I want you to be a people whose business is mankind.  Mankind is your business.  You are to love and to serve and to help and whatever is left in you that needs working out, I bring to you by all kinds of situations through persons, places and things to irritate you. Some of you have lost the art of corresponding.  You’ve become so unspiritual.  You are natural minded.  Then you come on a Sunday and you don’t bring with you the Spirit of God, softness and tenderness.  You are not a happy people inside.  You have angers, resentments, grudges and you are uncomfortable even when you come among each other.  You literally have fences, spiritual fences of resentment and animosity against certain people.  You have forgotten scriptures as to God’s character.  He is tender and sensitive.

Son of man, wilt thou judge my people?  Wilt thou judge them for me?  Yes, Lord.  Tell them they must not come into my presence to seek my counsel and my will as to how to serve me better when they have set up hatreds and grudges and evil in their heart.  Reprove them, son of man.  Speak to them to change.  He that cometh into my presence and seeks my mind, having idols set up in his heart, I will judge that man myself.  I will point him out, and myself, I will judge him.  To teach them not to come into my presence disrespectfully.  Teach them the difference between the clean and the unclean.  I am holy.  Make my people holy.  Your judgments, internal brought me into kidney stones.  Please, stop judging one another.(Lord is shouting now)  Look at my poor feet.  I stand upon the feet that you made for me.  Proud, arrogant, haughty. 

Think of how difficult it is to speak to the people I love.  This is God’s heart. Think of it.  I can take it from my enemies, but why from the people that I love.  Don’t let God down.  Free yourselves from a natural mind which is at enmity with God.  Get the spirit mind.  Learn to bring God into every phase of your life.  My people are ashamed of God.  You are ashamed of your identification with God.  I tried to call and train a people who would never be embarrassed in their love for God.  Who would be willing to speak out, no matter what it would cost them.  Your love for God and for truth will show in your denial of me, and of the truth I have taught you.  Think of the remorse you are going to have, like poor Peter.  I don’t know the man.  I don’t know his name.  I don’t know what he stands for.  Don’t accuse me of knowing the man.  Why?  Because I’m afraid for my life.  It all comes down to the spirit of fear.  Fear grips the hypocrite in heart.  I would be very scriptural if I said, your fears are the revelation of your hypocrisy. Hypocrites in heart, fear. 

Some of you are priding yourselves of the quietness surrounding your lives.  There are two kinds of quietness.  The quietness that avoids martyrdom and the quietness in martyrdom.

Joshua said, as for me and my house, we will serve Jehovah.  God has often said, go ye, serve the gods that have no breath and no life.  Find this verse.  My people have committed two evils.  See what they are.

Jer 2:11-13  Hath a nation changed their gods, which are yet no gods? but my people have changed their glory for that which does not profit.  (circle that) 

:12  Be astonished, O ye heavens, at this, and be horribly afraid, be ye very desolate, saith the LORD.

:13  For my people have committed two evils; they have forsaken me, the fountain of living waters, and hewed them out cisterns, broken cisterns, that can hold no water.

They turned away from the living God and set up idols, all kinds of idols, that will never give them life.  The natural mind is an enemy of God.  So many of you are taking on your natural mind, and you are placing God last in your life.  The natural mind will always be at war with God, it will never be subject to the Spirit of God.  That’s why many of my people are now entertaining sicknesses and diseases, discomfitures and doctors, and it’s going down and down.  You are even going to get life insurance.  When you start buying life insurance, don’t expect God’s spirit to be with you again, because you have lost your total faith.  Subtleties, unbelievable subtleties, you’re afraid to live and die for God.  You have the most illogical man on planet earth today, because I have a history of faith walk.  I walk by faith and I will walk by faith out of this life into the next.  I can never expect anyone to ever be like me.  But I hope my life will be some kind of an example for those who long to be close to God.  I would to God you would leave God out of nothing.  Bring God into everything.  Some of you have lost the touch of God’s voice.  You don’t hear God’s voice anymore.  I know this to be true.  You don’t know how tender and sensitive God is.

Find in Ezekial, son of man, teach my people the difference.

Eze 44:23  And they shall teach my people the difference between the holy and profane, and cause them to discern between the unclean and the clean. 

Find this verse:  Woe to them that call evil good, and good evil.

Is 5:20 Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter. 

Think of that.  Woe unto them that call evil good.  Do you know the difference between good and evil, so that you call evil, evil and good, good?  We have lost many of our correspondential  standards.  We have so many pockets that are open to evil.  You have been lax my people.  This people should have been filled by now with the visible presence of the Holy Ghost in each life.  I could have brought my people in during the Exodus, within two to three weeks.  They decided to take forty years.  I have a reason why I have been led in these last days of this ministry to teach you one of the most important teachings in my Bible.  The different kinds of resurrection, the long periods of sleep for some and life eternal.  There are people who will be worthy of never physically dying on this planet.  You have to understand the times. 

Ever since I had huge chart about four or five years ago that started with Nebuchadnezzar.  Remember that big chart that I started with Babylon and Media/Persia and God stopped me on the anti-christ and wouldn’t let me go any further.  It was too detailed.  He wanted me to give you hand fed truth.  So little by little God showed me to start with Matthew 24.  We spent over a year on Matthew 24.  Why was God so careful to teach you His end times spoon fed. Would you find in my Bible, I have spoon fed you.  Find that.

Is 28:9-10  Whom shall he teach knowledge? and whom shall he make to understand doctrine? them that are weaned from the milk, and drawn from the breasts.

For precept must be upon precept, precept upon precept; line upon line, line upon line; here a little, and there a little. 

We are coming into the worse times of human evolution and human history and you’ve got to be lights of love in a very dark world.  That’s why even the lulled time are training times.  I’ve been trying to teach you for over two years what it’s going to be like to be alone.  Each of you have got to go through dry periods and the only way you know you are going to make it is you bring up from within you, your own well of living water.  It’s going to be very dark soon.  It’s getting darker all the time.  There is very little truth in the world any more and the greatest deception is already here, and getting more and more prevalent.  A god who does not give light. The world is worshipping a dead god that doesn’t give light.  But this dead god gives mind, and smiles and forgets.  That’s the god of this generation.  But in the darkest hour there is still light.  Read the last verse in Isaiah 8.

Is 8:22  And they shall look unto the earth; and behold trouble, and darkness, dimness of anguish; dimness, do you know that anguish will be so great, the dimness of your love will be in exquisite pain?  Go ahead.

and they shall be driven to darkness.  Look at that. Driven to darkness.  Thank God for Chapter 9:1, read it.

Is 9:1  Nevertheless, the dimness shall not be such as was in her vexation, when at the first he lightly afflicted the land of Zebulun and the land of Naptali, and afterward did more grievously afflict her by the way of the sea, beyond Jordan in Galilee of the nations. 

9:2 The people that walked in darkness have seen a great light: they that dwell in the land of the shadow of death, upon them hath the light shined.

And a man named Jesus walked and Isaiah saw him as a great light in the land of darkness and shadow of death and when it was the darkest, God sent His love, His life eternal into the world.   How few felt it, how few recognized it.  You all here know me and the Lord by externalism, some of you know us internally, but do you have our light shining in your heart?  There’s not going to be many more years left, they are coming in swifter than a weaver on his loom.  Oh, my people, where is my Spirit among you?  I can walk by you and I cannot feel my Spirit.  I’m a very tender being.  If I remove myself from you and I get within my own life I can feel God.  I came to have you feed me.  I came to have you literally feed me, give me God, God is my food, God is my drink, God is my clothes, God is my education and my life.  Why talk to me of anything else but God?  There is nothing more meaningful.  I taught you to look for the God in every human person.  And be sensitive and tender.  I’ve trained you all for very special kinds of opportunities.  I’ve taught you, don’t go make opportunities, wait upon me.  But when I show you, don’t be reluctant.  I’m all knowing.  I know what they need.  They need you and what you have at that moment.  And you hold back.  You don’t give what I put in you. 

How I often wondered in my youth, why did I say that?  Why did I do that?  And God’s spirit of love would come upon me and would ask me a question.  Are you mine or not?  And I’d say, Of course, Lord.  Then God would say, then why have you determined when I come and go, I never leave when I once enter and if I’m in your heart, I’m there to stay forever. Those are my words, my son, that’s how I feel.  Those are my feelings.  When are you going to trust that only I live within your heart.  And I said, Lord, what is there in me that refuses to believe that it’s you?  He said, your natural mind.  You must work on it till the day you die, inside and out, for the natural mind is enmity against God.  Find that. The natural mind is enmity against God, that’s why the spirit of God within everybody is always hurt and grieved when some natural thing is pressured upon us.  The natural mind is at enmity against God.

Romans 8:6-7  For to the carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. Because the carnal mind is enmity against God; for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be.  Did you hear that?  The carnal mind can never obey God or his Spirit.  It will not subject itself to the spiritual mind.  I hope this little divine pep talk, my people, will free you from all the signs of your discouragement. Walk humbly with your God.  Love God with all your heart.  Judge no man for anything and free yourself from pride.  Learn to correspond and take everyone I send to you, as an education coming from me, and discern what it is that I want from you, for them, and from them to you.  To be spiritually minded is life and peace.  Find that.

Rms 8:6  For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.  Now if you want help in your physical body, be spiritually minded.  If you want quietness and peace from all kinds of internal disorder, be spiritually minded.  If you ever made a count, a study count, in the entire New Testament of how often this was said, and by whom, “he that hath and ear to hear what the spirit says, let him hear”, you’d be shocked at why God said it those many times and by and through whom and what it really means.  He that hath an ear, ears.   What are your eyes?  Who are your ears?  Who are your feet?  Who are your hands.  You have never studied it.  Every dispensational program God has, he likens to a human being.  Eyes are prophets and prophetesses.  Mouths are messengers and speakers for the living God.  Feet are those who love to run and tell, evangelists.  Hands, pastors, workers, doers.  If you would learn to correspond, my people. You have all fallen into a rut of compliance to no call.  You each have a special call and a composite call.  And you were given quietness for a few years to perfect yourselves.  And most of you have resorted to natural, human beings, religious, but natural.  You are called to be very special people.  Dramatizing martyrs.  You are futures’ martyrs, dramatizing the will of God while you are alive.  Prophets and prophetesses.

Sometime you ought to make a study from Genesis to Revelation, where did the office of a prophet come from?  Why?  What does God want?  When will it end?  You are in this fellowship only because either you or your parents had a call to be a prophet or a prophetess.  Even if you parents are lost and were never with us.  You don’t know how God’s call passes from father and mother to son and daughter.  And parents refuse the call of God, God waits till the child is at the right age where God can renew that call.  Because God’s call is without repentance.  That call will forever be on the parents who never obeyed.  They will pay to God for the omission of a call.  You have touched the heart of God.  Take a few moments, renew your commitment and never forget to tell God you love Him. 

Father dear.  May I please be the man that stands in the gap between you and your people.  Lord, in our most miserable, sloppy way, we love you.  Please forgive us for sinning against you.  Most unknowingly, and in some individual cases, knowingly.  But we didn’t think it was a sin, Father.  And your judging us because you love us, that we may not be partakers of the world.  Father, please heal your people.  Renew their love for you. Renew their call for you.  Fill your people with your Holy Spirit, Lord.  Have your will in our life.  Let love come from our hearts and from our deeds.  Help us not to be like the world, appointed to the day of judgment.  We know you love us, Father and we bless you and praise you for that love. Thank you for correcting us before it’s too late.  Be with us in this meeting.  We have such a little time together these days, Father.  Please help us before you shut us down altogether, soon.  Lord, teach us how to love you and how to pray to you individually, and to have you closer to us than any human being on earth, especially in the dark days that are coming.  Father, the pain and the cry that you must hear from this world is too unbelievable to me.  (Lord is crying)  May you have praying warriors here Father, that can pray for those poor people whose hearts are breaking everywhere.  O please, Father, perfect us quicker that we can be of use to you before we die.  Help us to do good before it’s too late.  Your love is so great.  Teach us that your vengeance work is to bring about a repentance and a remission of sins and take every form of hatred out of our hearts against anyone or anything or any place.  You are so good Lord.  We are unworthy of your smallest love offering. I personally as a man, thank you for sending me back into the world, Father, as a sinner, to overcome sin and to be a representative of you to my poor erring people.  My poor world is so lost, Father.  Help us as you did in days of old.  Help us.  O God, let the earth know who you are.  Show yourself great and mighty.  Come down upon us, Father.  Feel confident and comfortable to walk among us.  Clean us up.  Help us to have obedient willing hearts and minds and keep us from straying from your presence.  As straying sheep that we are, use your Shepherd’s crook, grab us by the nape of our neck and bring us in and comfort us. And thank you Father, O shepherd of Israel, let your light shine from between your cherubins and show us the right and good way and teach us to make a difference between the clean and the unclean, the unholy and the holy.  Help us to be clean and acceptable in your sight.  And please, Father, as sloppy and as miserable as we are, in the best efforts of our heart to you, please forgive us and help us, forgive us and heal us, forgive us and encourage us and send us on.  Bless this meeting today and whatever time we have left and help us to understand what it is that you want from our hearts and from our minds.  Amen.

 
Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, April 23, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

God’s peace be with all of you.  Why don’t you take a few minutes and tell God you love Him while the brothers play.  Dedicate to God.  Ask God to heal you, bless you, and encourage you.  Do it now.

Father, we love you Lord.  We come into you holy presence.  Thank you for life.  For health and strength.  Thank you for the call of God upon our lives, Father.  Thank you Lord that you have graced the spirit of indefeatable within us that we don’t get weary with this long wait to the point where we are discouraged as so many can be, Lord, in this generation.  Thank you for today and all that it will bring.  Bring us closer to your heart.  Thank you for health and strength, thank you for intelligence, thank you most of all for your Spirit and your word. Guide us.  Fill us with love.  A genuine unselfish love Father. Help our lives to be worthwhile.  Forgive us if, in our ignorance, we have sinned against you without realization or we offend you in people’s lives.  Help us to become aware of the tenderness and sensitivity of your love.  Bless the meeting today and all who would like to be here and couldn’t.  And help to stimulate us to know that we have some time left to prepare before these years of darkness close in forever.

Forgive us, Father, that we don’t talk to you more about everything and ask you to come in to our lives in every detail of our being.  We know that you are always trying to get through to us and we make it so difficult for you.  We don’t mean to, Lord.  Help us to have your attitude about everything in our individual lives and thank you for being with us, Lord.  Thank you for giving us favor in the eyes of the landlord of these places that we can have a meeting place all these years uninterrupted.  And Father, you know our need financially.  Put it into hearts of people to help us and protect us.  Fill us with an appreciation of how good you are and how you are in each individual life, Father.  And thank you Lord.  Thank you for this day of life to love and serve you better.  A day that we can make up for all the mistakes of yesterday and all the yesterdays.  And Father dear, thank you that your heart is so forgiving.  Bless my beloved people.  Bless them in their efforts of loving you and serving you the best that they know.  Bless whatever they have in their hearts to entertain us for your glory and honor.  And of course, Lord, bless your word and your spirit in people’s hearts.  And thank you Father for health and strength to love and serve you and do your will before we meet you, Lord.  Amen.

Heart Pep Talks

April 16, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

It’s very unique that all these months we have been on the lesson of life and death and this particular season is really no different to us.  We are not worshippers of babes and seasons, we are worshippers of a God-man.  It’s always nice to get together with God’s people especially when we don’t see one another for a while.  Just in case you may have forgotten to tell God you love Him, take a few moments.  We never know how a day goes.  Ask God to send you His love.  Ask him to forgive you if you forgot to tell Him you love Him all this past week. And commit this day into God’s hands.  One day you will be so grateful that you have learned God the way you have.  We don’t have an understanding of the love of God.  Think of how much God loves us that He would call us to know Him and to learn of Him and about Him.  And that love has such a wonderful plan to it.  Each of us have been called and chosen by God to love Him, just the way we are to love Him.  You cannot love God like anyone else.  You may be emulated to want to love Him like someone else does, but even the emulation is a design to get you to love Him.  And God is so knowingly kind, even His worst enemy, God has a very special love for.  We as human beings will never be able to attain to that love in this humanity, but we will be able to attain to a sufficient understanding of it which will be the catapult to go with us and move us on after this life is over.

I marvel how God has been with me as a child up to my very present moment and has removed from me the fear of death.  That to me is one of the greatest miracles that He gave me as Jesus Christ.  The love of Christ has forever removed from this vessel both the fear and the awkwardness of dying.  If that could have replaced that fear with a love and an anxiety to want to die, not out of pride, but like Paul said, for me to live is Christ but to die is gain.  I don’t need a special day to remind me of God’s love and of life after death, but I’m very grateful for whatever day or whatever moments or whatever God really wants to use to encourage and stimulate me and you to know that He is.  One day when we get the understanding of God and His love, it makes the difference to all monotony.

What a miracle God has done in this humanity. From Brooklyn to Paradise.  What a book can be written of each life.  We don’t know how many years we have left, either I as a human and you as a people.  But one thing I know.  God has never stopped leading us and never will.  To be a tender human being and a loving one is the greatest miracle that can happen to human heart.  We are going to learn some nice things today about life and death.  It depends on your attitude.  What you count valuable, meaningfull, that will go with you and help you for days and years that you don’t know.  I know in my life I have sowed many a good thing and didn’t realize that my sowing was going to be my very deliverance in after days when the spirit of God and the voice of God took something that I did and brought it back to me at the moment that I needed encouragement.  There is a scripture that says, sow your bread upon the waters and afterwards it will return to you.  He that goeth forth weeping bearing precious seed shall doubtless come again rejoicing, bringing in the sheaves.  That’s a nice song.  Would you play that song at this time, brethren?

Heart Pep Talks

Sunday, April 2, 1995

Plainville, CT

THE LORD JULIUS

I want this to be a nice meeting day.  Take a few moments in your heart and thank God that you are alive and well and we are able to meet again.  Very few people get that opportunity, you know.  Very few people in this generation are well.  I mean healed, feel good, have food, clothing and shelter, health, strength, intelligence. 

Praise ye the Lord: for it’s good to sing praise to our God; for it is pleasant; and praise is comely.

The Lord doth build up Jerusalem:  he gathereth together the outcasts of Israel.

He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.

He telleth the number of the stars; He calleth them all by their names.

Great is our Lord, and of great power: his understanding is infinite.

The lord lifteth up the meek: he casteth the wicked down to the ground.

Sing unto the Lord with thanksgiving; sing praise upon the harp unto our God;

Who covereth the heaven with clouds, who prepareth rain for the earth, who maketh grass to grow upon the mountains.

He giveth to the beast his food, and to the young ravens which cry.

He delighteth not in the strength of the house: he taketh not pleasure in the legs of a man.

The Lord taketh please in them that fear him, in those that hope in his mercy.

Praise the Lord, O Jerusalem; praise thy God, O Zion.

For he hath strengthened the bars of thy gates; he hath blessed thy children within thee. 

He maketh peace in thy borders, and filleth thee with the finest of the wheat.

He sendeth forth his commandment upon earth: his word runneth very swiftly.

He giveth snow like wool: he scattereth the hoarfrost like ashes.

He casteth fort his ice like morsels; who can stand before his cold?

He sendeth out his word, and melteth them: he causeth his wind to blow, and the waters flow.

He sheweth his word unto Jacob, his statues and his judgments unto Israel.

He hath not dealt so with any nation: and as for his judgments, they have not know them.  Praise ye the Lord.

How can the human heart or a human mouth express God’s patient, quiet love for His children and for all mankind.  These days we live in times worse than when Deborah said, the highways were bare, people dared not go out, robbers were everywhere until I arose a mother in Israel. 

What must God have in store to allow and design such times as these.  I marvel how people, both hither and yon go without a thought of God.  I can’t live without even one moment not knowing and talking to Him.  One day, many of you who could have had the opportunity to love God and know Him better with all times and seasons allowed you, will feel moments of remorse, because you couldn’t be closer.  The world is coming to an end in case you didn’t know it.  There is no more stability in our times, only God and His spirit and His word living deep and richly in our hearts will take us through.  I know what you must be going through, because I am very spiritual and I know what I’m going through.  But I’m glad I made God my life. I pray that you will make God your very life and let His spirit speak to you and encourage you.  We do not know how many more days God will allow us to have the peace and quiet and warmth of a building like this where we can meet together regularly.  I cherish those things.  Do you realize through all these years that we have been here God has never once let anybody come through those doors to break up our meeting. We take our health for granted, we take our environment for granted.  We take so many things for granted.  If it wasn’t for God, who of us of their own free will would want to think of God or have God encourage us and talk to us.  God has loved us before any of us knew how to love Him.  We are meeting today to learn more of God and of life after death.  I marvel how God wisely knows how to take time to stop us in certain phases of our lesson to teach us.  We need moments of resurrection energy between death trips.

Many of us haven’t got the vision yet, that this world is coming to a drastic end.  Look all around you, look at nature, look at people attitude and disposition.  I don’t think I have ever known a time in human history since I’ve been on earth where the desire to know God has to be prompted, almost continuously.  Because people of their own free will do not bring God up and out.  It’s not the norm anymore.  There are so few of God’s people in that habit of habitual prayer to talk to God.  The canopy over this planet of evil is so intense.  It’s God in us who is trying to help us bring God out of us.  And I, with my spirit, and with this people, have one of the most difficult calls.  That is to wake you up to the awareness of what exists after the death of this humanity.  Remember these are little subdivisions of the main chart, God, the God of gods, the Lord of lords.  God thinks it’s important enough to know this truth in these coming days, and if you are really spiritual and you love different forms of history and currant events and you are given a spiritual mind on how to put that together, what an encouragement as a prophet and a prophetess you can have to see God’s word being fulfilled.

I know the joys.  When I was introduced into the scriptures, and I began to read certain things that to my natural mind, seemed far out and far fetched, certain perplexities came to my heart and mind.  How will that be?  How can that be?  I didn’t ask it not believing, I asked it as a student wanting to know and learn.  One of them was, when I read in my very early ministry, I was led to the two witnesses, it said the whole earth shall see them and I used to ponder on that and little by little God began to show me that the whole world to see them, has to have some kind of an instrument where they can be looked at.  And I didn’t know that the word “television” existed, but God showed me a box that I could sit in my room and look at.  I didn’t know what to call that box.  It’s like the prophet that has no words for something.  And then God made a transition and showed me how Satan did the same thing to Jesus.  He showed him all the kingdoms of the world in a moment in time, and the Lord told me that was “supervision”, he could see into the future.  And then, one day, a few years later, I was learning how to be a salesman, and a job was offered to me to sell televisions.  I didn’t know what a television was, but I needed a job, and boy, I found out I’m not a salesman.  I don’t sell good at all, but God showed me this box is going to become world wide someday, but not until they put the telestar up that telestar was able to put that picture signal on any television throughout the whole earth.  And so, it gave me such an encouragement.  I knew God was right, I just didn’t know how I would understand it.  that’s why in many of our lessons I’m telling you things and because of my gift as a Prophet.

I know my heart, and you are my friends, I don’t want to see anybody lag behind or lost, but there is such a great lack in this people for prayer.  You are not a praying people and it’s going to hurt you.  You don’t pray.  You should learn how to pray.  And you should pray and get answers.  My love for you produces a great tenderness in my heart because I love you and I miss you and I love helping you and I want you to help others.

Please do all you can, our needs our great. Thank you very much my people.